so, here I am. confused with my own feeling towards my cousin. he's just a year older. we're close, which is normal for every cousins, right? because of this feeling in me, I tend to distant myself from him though he's aware of it. today, i met him with my other cousin at someone's wedding ceremony. when i was about to exit from the hall, he called me and asked me why did we seldomly talk anymore. my other cousin, kai, he just smirked and left both of us since he understand what's happening. I replied him with a sigh. guess what? I said school have been y & life is such a ship-wreck. that's the stupidest reason I ever gave, seriously. because, we're having our school holidays right now. which doesn't make any sense, at all. maybe a bit, yes. otl. help me? I'm so helpless

God that .

I do admit that you can probably never tell him because that will throw family relations into a jumble and also make things awkward between the two of you. I think it’s incredibly admirable of you to distance yourself from him in an effort to get rid of those feelings. What even more if that your attraction to him is not purely physical, you’ve known him for a long time and I presume, he’s an awesome person with a great personality. However, there is a big difference between liking someone (many people tend to confuse feelings of intense attraction with true love) and committing to a relationship. Ask yourself if you’re happy and ready to jump into a relationship with him and if it’s realistically possible. Also, try to spend time with more people and try to associate yourself with a new social circle if possible. You know that this probably will not work out but at the same time, keeping your relationship with him is important. For his own benefit and yours, keep it a secret because I’m sure feelings will eventually turn platonic.

- Love, Lee Jieun (IU) ♥

(Author ramblings: Okay I feel you woman, the whole concept of forbidden love. I had a crush on my own history teacher which was wrong and stupid but I liked him for his wit and sarcasm and his dry sense of humour. He was a paternal figure and although not that attractive, kind of my type. I crushed on him for six months before them stupid feels went away and left me alone. Even now, I can’t really look him in the eyes without feeling awkward but he was an excellent teacher and I’m glad that I was realistic about it and slowly waned myself off it. You’ll probably follow in my path so don’t feel too bad about it. I do hope everything goes well for you.)