Jonghyun`s POV

Kibum - seeing that name flashing into my mind seems like the answer to all my misery, to all my questions. And with it came memories of his beautiful smile and his shining eyes. But everything seemed so sad at the same time. Tears, I saw so many tears, hushed words and shaking breathes.  Saw trembling lips, small hands in mine and sweet whispers.

He was everything I was missing these past days, weeks, months. It all came back as I opened this white door. It was so heavy, so heavy loaded with past experiences. And for just one moment I thought, why does it feel like this? I doesn`t feel right. And I asked myself every passing second, what have we done to deserve something like this?

I felt the pain, the pain of losing him, without knowing it was him. Saw day and night his blurred face and felt his comforting touch. I was so confused, so frustrated to find him. Him with the unknown identity. But him, I missed so much, so much. I almost gave up, thinking it wouldn`t matter, it should matter to me. My legs already too weak to search any longer and lungs too burned out, to take proper breathes.

But I felt it, felt it deep inside me. That pulling, that pulling feeling. So I walked and walked. Walked like a madman with a tear strained face and read eyes. People were watching me, I could feel their eyes on me, but I didn`t care at that moment. I felt I was near. I had to hurry. And it brought me to an unknown place with strange machines.