Days turned into weeks and weeks turned into months, time really flies so fast and our concert in Hong Kong has come. Due to Krystal's new drama The Heirs, she wasn't able to come with us, so it was just the four of us again-plus-the f(x)'s team went to Hong Kong

I remember what she told me on the day, before our flight. "Amber.. Call me, when you get there, okay? Wear your mask and drink your pills. You usually get sick every time we would leave the country.. And then.."

"And then, what?"

I could sense, that she was hesitating and didn't know why. "Just call me if.. If something happen there, okay? I'll miss you.." There was something in her eyes, that I couldn't read. It just felt so weird, but nonetheless I didn't ask for more and just nodded.

In this very moment, we are already rehearsing for tomorrows event. The concert will be taken place in a football arena, and let me say that it is so huge! We're all nervous because we were informed that the place will be packed and I can say that tomorrow will be a huge event and an unforgettable memory.

I was at corner, sitting on the ground while watching TVXQ's Yunho and Changmin oppa, rehearsing on stage. Actually, the stage wasn't that far from where I was sitting, so I still could watch my other label mates from here, without even squinting my eyes.

"Hyung!" I snapped my head towards that voice and saw Sulli walking towards my direction, holding something that I couldn't figured out.

"Yah! What're you doing here? I've been looking for you, didn't you know that?" She said, once she sat beside me. She looks so breathless because she was panting while she was 'scolding' me. She really must be looking for me earlier.

"I was just resting. 5 minutes of rest after that oh-so-tiring rehearsal earlier is not enough. Aigoo.. I remember our practice with Kevin before in our RPPP... That was.. That was crazy.."

"I know, that was why manager oppa gave us an hour break, right?" I nodded absentmindedly, eyeing the bubble milk tea and the clubhouse sandwich she was holding. Damn this! Those are my favorite she was she was holding! Is she going to give some of it to me?

"Oh.. You want this?" She maybe noticed me staring at the food, that was why she was shoving it to me.

"Wait.." I said, perplexed. "You're not gonna eat that?"

"Well I saw your eyes were dropping out when you saw this and your mouth was already watering. As a good angel. I thought, that I can give it to you."

"Wow.. Really? Are you sure? You're not sick, aren't you? Did you drink your mental pills already?"

She rolled her eyes. "Ha. Ha. Funny, hyung. Just be grateful that I gave it to you."  I grinned, accepting the sandwich and the milk tea from her hands.

Unwrapping the sandwich, I looked at her. "Thank you, Sulli!" I beamed at her.

She sighed and nodded. What is wrong with her? "Okay-okay.. Eat that already.."

Later on, as I was busy eating my sandwich, I noticed that Sulli became so quiet. I glanced at her and she got a far off gaze with her elbow propped on her knee and her chin resting on her closed fist. This made me wonder, what she was thinking. I nudged her using my elbow. "H-huh? What?" She seems to shake herself out of daze now.

"What's wrong with you?" I asked, the food is still in my mouth.

She blinked. "What do you mean?"

"Because you were staring into nothing. Seems like you were in a deep thought. Is there something wrong? Care to tell hyung about it?"

She pressed her lip, opening , then closed again. "Ah.. Nothing. Just nothing."

I raised an eyebrow, confused at her actions. "You're such a spoiler, Sulli." I didn't ask for more as I went back on devouring my sandwich. I just heard a deep sigh from her in response.


































 

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Finally, rehearsals ended just a few hours ago, and now I am here in my hotel room, not to mention that I am alone - preparing to get to bed. We were surprised, actually that we were told that we're going to have our own rooms now - I mean it never happened, so I am going to use it till it last - for sure, my other label mates were like that! I guess, our agency has a budget.

I just got out from the bathroom, refreshed and clothed when I heard my phone on the bed. "Hello?"

"Amber? Did I wake you up?"

I smiled. "Hey, Soojung. No-no! You don't, actually I was planning to eat some snacks first before, I get to sleep. So whats up? Are you doing fine in Seoul?"

She sighed and I chuckled, sitting on the bed as I dry my hair using my towel. "I told you to eat, didn't I? Aish, you stubborn llama. Anyways, I feel so alone.. I want you guys to come home now, especially you~ I want to see you.. I miss you already.. - wait, did you drink your pills, already?"

