Jonghyun`s POV

Tighter, tighter. I hold him tighter until I almost couldn`t breathe anymore. Not that I could breathe without him now anyway. I didn`t want to know the truth. No, I couldn`t stand to face it now. It was just too hard to bear it, even though I always told myself I didn`t care about it. How could I not care, when it would be the end of us someday?

It hurt so much to see him like this. Crying, shaking, breaking down. And I could do nothing, nothing to make him feel better, nothing to soothe his pain, nothing to soothe my pain. I only could grab the pieces of his heart as they fell onto me like heavy raindrops in a night storm. Everything about him now seemed so weak and breakable.

I felt like it`s my fault he became like this, strong eyes slowly changing into helpless ones as he stared at me. Still, I have to try. I wanted to see his beautiful smile again, wanted to see his strong eyes again. The ones I loved the most in this world with him. So I told him that everything will be okay. It will be okay. I repeated it again and again, till I made myself believe in my own words, still holding him in a tight embrace.

his soft hair with my hand until his tears became only salty ways on his checks. His breathe calmed down as time passed, heart beating slowly as his body fell limp in my arms. Eyelids closing as he let himself fall into my body even more. And I let him, too exhau