Kibum`s POV

First, I didn`t really understand. I didn`t want to understand what it meant, what exactly his words meant. But I had this feeling, this scaring feeling that I would find out soon. And I wouldn`t like it, at all. Endless pain… that is what he said. Endless pain for the rest of my life.

I could still feel Jonghyun`s hand in mine. His touch as warm as sunrays on my skin. But I couldn`t see him, couldn`t see his tanned hand as I was floating in fog filled air. Banishment, that is what he meant. I knew, I knew it the whole time. And I only wanted to close my eyes, not wanting to see the truth lying before them.

I wouldn`t see him again. I wouldn`t see Jonghyun ever again. I knew exactly what God did to me. He did it before. Banishing someone to a place we couldn`t reach easily. And not even my heavy tears streaming down my pale face could change anything. It was the end, the end of us, the end of him.

God knew. Words weren`t needed to explain the relationship between Jonghyun and me. He knew it as he saw our hands entwined into each other’s. He knew it as he saw Jonghyun`s dark eyes looking into mine lovingly. He knew it as he could feel that shining glow around his body, created by no other then myself as I let him love me passionately that night.  

The sweet memory still manifested in my mind like old runes on thick stone walls. His touch still burning my skin by the thought of it. That night, I will never forget. That night, the end was set. For us, for us. Still I don`t regret, I will never regret. Because I felt loved, so much loved for the first time. Lo