THE PAINFUL PAST
SERIES 1: OTHER SIDE OF LOVE
Hyun joong started to ask questions, though he told this boy not to ask for everything, not to ask for more love, just be with him is enough, not to ask for his past or things that makes his partner upset and sad,,,But on that day? That time?, the curiosity of knowing his boyfriend’s past came to his mind, he broke his words, it molds the eagerness in his heart to find the mystery behind,, when he first saw him when they were still in grade school, this boy is like an angel, soft, and shy, but now he still looks like an angel but a cold angel version,,eyes were sharp and no expression at all ,he wants to know everything behind it and why this boy is afraid and scared of loving again,,,
Young saeng still froze in his spot looking down his lap… “I want to know everything,,,the reason for your doubt on me…you said it,,,you don’t want to be hurt again,,,I want to know,,,saengie“,,,those were the words that hyun joong asked him,,,the battle at the back of his mind hasn’t done yet until he realize that maybe it’s really matter for his boyfriend to know behind everything,,
“tell me, huh? Hyun joong lift up the boy’s chin and cup the face..
“why you want to know everything? Am I not enough at the present,,,saengie asked in low tone,,,
“because I want to know my limit,,I want to know how could I avoid having mistakes and what to do to not cause you pain and being hurt,,,hyun joong answered giving him strength to shout everything,,
Young saeng clenched his teeth and slowly remove the hands of his boyfriend from his face,,,,
“it’s hard for me to say it, but yeah I think you have the right to know my past,,,saengie said causing his boyfriend to look satisfied…
“then tell me,,I will help you forget everything if it’s really not good,,,hyun joong told,,
“I had a scandal in my previous school,,,a scandal that made my father upset to the extent that he considered me as a shameful son,,he was ashamed because one of the contributor in the school is one of his colleague and partner in their new business,, saengie started, you an see the sadness in her face, in her tone and the way he talk,..
“it’s okay baby,,,just tell me everything,,,hyun joong said and became a good listener as young saeng continued every detail of his past,,,,
“I was happy being with my boyfriend whom i trusted even before we got into the relationship, that boy courted me and i accepted him immediately,,i like him too in the first place, so why not try,,only our friends knows about our relationship,,we were so inlove If you think of it, happy and all so sweet behind other people,,saengie continued..
Until one day a guy, another guy came to me and confessed too,,,the guy belongs to the delinquent group of the school,,i rejected him since I already have someone but he didn’t stop since I didn‘t told him who was that someone im talking about,,,,he always bothers me even if I am with my boyfriend,,it cause us to argue all the time,,he gets too jealous,,I always explain to him that I already rejected that guy,,,saengie paused, and smile with the boy beside him,,,hyun joong nodded to let him continue..
“it’s weekend when I received a text, it’s unfamiliar umber but at the end of the message it’s from my boyfriend saying that we need to meet at the front school, I was happy back then I thought the argument that we had that day is now okay, and he called me to reconcile, I went to the meeting place, I waited for 30 minutes until someone came,,the guy that I rejected,,,he was inviting me and told me that he was watching me since I arrived to the school,,he tries to brainwash me telling that my boyfriend will not come,,he even mentioned the name,,I don’t know where did he found the information,,I was in panic since our secret came out,,he dragged me inside the school, I was so startled and tried to find anyone but there’s no one in there,,,saengie paused again and his tear fell,,
“baby,,,im sorry,,I think we should stop,,you can tell me that next time,..hyun joong said, he was hurting seeing his boyfriend with those tears,,he felt guilty for begging him to tell everything,,but saengie just continue,,
“He dragged me to one of the classroom and pushed me on the wall,I was too weak, all I am thinking is what if everybody will find out our secret,,he took my phone and I didn’t notice it and started to kissed me,,I tried to free myself but I cant, I cried and begged but he continue to kiss me until he let go of me,,I froze there,,I can’t move,,bu it didn’t end there,,he showed me the picture that he captured while kissing me, he just laugh while he slid my phone back to my pocket,,I tried to go but he blocked me and started to kiss me again,,I was blank, I can’t do anything to protect myself until someone came,,,I was thankful but I was shocked when I saw who it was,,
“it’s your boyfriend? Hyun joong interrupted,,saengie looked up and nodded.
