"Jessica!" I shouted her name. I wanted to tell her that its only a misunderstanding.

"Jessica!" I shouted, once again. People are starting to look at me, as I pass by them, but I don't care. 

I was chasing her when suddenly, her manager blocked me.

"Amber, you can talk to her later. People will notice if you keep doing that. Don't worry, you can go to her place. We will send her there. Just think for her career - both of you."

What he said made me to stop. I stared at him - eyebrows furrowed. Trying to catch my breath, I scan my surroundings. Yes, indeed, people are looking at us, more like their gaze were focused at me. I look at him, again. As I realize what he meant, I slowly nodded.

"Okay. Don't worry, Amber, everything will be alright." Patting my shoulder, that's the last thing he said, before he walks away.




 

"Manager-hyung, am I a bad girlfriend to Jessica, because I agreed to keep our relationship a secret?" I asked all of a sudden. We were already in the van, heading to Jessica's condo. I'm at the backseat, staring out at the window.

I heard him sigh, before I felt his eyes at me."Amber ..." He trailed.

"You are not. We all know, you only did that, because you want to protect Jessica. But, of course, if I were her, maybe I will get hurt if you said to the public that you are single, even if we both know that you're not."

I sighed, looking at him."But, doesn't she know that I will get hurt too,if she also say that?"

He didn't answer immediately. He thought for a moment, and after a few seconds, he spoke."Amber your relationship with Jessica is complicated when it comes to this. You both didn't want this to happen, but you guys have no choice but to obey Mr. Lee's orders."

"I can see, that both of you are madly in love with each other. You also can't blame her, if she's acting like that. Of course, you are her girlfriend, and she's yours. I know and I feel Amber, she will understand it, trust me."

Hearing those from my manager made me calmed a bit. I took a deep breath, before turning my head to the window. Staring blankly, I was in a deep thought. He's right, I can't blame Jessica if she's acting like that. For sure, I will feel that too when she also say those words; now I feel guilty.

"Amber, we are here. Remember, if you need anything just call us out. We will just wait at the parking area."

I was back into reality, when I heard my manager's voice. I look at the tall building, staring it for a few seconds. I blinked, as I turn my head towards the direction of my manager. My lips curved, before nodding. I hopped off, closing the car door first, before walking towards the building. Reaching the elevator, I stepped in, once the elevator door slide open. 
 

Soon enough, I heard the soft 'ding', notifying me that I already reached my designated floor. When the door slide open once again, I stepped out and immediately headed towards Jess' condo.

Standing at the front door, without hesitations, I pressed the doorbell. After a few minutes of waiting, the door swung open, revealing the figure of my girlfriend.

"Jessica." I softly said. Our eyes met for a moment, but the next thing I knew, she walks away. I quickly went inside, closing the door behind.

It seems like Deja Vu, I remembered, when we're still not together, I went here too just to clear things out with her. But right now, its different - far different.

Before she can reach her bedroom and lock herself there, I grab her arm and spun her around."Jessica please let me talk and listen to me."

It funny to think, that I have to explain, but yet I didn't do anything bad. But that's the right thing to do, isn't it? So that, she can understand all of these.

"What, Amber? Are you telling me that it is only a misunderstanding, again?" She's putting up on a straight face that anyone can be intimidated by it. She tried to release her arm against my hand, but failed because of my strong grip.

"Can you please let me go!!!!" She shouted. 

"No. I won't, Jessica!" I raised my voice as well."Yes, its only a misunderstanding. Why can't you understand, that---"

"Me? Why can't I -------" She scoffed."Why can't I understand? You, Amber? Let me ask you that question, do you understand my feelings?"

I remembered, what manager-hyung said to me earlier. Definitely, I will be hurt too, but she doesn't have to worry because, I am faithful to her. My heart only belongs to her.

"I understand what you feel Jessica. Please baby, I-I don't want us to fight. Let's stop this, okay?" I whispered. With that, I felt her relaxed. Her eyes were not focused on me, and I released my grip around her arm. 

There's a few moment of deafening silence, before she spoke."Then, we have to let them know about us."

I shot my head up, because of what I heard."W-What?"

