[CONTENTID1]Past[/CONTENTID1]

[CONTENTID2]The only person[/CONTENTID2]

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"Kim Selli.." Shin whispered in despair.

I search for her hand but she immediately shove it. And we both now that's a good thing to do. Because my girlfriend saw me kissing my best friend.
Because I'm cheating with my girlfriend.

"Shinhye..." She said carefully. "Let's talk." She gripped Shin's wrist, but I didn't felt any harm on it.

"Selli, you can talk to me instead." I pleaded. "Selli.."

She just gave a meaningful stare.
A calm meaningful stare.

What I imagined when my heart began to be like this.
I'll break up with Selli, and Shin will break up with Jonghoon. And we will be together.

What's the reality is.
It isn't about breaking up, it's about being in this damn complicated state. All of us being trapped.

But I'll never stop.
Because I can't stop.

*

"That's not the first time." Shin gulped. "That we kissed."

Selli is standing behind her. Her petite back is facing Shin. She's not saying a word. Nor shouting. Just like a calm breeze at night.

"Blame me, Selli. Yong didn't do anything wrong." She added.

"Shinhye.." Her voice is trembling. "You know beside Yonghwa, you are the second best for me. I like you. We're friends." She stopped.

"You know I feel the same way too, Selli. You're precious, for me and for Yong." Shin replied. "But I got so confused. And I never intend this, if I can just control it, I would do. But it keeps getting so stronger as I neglect it. Blame it on me, Sel."

"You know I've always thought I was the hindrance for you too. Ever since." Selli said. "I've always known that Yonghwa cares more to you than to me. I know that Shinhye, it's okay for me."

"Selli, I'm so sorry."

"I've always known all of these but it is okay for me. I'm not mad. Not at all." She made a sounding smile. "I don't mind. Because I love Yonghwa."

Shinhye felt something dragged on her chest. I don't mind. Because I love Yonghwa.
Damn.

"I know." She replied.

"Feelings can't be controlled. As mine can't stop for Yonghwa." She finally faced Shin. "Am I becoming selfish, Shinhye?"

Shin hold her hand. "No, Sel. You didn't. I am. I am the one who's selfish."

"Can I keep myself with Yon