Kibum`s POV

Somehow lying in his arms right now made me so sad. Not only because I was so scared about what could happen to us once we would leave our hiding spot. I knew we had to separate soon. We couldn`t be together like this forever. Forever… it seems more like a dream to me.

I knew he had to go sooner than me. People knew he was alive, now missing at his usual spot surrounded by hell fire. I on the other hand was dead in everyone’s eyes. It sure would be a surprise to both father and angels, if I walked through heavens doors again. Feeling warms winds on my skin again. But it wouldn`t be the same anymore. Not anymore…

And if reading my mind, he placed his hand on my check. Signaling me to look at him as he told me all these unspoken words of dismay.

“I have to go soon Kibum.”

He told me with devastated eyes, tears slowly finding their way to the ground we were sitting on. And I only could let them flow, my attempts to stop them long forgotten as I watched these beautiful eyes shedding bloody tears. Even wiping them away couldn`t help in this moment. I couldn`t even stop my own tears from falling.

What are we going to do? Do I have to live my life knowing I wouldn`t see him again? Knowing I couldn`t live my life with him? It`s not fair. Why me? Why him? Why do we have to live like that? Will I be able to wear a mask in front of everyone? Playing my