Three months later in December...

It was snowing heavily outside my window as I lay on the mini bench next to the window. I watched as the breathtaking scenary unfolded in front of my eyes. The beautiful white snow floated in every direction of wind before falling and landing on the ground, creating a patch of white fluffy layer on the walkway. There were many couples strolling in the park below, hand in hand, shoulder to shoulder. From my window, I could also see the fans, who were standing and waiting outside the SM building. Many of them were huddling closed to the security guard post to protect themselves against the strong cold wind. I, on the other hand, was hiding in my dormitory with my comforter wrapped around me and a mug of warm hot chocolate in one hand and a book of 'The Fault in Our Stars' in the other. I shuddered as I thought about the strong cold wind outside, not wanting to leave my house any moment now. I took a big sip of hot chocolate and felt my body warming up with the heat.

"Ahhhh," I sighed happily. "This feels good."

I took out my phone as I scrolled through my Kakaotalk history. My eyes landed on the recipient name, PCY. I was immediately washed over with a wave of sadness in my heart. I smiled sadly as I tapped on his username.

KAKAOTALK (1st September 2015)

PCY / 12.00AM: Chaeyeon-ah. Where are you? PCY / 12.05AM: Are you coming to send me off?
PCY / 12.11AM: Chaeyeon-ah, I can't find you in the crowd. I am sorry. :( I have to leave for the boarding gate soon... 
PCY / 12.15AM: Chaeyeon-ah, I am entering the departure gate now... See you in a year's time... I guess?
PCY / 12.30AM: Don't miss me too much. But I will miss you alot...
PCY / 2.00AM: Chaeyeon-ah, I am flying off right now. All the best for your idol career! Please take care of my family on my behalf! My mother would be happy to see you again after so many years. See you real soon! Bye!

You have reached the end of the conversation.

In case anyone haven't noticed, Chanyeol had left a string of text messages on the day he flew but I hadn't seen it until the very next day because I was too desperately trying to locate him at the airport before his flight. Everyone that knew about this had scolded me for being 'stupid' and not replying to his messages after reading it. I know. I know that I should have replied immediately to apologise and explain what happened but I did not. I regretted. It is kind of awkward to randomly text him now because I know that when he sees my new messages, he will see his last sent messages too. I just couldn't bring myself to do it.

I haven't contacted any other EXO members either. I think they are all too busy with their album preparations to contact me too. So I can't really find out how Chanyeol is doing even if I want to. But deep down in my heart, I know that he is doing well and moving on without me in his life.

Anyway, tomorrow is the annual SMTOWN Concert in New York, America. I have a scheduled flight with the rest of my members tonight at 11PM. The rest of the SMTOWN seniors have already made their way there in batches. They just couldn't fit everyone into the same flight because both the airport woud be crazily filled up with fans from all the fandom and it would be too risky for SM to put all their assets on the same plane.

So, the thing is, I would most likely bump into Chanyeol tomorrow and I am not sure what should be the first thing that I should tell him when I see him at the backstage. Damn, I wasn't even sure I would even bump into him given our performance sequence from the least popular idols to the most. I shouldn't keep my hopes too high in case I would just be disappointed if I don't see him at all.

Many fans have commented on my instagram, asking me if it feels weird to not see EXO at the company now because my fans all knew about my tight relationships with them. Of course it felt weird. I used to seeing them almost every week during my trainings but now the company felt a lot emptier without their loud presence. It felt like a part of me was missing.

So what exactly happened to Sehun after his departure from Roommate? I am not exactly sure either. Right after his departure, SBS had announced that they will not replace him with a new cast but instead they will end the reality show. It was a bad news for the rest of us because no filming meant less income for the year. As for Youngji, DSP Media had sent KARA back to Japan to focus on their Japanese promotions. With Sehun in the states and Youngji in Japan, I am not sure how well they are maintaining the long distance relationship.

The only good news for me was that I am casted into the next season of We Got Married. I will begin my filming once I am done with the SMTOWN Concert in the states. I have no idea who my future partner would be but I have read a few articles on my potential love interest in the show. They are CNBLUE's Minhyuk, Super Junior's Kyuhyun and INFINITE's Myungsoo. I am good with all three of them to be honest because its a virtual and fake marriage afterall.

"Chaeyeon unnie, did you see my blue phone cable?" Hyor