Have you ever been into a relationship, that you have to keep it a secret from others? To the point, you have to treat his/her normal, so it'll not be so obvious? How does it feel? What is the true reason, why some people chose to hide it?

For Amber and Jessica - its complicated. Although, their label mates and their families knew about their relationship, but for the couple - they wanted to push it to the limit, like they want to held hands; be intimate with each other in public - like they own the world, but like what they said : its complicated. The owner of the agency - Mr. Lee Soo Man, he don't want to inform public about their secret, because it might ruin their reputation and career, and lastly the kind of relationship they're having is forbidden in Korea.

What can they do? Even if they want, the fate is already telling them about it. They don't have a choice. But it seems right now, Jessica is having second thoughts if she'll take the risk, without even telling to their manager and Mr. Lee. She thought of that, after watching Amber's interview together with her co-host Ham Eunjung.

FLASHBACK

"So, these question that, I'm going to ask you guys, were given by your fans. Of course, you have to answer it truthfully and, since this is the special episode of SHOW CHAMPION, some of the staff prepared a lot of surprises for the both of you. "The MC trailed. Eunjung and Amber were both seated on the couch, while the MC was facing them.

"Ok, so let's move on. First, this question is for Amber-ssi. "He continued."Amber-ssi, are you single? Or are you dating someone?"

This caught Amber off-guard. Eunjung ears were perked up by the question. Amber let out a nervous laugh. It took her time to answer the question.

"Uhm." She paused for a moment, as she bit her lower lip."Uhm. Yes, I'm single and uhm .... I-I'm not dating anyone."

A wide smile can be seen on Eunjung's face, after what she heard from the person beside her. It seems like, she was lighten-up in some certain reasons. Amber on the other hand was bouncing her leg up and down. She was stunned; she didn't expect, that he will ask her that question. She was a bit hurt, because she knows to herself that she has a girlfriend.

"Ah, okay. So if you will turned out to be a man, Amber-ssi .. Does Eunjung have the qualities to be your girlfriend?"

Amber's eyes widen, but of course, not to be obvious, she broke out an awkward laugh, while scratching her head. Eunjung bit her lower lip - hanging her head low with a pink shade on her cheeks.

There's a brief silence, before she answered the question."Uhm .. How can I say this? Uhm. W-well .. Unnie is a very caring; sweet,humble person and beautiful inside and out. Many guys out there are lining-up just to court her, and as you said that if I turned out to be a man ... Yeah. Why not? I'll be one of those guys."

With that, the MC and the staff were squealing and some others were starting to tease them. This made Amber to blush because of embarrassment. She let out a nervous laugh, as she stoop her head low. Eunjung was also blushing, while smiling like an idiot. Setting her eyes on Amber, which made her eye smile more visible.

"Hehe .. Okay. So let's move on to Eunjung-ssi." Eunjung sat straight, waiting for his question."Eunjung-ssi, if Amber will turned out to be a man, does she have the qualities to be your boyfriend?"

Eunjung bit her lower lip, while looking at Amber with pure affection, who now is looking at the ground.

"Yes." She said straight, nodding her head. Amber shot her head up and stared at her with wide eyes.

"Actually, even if she don't turned out to be a man, I'll still say yes. Amber - she's really caring sweet;she always makes me laugh. I'm comfortable being with her. So, yeah. Actually, I'm really happy that I met her."

END OF FLASHBACK

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I admit. I'm not happy to hear their answers in the interview, especially when the MC asked Amber about the "qualities" thing. I even saw them blushing because of his question! I'd be lying to myself, if I'll say that I'm not affected. If course, it hurts for me to hear from her that she's single, even if we both know in ourselves that its really not. But, who am I fooling to? The public is clueless, about our personal lives. But, can you blame me if I'm acting like this?

"Sica-unnie~" I snapped out from my thoughts when I heard there's somebody calling my name. I look towards the source of the voice and it was Seohyun, peeking her head out at the door.

"I've been knocking multiple times, and thought you were sleeping. Amber is outside, unnie. Should I let her to come here?" I didn't give any response, instead just looking at her. I'm still bothered, honestly.

