Mrs. Jung's Point of View

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"Hehehe! Okay-okay. I'll go get, Krystal." I stood up from chair and left the table. I took a last glimpse of them before heading to Krystal's room. I'm really happy, that my two daughters are happy with their relationship. My words are not enough, to express my happiness and I hope this will not end.

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 I am now in-front of her room and I still didn't receive any response from Soojungie. Its a bit strange, because even if she's doing something in her room, I will hear her voice from inside telling me to wait, for her to open the door. I wonder, what she's doing there?

"Soojungie~" I called, but still no response. I decided to enter, since I already knocked multiple times. I turned the door knob and swung the door open. I let myself to enter, and noticed that she's not here. In fact, her room is clean. When I was closing the door, I suddenly heard some sobbing sounds. I furrowed my eyebrows of what I heard. What was that? I took a step forward slowly and I realised that the sobbing sound is coming from Soojung's bathroom. I gasped, confirming that the person who's crying is Soojungie. Why is she crying? I rushed myself towards the bathroom door, and I supposed to knock, when I heard her speak.

"It hurts .. It really hurts .." She said in-between sobs. I felt a hit in my heart, when she said that. Why is she hurting? Did Taemin hurt her?

"I thought .. I-i can forget .. T-this .." Forget? What does she mean by that? What does she want to forget? I just can't stand here doing nothing, if I knew that my daughter is hurting. She needs me, a mother who will give her an advice to all of her problems. I was supposed to open my mouth, to call her name, but I was shocked when I heard her speak again.

"A-amber .." I was flabbergasted. I didn't know, why did she mentioned Amber's name. Its a bit, suprising because I didn't expect that her name will come out from Soojung's lips. She was weeping aloud as she, mentioned Amber's name.

"I-i .. Should've .. T-told y-you .. My .. F-feelings .. B-before..." My eyes widen of her reveal. I gasped, placing my hand to cover my mouth. I can't believe what I'm hearing right now. I gasped, placing a hand to cover my mouth. She has feeling for Amber, ever since? I'm confused. How did it happened?

"A-amber .. A-amber .. W-why? W-why h-her? W-hy .. J-jessica-unnie?" I blinked hearing Jessica's name. She's acting like that because she was jealous over her unnie. My daughters are madly in-love with one person, and as a mother, I don't want to see them fighting just because of one person. What am I gonna do? I don't want to have a broken family.

"I-i tried .. B-but .. I can't. I r-really can't forget my feelings for you .. A-amber" I decided not barge in and left the room quietly. I think it would be better to ask her, if she's ready to talk about it with us. I know and I can feel that she's depressed, and it really hurts for me to see, that my daughters are hurting. I really can't stand to see them like that. I don't want to force her to open the topic; if she don't want to, its fine. If she's ready, that would be better. I closed the door quietly and walk towards the dining table. When I was approaching them, I pretend that I didn't heard something in Soojung's room, so I still have this calm face when I left the table earlier.

"Where's Soojung, mom? Is she okay?" Jessica asked. I gave her a warm smile before I sat on the chair beside my chair.

"Yes, Sica. She's okay. She's still fixing her room. But I already called her and she'll be here in a minute." I said. Its obviously an alibi. I can't tell them, yet. I just .. Can't. I'm afraid, that I might lose my daughters and I won't let that happen. I noticed that, Jessica is not convinced of what I've said. I'm sorry, Sooyeon but I think I have to do this. I know its a wrong move, but .. I can't let her know that her sister is in-love with Amber. I'm really sorry, Sooyeon. I hope you can forgive me.

= END OF FLASHBACK =

"Yeobo .." I snapped out from my thoughts, when I heard my husband calling me as he sat on the edge of the bed. I was leaning against the headboard, while holding a book. I think, he noticed me spacing-out because I was not reading the book I was holding.

"Hmm?" I answered as I placed the book on the night stand beside me.

"Something's bothering you?" He asked in English. I just smiled and shook my head as a response. He then stood up and walk towards to the other side of the bed. He lift the blanket, before plopping himself beside me. Don't get me wrong, I trust my husband, but I still have some things to confirm. I just don't want to tell them, yet. Or, I should not?

"Goodnight, yeobo .." He said, and then kissed my cheek.

"Goodnight, dear .." I murmured, then I turned off the lamp on the night stand, lying myself comfortably on the bed and drifted off to sleep. My mind is still occupied about Soojung's situation. I want to hear her reasons, but it sems, I have to wait for too long. Sigh. What am I gonna do?

