Jonghyun`s POV

As my rain like teardrops fell onto his emotionless face I knew it. I knew it immediately. And I only could lay my hand softly over his big heart. Hoping to still feel it`s quite beating, but I didn`t feel it anymore. Not anymore. I the place lovingly. He shouldn`t feel empty there. And burrowing myself into his motionless form, I only could repeat my words again and again. I love you, I love you deeply. And I wished you could hold me now, cradling me into a dreamful sleep. A sleep full of only you.

But now it was me. Me who swayed your cooling body slowly and held you tightly, until I was sure I could let you go into dreams far away. And I hoped you wouldn`t escape my hold until you came back to me. I will hold your hand until then. Be sure I will, so you won`t feel lonely. So you won`t feel scared. I promise. I promise to you. I will make your gray dream more colorful.

And I will sing you a beautiful song. I will hum it softly into your ear. So when you make your final step to a cliff jump into dark deeps, you won`t fall. You will fly, only fly with beautiful wings. I will give you light to see and warmth to keep warm. So you can come back to me someday.

I removed your mask. You didn`t need it where you would go. And I wanted to fill my mind with your face once again. One last time I wanted to see your closed eyelids. Thin eyelashes printed onto them like fine art. One last time I wanted to see your high cheek bones. I them softly. One last time I wanted to see your cute nose. I touched it with mine and inhaled your sweet scent. And only one last time I wanted to see your lips. I decorated them with mine. Molding them together to say my final goodbye. I can still see the small smile they formed.

Sometime later a woman came into the room. She never asked who I was. Not that I cared. I learned later that she was his mother. And I`m glad that she never asked me to let him go, as I still held onto him tightly. She gave me time.

Somehow I never understood humans before. Why would they burrow the dead into the ground? Why were they so eager to touch a dead person, only to let them go and ne