"Unnie?" She called. I blinked, before nodding. I blew out a deep sigh when I heard her calling Amber. After a few minutes, I stared out at the window as I heard the door closed.

"Hey, babe~" I felt her weight on the edge of the bed, and still not breaking my gaze at the window.

"Sica, babe? Is there something wrong?" My eyes went down to her hand which is resting on my leg. I still didn't utter a word, but keeps staring at her hand.

"Sica, did I do something, that I offend you?" That's when I stared at her. Should I tell her? Should I tell her, that I'm now bothered, about hiding our relationship?

"Jessica .. Hey. Did someone hurt you? Come on tell me." She scooted closer, placing her hands on my shoulders. Her eyes were telling me that, she's worried. Hurt? Yeah. A little bit.

My lips curved up a smile, placing a hand on her cheek."Its nothing, babe. I'm okay. Don't worry about it"

"Huh? Are you sure? You were in a deep thought, earlier." I caught her into an embrace, wrapping my arms around her waist, as I laid my head in the crook of her neck.

"Yeah .." I snuggle closer."I'm okay. Its just that .. I'm still worried about Soojung. But its a good thing that, there's a progress"

She hugged me back, as she kissed the top of my head. I closed my eyes for a moment, felling her warmth on me. I lied, I know. I have a fear, that if i tell her, she might think, I'm being possessive. Well, I can't help it. She can be mobbed by her fan girls if we still keep hiding our relationship. Like, in her interview, I have a strong feeling that her co-host has something on my Amber. And, I think she's now hoping, because she knew that Amber is single. I really have to keep my property. Call me a psycho or something, but I will keep what is mine.

"Amber?" I spoke. She hummed in response.

"I .. I .. I just thought that maybe, its time to tell the public about ...us?" With that, I felt her stiffened a bit. I actually expected that. If I were in her shoes, maybe I will react the same.

"H-huh? Jessica, why are you saying it right now?" She asked. I pulled away from the hug, wrapping my arms around her neck.

"Uhm. Nothing. I just wanted to do something else, like holding your hands in the public, dating outside - I wanted to tell the world, that you are mine." I planted a soft kiss on her lips, playing with her hair.

"Sica, babe~" She chuckled. "I also want that to happen, but we both know that we really can't right? God knows, how I want to do that also, but Mr. Lee forbid us."

I

don't know why am I acting strange. Why do I feel disappointed? Well, I really can't blame her, because that is the truth. But, I am expecting her to say something else - to support my decisions. But how am I supposed to tell her about it?

"Sica, don't think about it too much, okay? The most important right now - I'm yours and you're mine. We can still do whatever we want, right?" She paused, as she placed her hands on my sides.

"But, why are you telling me about it right now? Is there something bothering you? If you do, you can just tell me."

Should I tell her? What if her reaction is ... Bad? What if, she thinks that I'm starting to tie her up? Sigh. Too much questions in my mind. But, what is wrong if I will tell her? I'm her girlfriend - and I have to be honest, right?
 

"Amber ..." I whispered."I saw your interview with Eunjung .."

"Aaahhh .."  That's the only thing I heard from her. I glanced up and she has this concerned look on her face. She sighed, before she spoke.

"I'm sorry, if you heard that babe. Its hard for me to pretend, and act like, that I really don't have a girlfriend.*sigh* I'm sorry ... I'm sorry ...  I'm sorry .."

"A-Amber ... I-I .. I am afraid, if ever .. Someone might steal you away from me. Especially, that .. Eunjung ..." I heard her chuckled, and I glared at her for that.

"Come here .." She motioned me to hug her, and I obliged. I snuggle closer, resting my head in her shoulder.

"Eunjung-unnie, us just a friend. She just treats me as her donsaeng. Besides, I'm in love with you. Crazily in love with you. Do you trust me, right?" I slap her chest slightly, and I received a chuckled from her.

"I trust you, but its her that I don't trust." I tightened my grip around her waist as I closed my eyes.

"Aigoo .. You are really cute, when you are jealous." I blushed, as a smile crept up on my face. Even if I have to make an alibi, she will not but it. Its obvious, it is written all over my face.

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A/N: Aigoo .. Jessica Jung ... :|