Sun was setting fast on October the Thirteenth, 2008

On the cafe where they had their first real date, his left hand grasped her right over the table.

She didn’t pull back.

Both knew it was time to tell the truth.

No more secrets.

*****

“Hyunnie, is this a right time to talk?”

“Yeah, Oppa. Let me know. As it is. No more secrets.”

He was breathing deeply. He had been fixed in telling her the truth. But it was not easy, it never be easy anyway.

“I was trying not to cry when I left everything I accustomed of, everything I love,” he paused and looked at her, “... You, eight years ago.  I couldn’t cry because I was a big boy. And I have been trying to make Appa proud at me. “

She unconsciously tightened her grip when she heard that.

“He always proud of you, Oppa.”

He smiled sadly. “Maybe. But it was hard for a boy with three awesome older brothers to compete with on a father’s affection. So even when it hurt and scary, I had to be brave.”

He sighed and continued.

“And the first months in the boarding school were not really a paradise. Some boys hated me because of Heechul-Hyung’s Presidency.  Some others were afraid of me. I don’t have any real friend at those months. So I spent time on drawing.”

He paused and a small smile appeared.

“And then I saved Changmin. The boy whose friends always bullied me. And I Thank God of his presence in my life.  Not like you of course, but he is one of the best thing that ever happened on my life.”

She smiled too.

“He is indeed a boost on one’s happy level.”

He chuckled and brushed her hand softly.

“He is. But being with him also brought complication, because he was so carefree. Especially when we older and all the exams and tasks drove us crazy. “

Unconsciously he pulled their hand to his lips, but slowly she drew back her hand.  He startled but quickly grasped her hand before it slip away from his.

“He went to party and dated girls. I went to the park and watched swans and birds.”

She chuckled and felt easier that few minutes ago.

“But since I... I went back here and saw.... saw you grown so beautifully. My head was not really functioned well. “

She blushed, remembered the day she met him again after three years of separation.

“My head was not functioned well too that day, Oppa.”

“Yeah. But you’re not the 15-th years old who think he was a e when a 12-years old girl who was practically your dongsaeng for life suddenly filled his dreams every night.”

Now she blushed so hard, luckily he did not seem to acknowledge it.

“So I trie