I swear, I felt my cheeks burning on that. "Aigoo.. Our Soojungie~ don't worry, we will get back.. Uhm, the day after tomorrow? Just hang in there okay? And about the pills, yes I already did what you told me ma'am, so don't worry. And I want to remind you that it just snacks and I already ate earlier."

"Okay that's good.." She giggled and I couldn't help but to smile on that sweet voice. "So how are you? I never heard you voice since you left.."

"I'm okay here - we were all okay and I'm pretty excited and at the same time nervous for tomorrow. I wish you were here, Soojungie~ because you can make me calm." I said, pouting.

"Yah.. Stop it.." I could imagine her blushing, and I grinned when I heard a muffled giggle from her. My eyes landed on the clock on the night stand. 10:00 PM.

"Soojung.. I think I have to hang up, I bet manager will be mad at me, if he found out that I'm not sleeping yet.."

"Oh.." I frown, the disappointment in her voice was obvious. "O-okay. I guess, I cant do anything.. Well, uhm.. Amber?"

"Hmm?"

"U-uhmm.." At first, she wasn't  responding and I grew curious. "N-nothing.. Goodnight."

"Goodnight.. And, Soojung?"

"Yes, Amber?" I smiled, when she answered so quickly. The enthusiasm in her voice was evident.

"I missed you too.." I whispered.

The silence between us was just comfortable, and when she answered, I knew I was smiling like an idiot. "Oh, Amber.. I miss you more. Really, really miss you Amber.. Hope to see you soon.. Goodnight."

And with my last response, "Goodnight." We both hanged up.

I felt like its been awhile that I spoke with her, and hear her voice, although it just only one whole day that we didn't see each other, I admit, I miss her. Somehow, the conversation made me feel so.. Light? And calm.

I stood up on my feet, slipping the phone into my jeans pocket and lastly wearing my Nike's sweatshirt. I stepped out of my room, of course not forgetting to lock the door, especially my room key and my wallet for the snacks, before heading towards the elevator. Waiting for a minute or so, finally the elevator door opened and I quickly stepped inside, pushing the G button and stuffing my hands in my sweat shirt's pocket as the door closed.

13.. 12.. 11.. Ding! Then the lift stopped and the door opened once again. I couldn't see the passenger, because I was totally busy reading messages on my phone, but I was certain that there was someone outside, standing. Also, I noticed that the passenger was still not entering but after a few seconds, I felt his or her presence getting nearer until she or he was just beside me.

When the door closed, I noticed that he or she didn't even pushed any button. As I was slipping the phone into my pocket, my eyes landed on the passenger.

I swear, I wasn't expecting this to happen again, but here I was, alone inside the lift with her. I bet my eyes were as big as saucers when our eyes met.

..

I quickly broke the gaze, whipping my head back, blinking. Then I realized, that she might be staring at me earlier, for quite long, when I was busy on my phone. Later on, I felt something slipping off on my wrist.

"Jessica?"

"Neh, oppa?"

"I-uh.. Would you let..?"

"What, oppa?" Her smile at him.

"A-ah.. O-oppa.." With her eyes closed, .

Those memories.. It went back in a flash - it kept on repeating in my head. The sudden flipped of my emotions was making me crazy. The anger inside me was overwhelming to the point that it is making me nuts. My whole body was trembling - I unconsciously clenched my fist - I couldn't breath - it is suffocating. Without thinking, I stepped forward, pushing the door open button repeatedly until the elevator stopped, even though, it wasn't my designated floor. Once the door opened, I quickly got out.

I fasten my pace, but suddenly, "A-Amber!" I halt, panting. I didn't turn to face her, and seconds later, I felt her getting nearer. I look steadily at the ground. Suddenly, I felt so dizzy. "A-Amber.. You.. You drop this.. You drop your watch.." She said, quietly.

Huh? My watch? I glanced at my wrist, and indeed I dropped it. I looked ahead, making a step forward. "A-Amber, wait.." She touched my arm and I flinched, quickly moving away from her, still on my back, facing her.

"I-I am sorry.. A-Amber.." My eye twitched, balling my fist.

"I don't need it anymore, since its already broken. Throw it." I said as cold as possible, and after that I walked away leaving her alone.