“yes he is,,I thought he came to rescue me but it’s not,,he gave a punch to him, yes but then he faced me and slap me,,my world ended,, I thought I am dying because I can’t breath,,the one I love just slap me,,
“what is this all bout????,, he kept shouting it, asking me, I cant give a damn answer, I was on the verge of collapsing,,,I don’t know what to do when he showed me the photo on his phone, the same as the photo that the other guy showed me, it was sent to him using my phone,,I attempted to explain but I was surprised when the other guy spoke,,
“I told you,,he will be mine soon,,see? He’s mine,,the moment you told me that you have a special relationship with him,,I already know it,,he will be mine,,,that’s the guy revealed, I don’t know what they had talked to but then my trusted boyfriend just told that guy our secret, and they had a deal,,,
“you’re disgusting young saeng,,,,you flirt with him? You are such a ,,,I swear and I regret that I liked you,,,I shouldn’t listen to my friends, I should’ve refuse to their petty game,,courting you is the most stupid thing I ever did,,” ….saengie chuckled,,those were the words he told me before leaving me,,and the bad guy left me too,,,my boyfriend didn’t answer any of my call that day, I was calling him the whole day and night but he didn’t pick it up..I thought it was just due to his anger,,,but I am wrong,,the next day, when I entered the school all eyes were staring at me, murmuring something,, I saw him at the classroom but he just smirk at me sarcastically and did ignore me,,,
“then? You both never back again? I mean,,he didn’t let you explain? Hyun joong asked..
“ani,,never,,after that I was called in the principal’s office and there all the teachers are waiting for me,,,the bad guy is there too, I wonder what’s happening, they gestured me to sit beside him and I did,,,the principal showed us the enlarge photo of us kissing,,,I was shocked again,,,I didn’t had the time to feel embarrassed, all I did was thinking, why that photo spread all over the campus,, I am a victim,,I was harrassed,,I did nothing,,,saengie sobs this time, controlling himself to cry out, but the tears just flows down his cheeks,,
“baby,,enough,,that’s enough,,I’m sorry,,,lets stop now,,hyun joong then pulled him into his embrace but saengie continue to tell the story,,
“they told us that one of us is better to dropped out or else they will force to kick us both,,,,they gave us one day more to decide who will do the dropping out,,unfortunately I was forced since my father scolded me when I got home,,and told those words on me,,that I am a disgraceful to the family,,I explain and told them that I was then harassed and forced,, they believed me in the end but they told me to just drop out because he cant face his friends because of that scandal…. I left the school the next day after confronting the bad guy,,I saw my boyfriend but he ignored me,,and all the students were teasing me..
“it’s okay,,,everything will be erased in your mind,,I will help you,,I’m sure those people regret now that they lost you and not one of them stayed with you,,,,hyun joong comforted his boyfriend,,,,
“wae? What if one of them stayed,,do you think I’m here now, do you think you can hug me like this? Saengie said though he felt like crying out loud now,,,
“no..I am glad you are here now,,shall I thank them? I must,,ahmmm,shall we go to your previous school, I will personally thank them,,,hyun joong joked,wanted to cheer the boy,,
“aigoo,gomawo,,I know ive lost my trust to anyone, I hate to love again,,I promised to myself not to entertain anyone,,but you are here giving your best to prove yourself to me and here I am still having my confusion on what I feel for you,,,I’m sorry for not giving you my whole trust,,I’m just afraid,,saengie confessed..
