Jonghyun`s POV

I wasn`t at school that day and I wasn`t the following days either. Live just seemed so empty and I didn`t know why. There was just this feeling. This oppressive feeling in my chest. Something was wrong. Something was terribly wrong. It was frustrating, so frustrating. I couldn`t do anything but laying here in my bed for days. Not moving a muscle. Somehow just laying here felt so familiar, as if I did it before for unknown reasons.

But like always, even at that point was something missing. I thought about it every day. The night even gave me dreams about you. You, the one I couldn`t see, but feel. Feel you right next to me. Holding my hand with warm touches and fingers caressing my cold skin. There was just too much fog around us. So much fog, I wished it would finally go away, so I could see your face. Make out your eyes, nose and lips.

Lips I wanted to feel so badly. Parting to whisper sweet nothings into my ear, but I couldn’t hear what you were saying. Only feel, feel your hot breath against me. Who are you? Who are you? I would ask every night to you. Every part of my body next to you. Hold me, hold me and never let go. I wanted to scream, scream so loud. But I couldn`t open my mouth.

So I left that part to my crying soul. Keeping next to you, like a dead doll on the dirty floor. In the morning you were gone again, as if you wouldn`t exist at all. But I could still feel your touch on my skin, burning screaming marks onto it. You are lik