CONFESSION
SERIES 1: OTHER SIDE OF LOVE
A tiring and exhausting whole day of classes, and finally it ended, hyung jun and jungmin left first to attend their extra curricular activity, they joined musical theatre club while hyun joong left after the two and visits the office of student council, he has something to settle and update each officer about some events or something.. And lastly young saeng and kyu jong decided to go to their dorm and just rest..
Young saeng was laying his on his bed with his headphones,,bubbles of memories suddenly popped one by one in his thought, the dark room, the moon and the silent night,, it’s like a mirror reflecting the scene, it’s like a cd replaying the event, the caring room mate,,his savior that night, he flipped over and over on his bed but it didn’t help to erase that memory, it didn’t brek the mirror nor didn’t stop the cd in playing, the tight hug that hyun joong had made to him, it makes a goose bumps to his skin, the chest pounding hard every time he‘s with him,, he flipped again to the other side and came again the last scene, when they almost touched their lips,,,He shook his head to delete all those scenes from his mind and sat up covering his face with his pillow,,"why am I like this? Why? Why? Why? He mumbled asking himself while hitting the innocent pillow,,
“aniya,,I was just scared that time,,and just thinking about that dark room makes it too scary, more and more,,is it? He mumbled again,,he laid back again and threw his arms on his side..he glance at the empty bed on the other corner of the room and saw an imaginary hyun joong smiling at him,,,,
He stood up quickly and shook his head until his hair messed up..“this isn’t right,,I need to walk,,no, I need to run",,he screamed in his mind…He quickly left the room and started to jog until he didn’t realize that he was already at the abandoned room where he was locked..
He slowly went closer to that room and notice the door was half open,,he peek inside and saw someone who is back facing to the door,,he pouted and just decided to go, not wanting to disturb the person, but he was stopped when he suddenly heard a sound of guitar playing nicely,,he went back and look at the person again,,he was playing the guitar and even started to sing some lyrics,,his heart felt soften and the tune of guitar is like a rhythm that makes his heart move,,,he stood up on the door but the door made a sound when he lightly open it a bit more, the music was interrupted and the person gaze at him,,,he shut his eyes and just apologize,,
“young saeng? The guitarist spoke..
“de? Young saeng opened his eyes and blinked many times,,,
“what are you doing here? The person asked,,,
“eo? Hyun joong~~~ young saeng surprisingly utter,,,"ahhhh stupid,,why you forgot about that,,,he murmured hitting his temple lightly forgetting that this place is owned by his room mate..
“why are you here? Anything I can do? Hyun joong asked again,,,
“owh yeah hi,,I mean,,no,,nothing,,I was just jogging around and saw the door was opened and I hear you playing, so I just~~~you know~~wants to listen,,saengie said, felt embarrassed,,haist,,he sighed,,I’m sorry,,,sorry for interrupting you,,,I’ll~~~I’ll go ahead now,,he told biting his lower lip and grimaced,,,
“tskk,,,it’s okay,,hyun joong chuckled…come on,,,why don’t you join me? He invites..
“de? …Young saeng pardoned as if he didn’t heard it,,,
“come on,,,I’ll play for you since you played the piano the last time,,,hyun joong rushed to him and grabbed the hand as he led him inside..
Young saeng pursed his lips, there is something that moment, something he felt,,,that hand holding his stops his world,,he look at those locked hands and stare at the back that was facing him,,,"who are you? He thought, feels confusing more and more,,,
Hyun joong sat him on the stool beside him and took the guitar and puts it on his lap as he started to play it,,
Young saeng hadn’t break his eyes towards the other, he watch those lips mumbling the lyrics,,it’s just like a soft clouds swaying him in heaven,,the feelings he felt that moment is priceless,,he never felt this thing before even his best friend often sing a song for him when they were together,,
The song ended, hyun joong end it with a pinch on saengie’s cheek and smiled,,,”you’re staring at me the whole time”,,,he then commented,,,
“ehhh,,de? Re~~really,,,an~~aniya,,I~~I was just listening,,,saengie gulped and looked away, he looked so tense and was nervous after…blushing red on his cheeks..