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Staring at the white ceiling, while lying on my queen size bed will get me nothing. No, answers can be found there. My eyes are still swollen and I can feel that another tear is flowing running through my cheek. Honestly, I'm tired. I'm tired of crying, hurting and pretending. Do you know the feeling that someone's stabbing you straight from your heart? Or, the feeling, that your heart is shattered into pieces? That's what I felt, everytime I see them happy together; holding hands, being intimate with each other. I have to wear my `happy mask` so that no one can notice me, but behind that mask, in reality, I'm hurting. I tried. I really tried to forget my feelings. I tried to get rid of it, but my feelings for her is really strong.

= FLASHBACK =

"OH! Is that Hyung? Why is she with SNSD-unnies?" I knit my eyebrows, because of the view. The person who's next to me is also confused. What is she doing here?

"Hyung's arm around Jessica's shoulder? And, Jessica-unnies around Hyung's waist?" Sulli said  as I noticed that unnie is Amber's side gently.

Andwae .. It can't be .. Maybe they're just really comfortable with each other. Yeah .. That's it.

"Krystal, come on! We should approach them, before they enter their dorm!" She then held my wrist and drag me towards them. Maybe because of our footsteps, we caught their attention. As long as they saw us, unnie released her arm onto Amber's waist quickly and hers as well around unnie's shoulders.

"S-soojung? W-what are you guys doing here?" I can see on unnie's face that she was shocked. I noticed that Amber and all of the SNSD-unnies are also as the same faces as my unnie. I tried to calm myself. I don't want to jump into conclusions.

"We're here to visit you, unnies!" Sulli said enthusiastically. I eyed Amber and, she looked away from my gaze, moving herself closer to unnie. The atmosphere is getting awkward and I know that, they are hiding something from me. Taeyeon broke the silence by letting everyone to enter their dorm. Once we were inside, the unnies left the 4 of us. Sulli and I sat on the couch while across from us, is unnie, sitting next to Amber. Sulli placed the bags on the coffee table in-front of us, that we bought for them.

"Krystal .." I looked up when I heard Amber's voice, calling my name. I can sense that she's hesitating to speak. she let out a sigh and I was suprised of what I saw. Amber's fingers interlacing on unnies, as she grip unnie's hand lightly. I blinked, still focused on their hands. A heavy breath escaped from my lips, and my hands on my lap were trembling. Please tell me, this is only a joke. Please, someone tell me.

"You sister and I .." She paused for a moment before looking at unnie. "We're already together."

My breathing stopped, I can feel that my lips are shaking, my body is getting weak, my vision starting to get blurry as tears formed. I stoop my head low, so that they can't notice my reaction. I felt like, there's a thousand pound of metal fell on my body. I didn't expect this. I didn't expect that they will go too far. I thought, its only a sisterly love, but no. I'm wrong. I'm too late. Too late to tell my feelings to Amber.

"Soojung? Gwaenchana?" I came back to my senses as I heard unnie calling me.

"Y-yeah .. U-uhmm .. W-wait .. I'll just get something outside. Wait here, Ssul."

"Huh? Where are you going?" I didn't have a chance to answer my unnie, I stood up from my chair with my head stoop low and rushed outside their dorm. Once I closed the door, I run towards the emergency exit and locked the door, so that no one can enter. I slide down on the wall, before lifting out a sob. I curled my knees-up, hugging it tightly. Amber, why are you doing this to me?

= END OF FLASHBACK =

I thought I can forget you, Amber. I even used Taemin to forget my feelings for you. But, I think, I'm wrong. I can't teach my heart to fall in-love with someone else and I feel sorry for Taemin, because I just used him to get rid of this feelings. He deserve to be loved, he deserve someone's better. I tried to fall for him, I really tried. But I think my feelings for you is really strong that I'm hurting so much. It hurts to think; its hard to accept that your heart is not belong to me. But, what will I do? My precious heart is only dedicated to you, Amber.

If I were my unnie ..

Will you notice me?

If I were my unnie ..

Will you take care of me?

If I were my unnie ..

Will you fall in-love with me?

Just so you know

This feelings takin' control

Of me and I can't help it

I won't sit around

I can't let her win now.

Thought you should knoww

I've tried my best to let go

Of you but I don't want to

I just gotta say it all

before I go

Just so you know ..

                         - Jesse McCartney

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