[CONTENTID1][/CONTENTID1][CONTENTID2][/CONTENTID2][CONTENTID3]   I never went to my Dad's party that day. My plan is to be with Shin on that evening but she went angry at me. So I didn't have the urge to go there since Shin, who will be my support wasn't there to back me up. So I didn't bother going.    I took her words very seriously.      Then go. If that will make you at ease. But don't ever see me if you will just whine.     I said to her that at least I'll reach out to them even they will not. I said that in front of her. I mean that actually but inside me, reaching out to them even they couldn't wave their hand to me is okay, because I know Shin will be there to comfort me. Shin is gonna be reaching out to me.      Then go. If that will make you at ease. But don't ever see me if you will just whine.       But the words she said made me realize I'm wrong. I'm wrong that I'm going to hurt myself because I know she's there reaching out.  Maybe she's getting tired of me silly stories. Maybe she's getting irritated how I act being so girly than her. Maybe because she just said don't see her if I will just whine.        So I decided not to go but I gave my respect through a call. I decided not to go because no one is going to there for me if I break out.      ***     First day of college. Shin, I and Selli got in. Shin and I are taking same course, Selli got want she wanted.     Shin took just the same course with me. Taking up same as me didn't worry me, because I know she'll like this in the future.  I realized the thing she wanted but she didn't in herself.                  "Shinhye!" Selli called her while she is walking out of the blue.       "Selli, no class?" She asked.        "Break time. You?"        "I got out a bit on my class. But I'm not cutting class." Shin flustered a suspicious grin to Selli.        "Where's Yonghwa?"        "Yong? He's writing notes for the both of us. We need those since midterms are approaching."        "He's writing the notes?" Selli asked.      "Yep. Don't worry about him. He's doing that job since we're in middle school." She explained.        "Shinhye, may I help him doing that? For the both of you."       Shinhye was surprised that Selli is asking if she can help. Shinhye's thoughts are running like hell. What a nice girl. Really. "You'll really help us? What about your exam?" She asked.            Selli smiled. "Don't worry about me, I'm already done with mine last night."            "Shin.." I called her, since she's really cutting the class.  I saw Selli chatting so cheerfully with Shin.        "Oh, Yong." She said. "Selli wants to help you about the notes."        She'll