“it doesn’t matter,,time will tell, you will trust me in the future,,I assure you that,,I’ll prove my intention to you, I may not assure you what will happen in the future but one thing I can assure you,, I love you and I will always love you,,,,hyun joong swore, he promised,,and hug him tightly,,,
“gomawo,,,saengie whispered, he braced his arms around hyun joong,,
It’s already late,, long story ended,,and youngsaeng just felt tired out of it,,talking for more than an hour is just a tiring job to do,,,he yawned…
‘’tired? Hyun joong asked when he notice his boyfriend,,
“hmm,,saengie hum and nodded,,,
“lets go inside now,,,sorry if I tire you,,,let’s go for you to able to get rest,,,hyun joong said as he pulled up his partner from the bench,,
They headed to their room, both change into pajamas after taking their bath,,hyun joong who took a bath first waited his boyfriend to come out and led him to the bed,,he tuck the blanket properly to him and switch on the lampshade after,,good night,,he whispered and turn the main lights off to get their sleep…
Young saeng glance at the other bed,,he was thankful that he has someone to talk to about this thing aside from his best friend,,,thankful that there is this man willing to give everything for him,,but he kept on feeling scared whenever he remembers the past,,that two guys,,his ex boyfriend who just threw him like a puppy and that other guy, junsu, he can’t forget what he did to him,,,
He remember, it is clear to him still,junsu, the bad guy just gave his sincerity to him at firt but he hates it, because he was the reason for ruining his life,,
~flashback~
“young saeng ssi,, I’m sorry,,I didn’t plan it to happen,,I never thought your boyfriend will spread the photo,,I thought he loves you,,,junsu says as he chased young saeng after the meeting with the principal and teachers,,
“he do but you ruined it,,you broke us apart,,,saengie said furiously,,
“no,,look what he did,,if he really loves you then why he made a deal with me? Junsu revealed..
“deal? Saengie asked…
“he went to me and warned me to stay away from you,, but I refused, then he came out with a deal,,that if I able to get you then he will let go of you,,but look it’s all his plan,,look at him now,,he is with someone else,,,junsu said,,
“liar,,you’re telling me that so that I will hate him,,,but I hate you instead,,,you touched me,,I hate it,,I hate you,,why me? Why me? Why? Why? Saengie cried…
“because I like you, I told you,,I did that so that he will leave you,,he will hate you,,but I didn’t know he will do such thing like spreading it all over the campus,,I’m sory,,I’m really sorry,,if I just knew it, I will not do that,,,junsu apologized,,,
“no..I will never accept your sorry,,never! Saengie screamed..hatred all over his face,,..
“listen to me! I got you,,he left you,,,you will be mine now,, he lost with our deal that’s why he gave you up to me…I am being true to you,,I already apologize,, you have no one now,,but me,,I’m still here whether you like it or not,,you’ll be mine,,,,, junsu just lost his temper and threatened him,,he left wearing a smirk,,young saeng was then stunned with those words,,,
~end flashback~
Youngaeng got up from his bed and went to his boyfriend fter cleaning his face from those tears,,he can’t even fall asleep even though he felt sleepy a while ago…
“hyun joong,,,, he whispered calling the sleeping boyfriend,,,
“eo! Wae? What’s the problem? Hyun joong asked with his sleepy tone…
“I can’t sleep,,can I sleep beside you? Young saeng asked back,,
“eo arasseo,,,hyun joong agreed quickly, and clear the space beside him
Young saeng crawled beside his boyfriend and slid inside the blanket, he wrapped his arm on his boyfriend’s waist and shut his eyes,,
Hyun joong smiled and peck him on the top of his head as he embraced him with his both arms,,questions were built into him,,is this boy starts to open up now?,,will he trust him now?,,He himself was hurt, hearing what his boyfriend had in the past,,,,If he could just found him earlier, that trauma won’t happen to him now,,that bad memories will not happen in the book of life of his boyfriend,,,,
“gomawo? Saengie whispered again,,,
“ssshhh,,sleep now,,,hyun joong whispered back and hum a song for him..
Young saeng slowly fall on his dreams until hyun joong felt his eyes heavier too,,they both fell in their slumber,,the first night they sleep embracing one another,,,it felt good to both of them and there they slept really well…
No matter how worst young saeng’s past, hyun joong feels the love even more,,he felt the eagerness to protect this boy,,the willingness to give all,,it is all or nothing once their family knows about this relationship,,both of them are just taking the risk, both of them doesn’t know what will be their future,,,but wht matters most is the present,,the thing that happens in the present,,what is important is they love each other,,,
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.. here is my update,,,do you know what is obsession means?,it's about not ccepting ny rejection, because even if a person dump you, h or she still remains and pester you again and gain because he or she wants to own you,,,that my idea of obsession, the eagerness to have you in his or her possession..,,
enjoy reading,,,needs some tissue?
thankyu,,,please do comment and to the original one as i said one chpter in the previous is equal to 2 chapters here, so i thnk this is much longer or it will double the original..
thankyu to new subbies,,,,
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