"I said ..." She look at me, still having the straight face. "I want the people out there to know our relationship."

I blinked. Did I hear her right? I thought, we were through about this? I didn't expect she will brag about this again. I was looking at her in disbelief. Is she serious about that?

"Jessica, I thought we already talked about this?" I questioned. 

"Yes, I know. But, I can't do this. I can't hide our relationship anymore, Amber. Right now, they assume that you are single .... Eunjung .." She averted her gaze away from me, avoiding my contact. 

"She might steal you away from me." She whispered the last part, but still audible to hear.

"W-what??" I asked in disbelief. I just can't believe what she's saying right now.

"Jessica .. You know the risk, right?" I asked.

She didn't respond immediately. Few seconds after, I can hear some sniffing sounds from her. She looked up at me and I saw tears pouring down through her beautiful face. I frowned. I don't want to see her hurting.

"Yes! And, so what? I don't care anymore. If we keep hiding this relationship, someone might steal you away from me." She said in between sobs.

I understand why is she like that, but she doesn't need to decide like this, if she's worried about our relationship. Like, I've said, I love her and I don't have guts to cheat on her.

"But, Jessica ... There's no one gonna steal me away from you. I'm yours." I held her arm, squeezing it tightly, as I it using my thumb.

"You can say that right now, Amber. But how about tomorrow? Next week? Next month? Next year? The year after? We don't know what will happen, Amber." The tears from her eyes didn't stop, as she was looking at me intently.

"W-What are you trying to say, Jessica?" I asked - eyebrows furrowed.

"I'm saying, that you should leave that show immediately, because I can feel that Eunjung has something for you! She's hitting on you, Amber!" She hissed.

"What?" I stated in disbelief."Why are you saying that to me? --- You know what? I understand what you feel because you are my girlfriend. But, you don't have the right to tell me, if whether, I will quit my job or not!"

I can see, that it angered her more. Why did she came up to an idea like this? It made me pissed, because she's controlling me of what should I do. 

It is impossible that, Eunjung is hitting on me, because we didn't do anything bad. All we do is just talk - nothing more; nothing less. She's not flirting with me. Why does she have to say this?

If Jessica is saying the truth, maybe I can confront Eunjung and tell her that, she's only a friend of me, but quitting a big job like this is different.

She wiped the tears angrily on her face."Why, Amber? Because you like her? You like the feeling that she's flirting with you? Are you already flirting with her behind my back?" She's asking me hard, and it makes me irritated even more. I can't believe she's asking me like this.

"What??" I questioned in disbelief once again, running my hand through my hair in frustration.

"Maybe, this is the reason, why you don't want to tell the public, or maybe ... Maybe you are afraid because it might ruin your career!"
 

It seems what she said was a knife that stabbed directly through my heart. I looked up to her."What? ---- Y-you were thinking of me like that?  You think I'm that kind of person? And you also thinks that .... I'm flirting with her?" She got silent, after what I've said. I scoffed, as tears are starting to build up in my eyes.

"You are accusing me of nothing, Jessica. You are saying these things, yet you don't have evidence!" I said, raising my voice."And, you are thinking, that I don't want to tell the public, because it will ruin my career? That is bull!!"

She flinched back, as tears were starting to form once again in her eyes.

"Hell, I can sacrifice my career just for you! I can leave this industry just to be with you! But, I can't let you sacrifice, because I know you went through hardships and you wait for 7 years, just to reach these kind of things!" I paused for a moment, heaving a deep sigh.

"But, instead you thought of something else. You even thought, that I like Eunjung, even if I really don't."

She was looking down, crying silently, and her whimpers can be heard throughout the place. Tears are starting to stream down through my cheeks. I took a deep breath, closing my eyes shut.

"I- I suggest that ... We should .. We should not see each other for awhile now." Its hard for me to say this, but I think this is the best for us - to ease up our minds. She quickly lift her head, after what she heard.

I did not hear her response, turning my body around, and quickly walks away. She was sobbing hard, as I left her place. Walking through the hallways, I can't find a way to stop my tears. Thinking, Jessica, it hurts me more.

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A/N: JessBer fought this time ...And, Something will happen on the next chapter. What could it be? Hehe.

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