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Amber witnessed a scene,  that even herself wasn't expecting to see.  She left there, and felt like she was already dead. Her heart was crushed for so many times, and she wasn't expecting that her lover would betray her like this. Their break-up wasn't even clear for the both of them, and yet she already have another one, but no..

During their relationship, Jessica already have another one..

She felt used.. She was just an experiment..

That was Amber thought, which made her infuriated..

At the fire exit, she really was hysterical.  She kept on shouting; kicking the walls and even punching it, until her knuckles were bruised. She was lucky because no one could hear her, but then she didn't care, because that moment she was really mad to the point that she wasn't thinking  straight anymore..

Amber was cheated by the one she love and she the girl was oh-so-perfect.. But she was wrong..

Out of anger, she smashed the glass of the fire extinguisher cabinet just using her right fist - her hand was dripping of blood.

Because she wasn't herself that time, she accidentally fell on the stairs, and while she was falling, her head was bumped onto one of the metal railings.

Thankfully, she didn't faint, but same as her right hand, her nose was dripping of blood, and her arms were full of ugly scars. She was struggling to stand on her feet, and in a matter of a few seconds, she succeeded. Without wasting time, she went out from the fire exit and left the building with a struggle.

But something happened after she left the place, she didn't even realize that she was already at the middle of the road, and without even noticing or looking a car suddenly hit her... 









 

I quickly open my eyes, after I had the horrible dream, and didn't notice that I am heavily panting. Beads of sweat are running down through my forehead while I can feel my heart is beating faster. I scan the surroundings, and discover that I'm in a different place.. But, in a.. Hospital?

"Amber?" I shifted my attention towards the person, and I am surprised to see her here. Her face was contorted in joy, sadness - it was actually mixed emotions, and I can see a tear is already building in her eyes. "Oh my god,  Amber you're awake!  Thank god, you're finally awake!"

And with that,  she immediately throw herself at me,  and I quickly groaned in pain. She backed away, her face was full of concern, feeling her hand on my cheeks. "Oh god.. Sorry,  Amber.. I am sorry..  I was just glad that you're finally awake now.. Oh god Amber..  Wait for me here, okay? I will call the others and the doctor.."

She turned around and was supposed to take a step forward, but I held her hand. "Wait, Krystal.." She stopped, glancing at our attached hands first, before looking  at me.

"I.. Don't leave.. Stay.. Don't tell them yet.." She was about to say something but I cut her off. "Please, Soojung.. Just stay here with me.. For awhile.." I said with my hoarse voice, squeezing her hand.

I know that she's contemplating - it is obvious on her face. But I squeezed her hand once more, telling her through my eyes that I am not ready to face anyone, yet.

After a few seconds of deciding, her face softened and I felt her relax. She sat on the chair, beside my bed and smiled at me. "How are you feeling? Do you want to eat first?"

Usually, if something bad or strange happened to a certain person, people would ask them Why did it happen to you? or Can you tell me what happened?

Honestly, I am kind of relieved that it wasn't the first question that was slipped into . Inevitably, I know, that not only her - but everyone, would ask me, what exactly happened. It just that, at this rate.. I think this is not the time. "No.. It is surprising that, I am not hungry.. And my head.. It hurts.. But, i am feeling a bit better.."

"The doctor said, you didn't get much any major injuries from the accident and it's a great thing that the impact wasn't strong.. The only thing, that caused you from the accident is your left arm.. He said, it was severely broken, that's why you have a cast wrapped on it.. But, don't worry, he said, with proper therapy and care it'll heal in no time.."

So, that's why my left arm is kind of heavy, because it has a cast. I look at it, and sighed. I grimaced as I remember the cause of this. "But the doctor also said, your nose is broken and your head.." She trailed, seems like she's collecting some thoughts. "He added, it wasn't from the accident.."

My jaw clenched. I look away from her, so the she'd understand, that the subject she's bringing-up is the one that I don't wish to hear. "O-okay.. U-uhm.. Do you want me to set the bed for you, so that you will be more comfortable?" She didn't need to wait for my answer, because seconds later, the bed is already adjusted into an obtuse-like angle.

