Kibum`s POV

This was just like any other day, I told myself. Though it felt so different at the same time. Since I woke up this morning I had this strange feeling in my chest. It was confusing me, to feel my heart beat that fast. So fast, I couldn`t remember when it beat like that the last time.

I felt strangely happy that day. For once I couldn`t feel my depressing truth lying before my feet like a dead piece of meat. I would just walk over it, I thought every day. But the smell of rotten flesh still lingered in my nose routs. After all, there was no escape from reality.

A reality I still didn`t want to see. I didn`t want to see you not standing in front of me. But something changed today. It changed, but it didn`t change. Nothing different as I made my way to school like every morning, closing the door behind me as my mother bid me goodbye. A long way I had to go, but the bus helped me getting faster to my desired destination.

Not that I really wanted to be in that building called school. I would rather stay at home, swallowing my salty tears when thinking about him. But it was good this way, wasn`t it? Maybe he would find me faster that way. I strongly hoped so. His promise still in my mind. But everything was so far away, just like you. Just like everything else we once felt. My body numb as it couldn`t remember the feeling of your touch anymore.

So long, so much time passed already and it hurt every day more and more. No one could know though. My façade strong, imprinted in my face like a bloody t