I thought I misheard her."W-what, Soojung?"

I thought, it was all a dream..

I thought, she is just joking..

But, I am wrong."Unnie, I want Amber. I love her, and I want to be with her" My eyes twitched - speechless at the same time. Her sudden confession, makes my body go weak.

"W-what.." I paused swallowing the dry lump in my throat."W-what did you just say??" 

I'm hoping that she will not say it again - I'm hoping that its all a lie, but once again, I am wrong."I love her. I used to hide this feelings for a very long time,and right now I can't hold it anymore. I tried to get rid of this, but I can't. I really can't. I still love her. I still love Amb--"

"STOP!" I raised my voice a little. I don't want Amber to hear our conversation. Never..

I am staring blankly at her bed, with my tears starting to build in the corner of my eyes. Lips were trembling, as I tried to prevent my tears from falling."You.. Y-you are just lying.. You are lying.. I know it.. You a-are just lying.." 

It must be a lie; it must be a dream. This can't be true. I want her to say, that she was just playing a prank on me. I want her to say that! I want to hear these words from !

"No, unnie!" I looked up at her. She raised her voice, as well."I'm not lying! I can't lie whent it comes to my personal feelings! Can't you understand me, unnie? I love her, ever since we met! I love her, that it hurts so much!" I stared at her - mouth halfway agape, blinking my eyes a few times. She is crying, and I didn't even notice that my tears were also starting to stream down.

"She met me first, before you; we spent time together, before you guys did; I shared memories with her, before you did; I fell for her first, before you did; I was all at first, before you, and now it hurts to think, that she's your first than I do." I breathed-out. I can't believe what is happening right now.

"When you both told me that, you were already together.. I-its.. Its hard.. Its hard for me to live that time. I tried to deny it, but what can I do? Its reality. You guys are already together, and I 'am' suffering - suffering from all the pain. I was so depressed, but I never show it to all of you, because if I do - I'm pretty sure, what will you guys say to me.. Especially you, unnie."

My whole body is really weak, that I can't hold it anymore. I suddenly fell onto a nearby chair, beside her bed. My breathing is starting to get heavy, as I tried to register in my head every single word that she wanted to say. 

I feel.. Angry.. Disappointed.. Mixed emotions to be exact, and I don't know where to start.

"I tried, unnie. Believe it or not, I tried to stop this feeling. I avoided her for such a long time, although it hurts; although I'm gonna miss her - I have to do it. I 'must' do it, because that is the right thing to do."

There's a moment of silence, before she continued."But in the end, I failed.." Her whimpers are starting to hear throughout the room.

"I did everything just to stop loving her, but I can't. She owns my heart, unnie.. And.. And I'm blaming myself for that.-- Taemin, I tried to fall for him, but she still have my heart.."

Taemin..

Did she..? "Did you just used him?" I whispered, but I know she heard it.

Looking at her, I waited for her answer, as she hunged her head low."But, I tried my best to love him.." For some reasons, my blood boils because of what she said, and with that I stood up, and stared at her in disbelief.

"But its still the same!  You used him as a rebound! You used him just to forget your feeing for Amber! Gosh, Krystal he loved you, and you just did was to used him?!"

"That's not true! As I said, I tried to love him, but my love for Amb---"

"I said, STOP IT!" I hissed - panting, while wiping the tears away with my hand."You do know, that I love her, right? That, I'm happy with her? That we are both happy in each others arms? -- sorry, but I can't do what you are asking me. I'm leaving - this conversation is over." I said firmly, and immediately turn around, getting ready to leave. As I took my third step away, "Unnie!!" I halt, hearing her sobs, as she tried to call my name, made me to stop.

"U-unnie.. P-please.. L-let me be with her.. Please.." I chuckled bitterly, turning my head to look at her. My eyes widen, as I saw her kneeling on the floor with her head hunged low - sobbing.

"What are you doing?!" I stomped towards her direction, and stood in-front of her."Get up! NOW!" I command.  'Now what is she trying to do?!'

"N-no! U-unnie.. P-please.. I.. I don't want to feel the pain, again.. J-just let me be with her.. I-I want to be with her.. Unnie.. Please.." I stared at her in disbelief, releasing a scoff. I furrowed my eyebrows, trying my best not to give her a hard slap.

"Are you insane?! Do you think this is easy?! Do you think, Amber is a toy that you can ask for me like that?!" I was glaring at her,but what can I do? I was beyond mad.

"You are asking me to leave, Amber so that, you can be with her?! And do you think, I will agree on that?! I just can't believe you, Krystal.." Angry tears are starting to fall down, again. I was watching her crying, with her face buried onto her hands.

"This is my answer-- no. Never. I'm not going to break-up with Amber-- never. Even if you are my sister - I will never ever do that. Call me a sell fish jerk, or whatever you want.. I am not going to give up, Amber. Never." After my last statement, I turned around heading towards the door. Even after I closed the door, I can still her muffled sobs from inside. Its a good thing that, no one is here at this moment.

I wandered my eyes to search for a familiar figure, and she was there - sitting on a public line chair - sleeping, with her head resting on the wall. I sighed in relief, as I thought that she didn't hear our conversation. Wiping the tears away using my hands, I strolled her direction.