“it’s alright,,im glad you seems like it..gomawo,,,but you look so tense,,,are you nervous being with me? Hyun joong said,,,
“ahh ani,,I’m sorry I have to go now,,young saeng keeps pushing his excess saliva to his throat and hold his chest,,,
“something wrong,?,you feel uncomfortable here? Hyun joong asked worriedly while checking the other’s chest,,,
“no! saengie exclaimed and immediately shove hyun joong’s hand from his chest,,,I’m sorry,,.he then apologize when he realize what he had done,,he bit his lower lip again and lowered his head,,,
Silence came and young saeng quickly got up and run,,,hyun joong keeps calling him but he didn’t look back,,he exited the room and run until he reach their room,,He slide down the floor after closing the door and hug his knees, burying his face in between his chest and knees…he heaved a repeated sighing,,He stood up and went to his bed, he stomach laid and buried his face with his pillows,,,
Hyun joong came after few minutes,,he entered the room and saw the other, he went closer to him and knelt down to the floor,,he was trying to touch the boy but his ego stopped his hand, he doesn’t want to startle a person or shock with such an act,, what if he will be shove again? He sat his on the cold floor instead and tried to ask,,
“seangie,,what happen? Did I do something wrong? Hyun joong asked,,,but young saeng is not responding,,,”come on, don’t scare me like this,,what happen? Are you feeling unwell? Are you in pain? He added, worried,,
“Just leave me alone,,,I just want to rest,,I just suddenly felt bad,,just a rest and I’ll be all fine,,young saeng answered with his face sill buried on his pillows…
“if you’re not feeling well then let me take you to the clinic,,come on,,hyun joong said and tried to see the face he brushed the hair..
But then young saeng just pushed the boy and told him to stay away from him,,hyun joong tried again to get near him but saengie attempted to run away from him again..
Hyun joong grabbed him in the arm,,,"saengie what happen,,why are you avoiding me now? Tell me? Did I do something bad to you? Don’t do this to me please..please tell me,,,he said holding the boy on both shoulders…
Young saeng face down the floor holding in his tears,,he’s confused, he lightly pushed the room mate and steps backward until his back reach the wall,,,he slide down and hugged his knees… “who are you? What are you? Why you have to treat me nice? Why are you doing this to me? I don’t even know who you are but why?~~why~~?.. He questioned…
“saengie what happen,,I don’t understand you,,come on tell me,,hyun joong was confused too now,,he can’t understand what is his room mate saying..he came closer to him and knelt in front of him,,trying to make him explain everything, the reason why he’s acting like that, why he is crying..
“This can’t be,,,it won’t happen again,,,young saeng mumbles…
“what is it,,,saengie,,please tell me….hyun joong lift the boys chin but it showed the teary eyes and stained cheeks,,,don’t cry please,,,just tell me what’s the problem,,
“it’s you,,every time I see you,,,every time I’m with you,,,this,,this,,,he started and starts to cry even more pointing his chest,,,I feel like exploding,,it feels weird,,I don’t understand it,,why you? Why you? I trusted you but why are you doing this to me? I hate this feeling, I hate this feeling,,I hate you~~~ go away,,don’t ever try to be nice to me again,,,,,he continued as he continue to hit the room mate on the shoulder,,,
“de? Saengie…hyun joong smiled,,what does that mean? he asked lifting the chin again and look at him in the eyes,,,
“you’re laughing at me? I said go away,,I don’t want to see you again,, saengie told, still crying out loud,,,
“that can’t be,,I’m your room mate,, you will definitely see me everyday,,,hyun joong tried to joked,,,
“I don’t want to see you ever,,,I hate it,,I can’t like you,,yong saeng said,,no,,no definitely not,,I don’t like you,,,go away!! Saengie said and pushed the boy as he got up…
Hyun joong stood up and grab him to the waist, I like you,,,,he uttered,,, young saeng stopped, the crystal on his eyes fell and made it the last, he look at the boy,,he was shocked,,,”what did I hear? He thought..
“I like you,,so please don’t tell me to go away,,it hurts me even more,,I like you ever since, for long years,,please,,,, hyun joong confessed and slowly gets even closer to saengie who didn’t even had the chance to close his mouth,,he slowly hugged him..
Young saeng had lost his senses, seems his soul parted his body…he froze that brought the silence between them,,he was hugged but he didn’t had the strength to push the room mate,,seconds ticking on the clock, minute had passed but he is still unconscious…
Hyun joong parted from him, he wiped off the stained face, “young saeng“,,,he called but the other is not responding,,,“young saeng“,,do you hear me?,, he called again..
