A/N: RED = CONVERSATION TURNED INTO ENGLISH

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She doesn't care anymore what is happening to her surroundings.

She is like a lifeless living body.

She is devastated.

She's now in a state of depression.

That's the effect on her when she decided to break things off with Jessica.

Everyone never imagined that this would happen to the couple. They thought, Jessica loves Amber so much to the point that the older girl will sacrifice everything just for Amber - to be with the tomboy, but - their assumptions are wrong.

Jessica cheating on Amber behind the younger's back, never crossed their minds, but like what they've thought - they never imagined it until *it really happened.

After the incident, Amber went straight to her place, locking herself there for the whole night. Sulli, Victoria and Luna followed after, but of course they couldn't enter because the door is locked. They couldn't help but to get worried, thinking that Amber would do something stupid inside - but they didn't know, that she was just in her room, crying in her bed.

She wasn't hysterical that night, but instead she was just silently crying in her room.

She's still a human; she's hurting and also has a weak side.

The trio kept on calling her, but Amber wasn't picking up her phone. That night, they tried sending her bunch of messages, they tried to convince Amber to unlock the door, but still the girl didn't gave them any response. In the end, Sulli, Victoria and Luna left her place broken hearted.






 

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Its already been one week has passed since the incident, and I can say, the memories that night are still fresh inside my head. After that day, I didn't cry anymore. I was just in my room, lying myself in the bed while staring blanky at the white ceiling.

I didn't move an inch ever since, I locked myself in the room. Even though, Sulli, Victoria and Luna were kept on bugging me that night, but still - I didn't budge.

For the past six days, they kept on calling me; they kept on knocking or sometimes banging on my front door; they kept on calling my name, telling me to open the door; I could hear their loud voices from my room..

They kept on doing that for the past six days, and I was just in my room.. Not caring what's happening outside..

I wouldn't eat...

I wouldn't drink..

And sometimes, I wouldn't also sleep..

I admit, I can already feel the effects of it, but that is because my heart.. It is still bleeding..

The pain is still fresh.. It hurts me so much..

I never expect that this will happen to me.. And I never thought that she will cheat on me.

The feeling of being cheated or betrayed by the one you love is really painful.. It is making you crazy in a bad way.

I don't know, but I just can't cry anymore, but the pain.. I can still feel it.. It is killing me slowly.. I wanted to cry, but I can't..

"Amber! Open the door it's Victoria!  Please, Amber..  We are begging you!" And even right now - I am still here inside my room, still lying in my bed, and again I can already hear their loud voices from here. 

"Hyung..  We miss you, please..  Open the door.  We are already worried about you..  Hyung.." I really feel ashamed to myself for what I've been doing to them. I feel sorry to them,  because they kept on coming here,  but yet all I did was to push all of them away.  It just that..  I am still broken.

"Amber-unnie.. Its me,  Luna..  I know you can hear us..  Please unnie.. We need you right now..  We need our Amber right now.."
 

 I am deeply sorry Luna for making you guys worried.. I hope you guys can understand...

"Amber Liu.." Krystal?  "I know that you are smart enough not to do something stupid inside, but please hear us out .. We miss you..  I..  Miss you..  Amber,  I wanted to see you..  All of us wanted to see you, so please..  Open the door..  We will help you out. "

It's Krystal. I know its her we know each other for 5 years, I am sure it is her.
 

Because of what happened  I didn't have any idea that she just got out from the hospital, until I heard her voice;
because of what happened between her sister and I,  I didn't even think how she was after she got out from the hospital.

But from the way she said it.. She sounds so desperate..  She sounds so sad..

I blinked as I slowly lift my body up, and suddenly my head is spinning - my body, it felt so heavy,  and it's shaking that I ended up leaning my back against the headboard. 