I turned my head to look at her, and she was back at her chair. I smiled and she also did in return. "How many days did I slept in?" I asked. The silence is making me uncomfortable.

She didn't answer right away, and she looks like she's hesitating. "You.. You slept for 5 days, Amber." She softly whispered.

Now I know the reason why, she was hesitating. She doesn't want to hurt me. It's all because of.. her, that's why this is happening to me.. I felt like crying, but I held it back.. I wanted to be strong from now on. I don't want to be weak. It to be weak.

I just nodded and did not say anything more. "And, Amber.. Your mom, dad and Jackie is here in Korea. They got here 5 days ago, when they heard about your accident. The three of them quickly flew all the way from LA."

She got me on that one. I whipped my head towards her, and shocked was pretty evident on my face. "W-what? And they're here at the hospital?" I asked, totally frantic.

"Y-Yeah.. They just went out awhile ago, but they will come back.. "

"Did they already know about my.. About my break up with.. Jessica?"

"H - huh? What are you--"

"Did anyone told them about my break up with her?"

She was confused - I know. And I can tell, that she's trying to read me. "N-no..  Nothing.. They still don't know nothing.."

I sighed in relief. "Amber.. You're not planning to tell them.. Are you?"

I my lower lip, my lips were somewhat dry. "You are right.. I am not planning to tell them.."

"W-what?" I glanced at her and her perplexed face is telling me to explain more.

"I just.." I paused, swallowing the dry lump in my throat. "Don't like to tell them.."

I don't have any reasons to tell her because, truthfully, I really don't have. Do you get what I'm saying? I just felt like, there's no biggie to tell them and I really hate myself for feeling that way.

It was again in silence. I look at her and she was like: Are you kidding me? I can't blame her for that, it just that, I chose not to tell. And one thing that I have noticed, her eyes seems so sad. "Do you.. Do you still lover her.. Don't you?"

She wasn't looking at me, when she asked me that,  but instead head was hanging low. And her voice, it sounds like she's about to cry.

That question, put me into a deep thought. All of the memories with her, suddenly kept on replaying in my head - and when I say, memories, the one that I saw at her place is included. "No.. I don't love her, anymore.." I said, firmly.

When I said those words, I was surprised that I didn't cry. From the corner of my eye, I saw her head shot-up. "Y-you don't?" I nodded, without looking at her.

"But, w-why?"

"Do you think, I will love her again, after what I saw--" I stated a bit faster, but then stopped after I realized what I was going to say. Her question, somehow made me mad.

"What are you.. What are you trying to say..? What.. Did you saw? " She's now curious. Maybe she's already thinking, that her sister put me into this situation.

"Nothing. You didn't hear anything.." I said, avoiding her stares.

"Amber.. " She pressed."Jessica is my sister, and I have the right to know.." She's not asking me now, but more like commanding me to tell her.

"Krystal..  Let's stop this, okay? I don't wan--" Buy she cut me off.

"How can you say this?! " She asked, exasperated. She's now standing."You got into accident; you were in coma for 5 days; you could've died because of that, and yet you still care for her! Right now.. I bet, you're thinking of her!"

Even though she already has those tears, I can't help but to get mad when she said the last part. "No! I don't!" I hissed, looking straight into her eyes. "Fine do you want to know? I saw Jessica making out with Ok Taecyeon in front of her condo! There! I said it!"

I told myself that I have to be strong, but I cried. The wound in my heart is still fresh. "Maybe.. Maybe they went any further than that when I left there.." I chuckled bitterly.

Krystal, on the other hand is still in daze. I can tell, that she couldn't believe what I told her. "I have to stop loving her.. I really want to.. I don't  want to love her anymore.." I said in between sobs.

"Because if I continue.. Anytime soon.. I might die.. I might die of pain.. " 










 

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A/N: gosh, the last time I updated this was last year, before Christmas.. It's been 2 weeks or so.. I'm sorry guys, for leaving this story for too long.. I was really busy with school and next week I have to prepare for our midterm exams.. When school started, I barely have enough free time.. So I hope you would understand, okay? Okay, first chapter of the year so yeah.. And Happy new year, everyone.. Even if it's already late.. Hehe..

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From this story.. Expect the unexpected.. :)