Standing in front of her, I scan my surroundings just to make sure that, no one is looking at us. Once done, my eyes landed on her peaceful; handsome face. 

The thought of leaving her is I can't endure. I don't know what will happen to myself, if she's not 'mine', anymore. She is my everything - I love her so much, I just can't give up on her. I may not survive if she's not in my arms, anymore - Amber owns my heart. And I will not give-up on her.. Never..

I leaned forward, planting a soft kiss on her left and right eye, which caused her to stirred a bit. She slowly open her eyes, and I smiled, as I watched her cutely rubbing her eyes.

I took a sit beside her,and caress her cheek."Baby, let's go home?"

 

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"Baby, you had been spacing out ever since, we left at the hospital." I heard her say, and I froze at her words. I remained calm, not for her to notice it.

"Do you want me to send you home, instead?" She continued. I turned my head, and flashed her a smile. Hugging her waist, I laid my head on her chest.

"Its okay, babe. I want to sleep her at your place, and besides cuddling here on the couch is relaxing.." I said.

She sighed, putting her arms around my shoulder."Okay, if that's what you want." I smiled when she kissed the top of my head. Its a relief, that she didn't ask too much.

'I want, Amber..'

'I want to be with her..'

'I fell for her first, before you did..'

'I love, Amber...'

I'm scared.. I'm scared for the future. I don't want to break up with her - I love her so much. I don't want to lose her in my life. How did this happen? Why is it that, Soojung chose to fall in love with her? From all the people, why Amber?

"I love you, Amber.." I spoke, all of a sudden, looking up at her to meet her gaze.

She smiled, as she leaned forward to give me a kiss. Her kiss.. Her wonderful kiss, which made my tears to form, but I prevent it to fall. I don't want her to notice it. She will never notice it."I love you too, baby. I will always there for you, no matter what. We're all in this together, Jess." She placed a soft kiss on my forehead, and I immediately snuggle into her neck, as i felt my tears are already falling.

In response, she tighten her grip around my shoulders, as she plant a soft kiss on the top of my head. I just want us to be like this forever, that no one will pull us apart; that no one will try to mess up with our happiness.

We ended up cuddling on the couch for a few minutes, before we got into her room to sleep.







 

Morning came - I woke up, and reached out my arms with my eyes closed, searching for the person I slept with last night, but realised that she's not beside me anymore. I fluttered my eyes open, adjusting to the light first before scanning the surroundings. I stretched out my body with a groan, before lifting my whole body up, and heading towards the bathroom to freshen-up.

Once done, i walked towards her cabinet to pick some of my clothes that I left here before. I didn't have anything to choose, that's why I ended up wearing her shirt, which is big to me,and a boy shorts.

I went out, and greeted by the aroma of breakfast goodies. My lips curved into a smile, while walking towards the kitchen, and there I saw my lover, wearing a blank tank top, and basketball shorts,as she was placing the plates on the table. She looked up, maybe because she immediately notice my presence. She smiled, showing her pearly white teeth, and I can't help but to smile also.

"Good morning, my baby llama~" I peck her on the lips, and hug her by the side, which she gladly return.

"Good morning too, my princess~" She cooed, kissing my forehead. I placed my chin over her shoulder pouting my lips a little.

"Did you have a good sleep,babe?" She asked. Our faces were just inches apart, and our noses were brushing. I nodded caressing her stomach.

"How about you, my prince llama?"

"Of course, I did! You were with me last night.." I giggled leaning forward to give her a kiss, but was interrupted by my phone ringing in her room.

I groaned in disapproval, pulling away from her arms."Be right back." I winked, and she just chuckled. I ran towards her room, and grabbed my phone on the nightstand. I furrowed my eyebrows, staring at the caller. I stepped out of the room, heading to the dining table, to see her sitting on one of the chairs already.

"Baby, you know this number?" I asked, shoving my phone to her. She squinted her eyes for a few minutes before, shaking her head.

"No, baby. Who do you think is that?" 

I shrugged."I dunno." But, nevertheless, I answered it.

"Hello?" I said - unsure.

"Hello, is this Ms. Jessica Jung's phone number?"

"Uh.. Yes? Speaking?" I landed my eyes down on Amber, and she asked me by mouthing 'Who is it?', and I just shrugged my shoulders.

"Oh, Ms. Jessica! Good morning, sorry to disturb you, but do you have any information about Ms. Krystal's whereabouts?"

My expression turned into a confused one."What do you mean by that? Isn't that my sister is admitted in Seoul Hospital, right now? And who are you, by the way?" 

"Yes, Ms. Jessica. Actually, I'm the head of Seoul Hospital, and earlier while one of our nurse was supposed to give her one last check-up, she just found out that, your sister was nowhere in her room. We already looked for Ms. Krystal at the entire hospital, but we really didn't find any sign of her." 

I gulped, blinking my eyes. Amber maybe noticed that I tensed up, that's why she stood up."W-what do you mean by that?"

"We assume, Ms. Jessica that your sister escaped from our hospital.."

She escaped..

Soojung is ... Missing??


 

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