The next day finally came. I slowly opened my eyes, and took a sitting position. I felt a lot better. I used my eyes to scan the room, just to see Luhan entered with a bowl of porridge. When he saw me, he put the porridge on the table, and ran to me. He immediately put his hand on my forehead. "Ngg.." I tried to back off. "You're good now, finally.." he smiled at me. Tried to be honest, I was not really used to this sweet, and kind-hearted Luhan. It felt strange to see him like this. He took a spoon of porridge, and served it to my mouth. I was dumbfounded. What was he doing? I faked a smile, as I wanted to take the spoon from him. "I can eat by myself." I said. "No.." he refused. "You're not fully healed. Remember your back?" He added. I sighed. "What's the relation between my back, and eating? It's obvious that I use my mouth...and hands." I replied in a duh-tone. I rolled my eyes on him. "End of discussion. Just let me." He insisted. He grabbed the spoon, and fed me the porridge. It was awkward. I didn't dare to look at his eyes. "Do you do this..because..you feel guilty?" I asked him nervously. He stopped feeding, and he looked at me for a while. "Actually..yes. I do feel guilty. But I'm not doing this because of that reason.". "Then why?" "Because I've considered you as.." he paused for a few seconds, then continued "a friend.." he looked deep into my eyes. I was touched by his words. No one had ever said those to me. I smiled. 

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Today was the day. After the vow, I was no longer Kim Hana anymore. I would be part of the Xis. I was in the make up room now. A lady in her mid thirty was putting the make up on me. Eomma, and yuna unnie were also here. They were busy giggling, and talking about stuffs. Sometimes they would tease me. My wedding day was supposed to be good, but it wouldn't ever be like that. I had no parents to accompany me on this day. I missed them, so much.. without my awareness, my tears slipped dow