“what did you say? Young saeng finally come to his senses and able to speak,,,
“I said I like you,, I lov~~~~hyun joong answered but was cut,,,
“No.this is not happening,,why am I hearing such things?,, he said slapping his own face,,he able to free himself from hyun joong and turned his back as he walked through the door,,,
“I want you to be my boy friend,,I love you,,,hyun joong shouted,,,
“mwo? Saengie was then froze again,,he’s hearing unusual words,,,am I crazy? Why I keep hearing those words?.. He slapped himself mentally…
“I don’t want to force you,,,im not trying to seek any answer today,,take your time,,,I can’t force you to accept me now,,I know I surprised you, I’m sorry,,,hyun joong said and walked pass the boy and left the room instead of young saeng,,he felt embarrassed yes but he doesn’t feel any regret from what he had confessed,,,
“mwoya? What’s happening?… He mumbled as soon as the door was closed and was left alone,,, he sat on his bed, still can’t believe what he heard from him,,,he analyze everything and come up with a conclusion…“eo!! Eo!!! Wait,,he loves me? He likes me too?,,too? No,,I don’t like,,,but eotteokke?~~~”… he keeps on mumbling and wiggled,,
Hours passed, he already took his shower but no hyun joong came,,,he did his homeworks and already read a book, it’s already 9 in the evening,,already passed the curfew,, but still hyun joong is not showing up,,he laid on his bed and yawned,,he felt sleepy,,his eyes closed and did sleep,,,
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Hyun joong, after walking out of their room decided to spend his time to his hide out,,as usual, he forgot the time and fell asleep..he woke up and yawned and notice he is not on his bed,,,he suddenly thought about saengie, his confession and all,,,he sighed,,"will I get dump now? But I thought he likes me too,,,he sighed again and decided to leave the dark place,,,
He slowly entered on their room,,the lights still on but his room mate is already sleeping soundly..He chuckled and shook his head,,he went to him and bent down..he closely look at him on the face,,“an angelic voice suits the angelic face..why did I fell for you? It has been years, and we were still young back then but I never forgets your face,,,he said in very low tone,,he caress the face, the face that was marked his mind for a long time,,if you will just love me,,or if you just accept my feelings, I won’t ask you for more,,just be with me,. he added, he lean closer and inch his lips to the other’s, he closed his eyes but ended up not doing it,,He rather kissed him on the forehead..He smiled and sighed for the nth time,,he turned around..
“hyun joong,,a call he heard and a hand that grabs his wrist,,
“young saeng!! You~~you’re awake? Hyun joong asked surprisingly..
Young saeng sat up and hyun joong sited on the edge of the bed,,both locked their eyes..young saeng obviously feeling nervous and hyun joong seems waiting for the possible answer…
“Hyun joong,,I~~ I want to be your boyfriend..young saeng told hesitantly..
“really? Saengie,,you don’t have to force yourself,,,,hyun joong said though he felt so happy with that,,,
“I can’t lie to myself,,,I like you,,I don’t know but I want to know,,I’m not sure,,,, saengie said with his soft voice..he confessed too but it’s still a confusion about his feelings, he release the hand and laid gain, he turn to the other side, back facing the other,,,
“Let me help you,, I will help you,,,thank you..for accepting me,,,I love you saengie, I do,,hyun joong lean down to him and embraced him,,,
Young saeng faced the other and hugged him back,,he felt like a knife was pulled out from his aching chest,,now he was relieved, he shout out what’s inside him,,he felt loved again, he was sure he will loved by this person,,he took the risk but he regret nothing..he was hurt before and got a bad memories ad now here he comes again, risking his heart to someone he knew not long time ago..no matter what he trust this room mate, this is just a trial anyway,,he just want to confirm something,,,
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..Here is the update,,wow..maybe this will be longer than the original,,fro the previous, the chap,4 and this were in the same chapter but now it was divided into two chapter,,,
..just to inform you also,,from here on a total changes will made compare to the takumi kun series, if ever you'd watched it,,,it's a nice series,,,you can check it out,,
QUOTED: have you ever fallen in love. did you ever confessed? did the other accept you or accet your feelings? it feels good when the other feels the same right but it is too risky if you are not sure with the other's feelings and it is painful, hurtful and bothersome when you confessed and you got dumped. because LOVE is RISKY,CONFUSING and HURTFUL pain and heartaches are the tails of so called Love,,remember this,,you will not realize how much you love a person if you won't experienceto be hurt and feel a bit of pain or even the worst pain ever...(just my words, i'm not bitter, lol)
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