Panting with my eyes closed,  I continue listening of what she's saying. " Amber..  Your friends..  The whole f(x) team..  Your loved ones..  Your family..  we are all worried about you.. You didn't talk to us  for 7 days..  And we don't have any idea what is happening to you inside.. Your family.. Your mom, dad and Jackie.. they are really worried about you.. we are all worried.. So please let us in.. Amber it is just the 4 of us..  So don't be scared to talk to us..  Please..  I am begging you.. " Her voice is trembling, and I can tell that she's already crying. The last thing that I don't want to happen is to hurt her - to hurt my friends; my loved ones and yet, here they are - hurting because of me.

This is all my fault, that's why they are like that.. From the beginning its all my fault..

The thought of it made me cry - yes it did hurt my eyes, and after a few days of not crying - here I am; silently weeping in my bed. My head it started to get hurt  as tears are  kept on flowing through my cheeks.

I slowly open my eyes, turning my head to the side and saw my phone that was neatly placed on the nightstand. I reached out my arm, struggling to grab my phone, and once it is already in my hand, I unlock it.

After for so many days,  this is the first time again that I touched it,  and didn't surprise me when I saw a bunch of messages and missed calls from them.

I went straight to my contacts, finding for the only person I trust the most,aside from my family. Tapping the 'call' button,  I pressed the phone onto my right ear as I wait for her to answer my call.

"Amber?!   Are you okay?!  Gosh,  please answer me!  I want to know that you are safe inside..  Oh, please.. " I let out a small smile, hearing her voice. 

"Soojung,  I am okay. Just tell the others, especially, to mom,  dad and Jackie that I am okay.  Don't worry too much. I swear,  I am fine here." My voice, it sounds so tired,  that I have to struggle saying those words.

"How can you say that to us,  that we shouldn't be worried?!  You locked yourself inside for the whole week, not giving us at least information about your situation there, and now you're telling us not to get worried, because you are fine now?!  What kind of stupidity is that,  Amber?!" I can already here the the other 3 member's  voices through the line,  after Krystal's sudden  outburst. Maybe asking her about the conversation between us. 

I can't  blame her if she's  really mad at me.  Maybe I  am really stupid because of love. "Maybe you're  right.. Maybe I am stupid..  Stupid to think that Jessica truly loves me..  Stupid to think,  that her hugs,  kisses and her feelings for me was true.. Stupid to think, that we will be the happiest couple in the world.." It is really painful for me to think all of these,  that I ended up tearing up again. 

"Soojung.. I thought she's  the one..  She brought happiness into my life - she really made me happy..  And I've  never been happier before,  until Jessica and I got together..  But,  Soojung.. That night.. My world went crashing down,  when everything - our relationship is not true from the start..  She made me believe that she loves me,  and she really did a good job..  But, yet.. She's dating that guy,  during my happiness together with her..  S-Soojung.. It hurts..  I..  I-I love her so much,  but it hurts.. "

Reminiscing my memories with her - it just pains me..  It made me more broken..

Sobbing, I heard her call my name. "Amber.. I.. I am sorry if..  So sorry..  I--"

"No,  Soojung..  Don't  cry..  It's not your fault.. It's mine.. Don't  blame to yourself.. Soojung..  I have to go..  Tell the others that I am okay.."

"A-Amber.. W-wait, don't--" I cut her sentence,  when I suddenly ended the call.  I rested my head against the wall,  as I slowly closed my eyes,  and felt a tear just run  down through my cheek. 

This is too much..  The pain is unbearable.. What should I do?  Because I am still in love with her..  But like what I've said.. I love her so much,  but it hurts..














 

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A/N: Oh god..  I'm really sorry for taking too long to update this chapter.. it just that..  you know..  school.. being a college student is really not easy so I hope you understand..

P.S

Okay,  reading your comments on the last chapter..  most of you guys were blaming Krystal because you were saying that she was the reason that's why jessber broke up..  I suggest that you should wait for the whole story to end..  so that you will know the true reason.. 

That's all..  happy reading..  

Another p.s

but I am not also saying that it's Krystal's fault from the start..  we will never know,  until the story ends.. maybe it was really Jessica or.. someone..  * smiles*  so calm your t*ts and I hope you will anticipate !! :) bye!!

oh! one thing.. who has a kakao talk? i just wanna chat with you guys.. *giggles* message me for those who has a kakao talk! ..