Thirty Six - When I was your Man

Author POV

It's been 4 weeks since the accident happen. Jiyong confine in hospital for 1 week. He is not talking. Just silent. Or always looking far away. He only eat few then sometimes he dont have appetite in eating. he lose weight. His hair is always messy and he don't shave. He just let his self look miserable. Sadness in his eyes. He live like that in 4 weeks. His friends Bigbang and 2ne1 always visiting him. Cheering him but still, he is not his self. His heart died. So he is. He knows that Dara is missing again. That added more burden in his heart. He always think of her. Every night when he is alone in his room he cry his heartaches. For the pain is still unbearable. He still hurting. He missed her. He still loved her. Despite of all. His heart still beats for her. 

 It's so hard to live with out her. 

 It's so hard to be happy with out her.

 Times fly fast. It's already in their finals. Still Dara is nowhere to be found. He is now going in his class. For his bruise, cuts, broken arm are now totally healed. But still his heart is still broken. He is longing for Dara. His heart longing for her. 

 It's so hard that he can't see her. It's better that she is there. Near to his sight. Not this, not that he don't know where she is. 

 He always asking his self. If There a chance that Dara and him can still be together?

 He is praying every night for that. He is hoping.

 Then random things going to his mind. Like what if Dara and Minho are together and she is happy now with him?

 But then he shook that thought cause 2ne1 said that Minho don't know where Dara is. And the guy is still in Seoul. 

 They find Dara in whole Seoul but they didn't find her. They go to Jeju but still, nor her shadow they didn't see. 

 Maybe Dara don't want to come out and don't want to come back.

 Maybe she forget him and now moving on with her new life with out him.

 All of the negative things he think make only his heart aches.
 
"Dara ah come back juseyo. Your so cruel. Your so mean. Why did you leave? If you are punishing me? don't be like this. Don't be like this that i don't see you. i don't know where you are. l can't. I can't live with out you. I can't be happy with out you. Please come back. I want to see you. I still love you. Please baby girl."

He is now in auditorium. He go there for he is missing Dara so much. He remember when he plays the piano and serenade her. Remember when he kissed her. Her lips are the most sweetest thing he ever taste. He love kissing her.

He sigh. Then play the piano. Playing When I was your Man.

"Same bed but it feels just a little bit bigger now
Our song on the radio but it don't sound the same
When our friends talk about you, all it does is just tear me down
'Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name

It all just sounds like oooooh…
Mmm, too young, too dumb to realize
That I should've bought you flowers
And held your hand
Should've gave you all my hours
When I had the chance
Take you to every party
'Cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby's dancing
But she's dancing with another man

My pride, my ego, my needs, and my selfish ways
Caused a good strong woman like you to walk out my life
Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made, ohh…
And it haunts me every time I close my eyes

It all just sounds like oooooh…
Mmm, too young, too dumb to realize
That I should've bought you flowers
And held your hand
Should've gave you all my hours
When I had the chance
Take you to every party
'Cause all you wanted to do was dance
Now my baby's dancing
But she's dancing with another man

Although it hurts
I'll be the first to say that I was wrong
Oh, I know I'm probably much too late
To try and apologize for my mistakes
But I just want you to know

I hope he buys you flowers
I hope he holds your hand
Give you all his hours
When he has the chance
Take you to every party
'Cause I remember how much you loved to d