I think its better, that she passed out while we were in the middle of 'making-out', because I don't know what will happen to us if ever we really did 'it'. Even though, sometimes I really can't  control myself anymore - I still know my limits.

Its just that; I'm happy that I finally tasted her lips; her touch and I finally said the 3 words that I'm dying to say to her, even though that she's not in herself that night. Last night, I felt like I was hers and she's mine.

Sounds pathetic, isn't it? But, can you blame me if you were also in my shoes, who is madly in-love with my sister's girlfriend?

And right now, I think I can't control myself, when she suddenly my index-finger. She's making it too hard for me, and she's also not helping when I felt her tongue, glided against my index-finger.

I can already feel my face is turning hot, and my heart is starting to beat rapidly; my breathing became faster as I unconsciously moved closer to her, and that was when our eyes met. My eyes are darting back and forth between her lips and eyes; surprisingly she was doing the same.

I suppress my moan, by swallowing the lump in my throat, when I felt her tongue again - it hard. I my lower lip, slowly leaning forward to her. As I was about to place a hand, on her side; she spoke

"Soojung," She called - it was rather calm. I snapped, blinking my eyes a few times, before stepping back as I retrieve my index finger.

"Yah! Next time be careful. A can is not a toy, arachi? If you want to play some toys, I have some action figures, you can borrow it from me." She said, showing her dorky grin, and I slapped her arm for that.

"Hehe! Just joking! Hey, put some band-aid on it, and some disinfectant. I'm gonna wash the dishes first. Yah! I'm warning you, don't bother me!" Then, she quickly turned her back at me, heading towards the sink. I breathed out, placing my right hand on my chest.

= LUB DUB! =

= LUB DUB! =

= LUB DUB! =

= LUB DUB! =
 

= LUB DUB! =

= LUB DUB! =
 

That was close. That was a stupid move of me! Its a good thing, that she didn't notice it, did she?



 

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Time flies so fast, and its already been 1 month has passed since the incident between Amber and Jessica. Krystal, who is still oblivious about the incident, seems that she's getting closer and closer to Amber day by day, and it made her happy about it.

In Amber's side; Victoria and her boys were the only one who knew the incident, while in Jessica's - of course, the 8 girls. That's it - they were just the only people who knew about the fight.

For Jessica, she was like living in the hell this past month. You can't see it on her face, but she's still in a depression state. She was quiet all the time; she barely talks; she's always zoning-out; she sometimes don't eat her food, that the girls even need to convince her, and it made her co-members  worry about her situation. The only person who is in her mind all the time - Amber. She misses the latter, so much. For the whole month, she didn't see her or even heard her voice. She sometimes thought, that fate is playing on them, because in 1 month they didn't see each other faces.

There is almost no difference when it comes to Amber, but thanks to her friends and members, she's still able to stand-up on her feet. Even though, Krystal doesn't  know what is exactly happening to Amber, she keeps on trying her best to make Amber smile, and good for her - she's doing a good job.

Because of some other problems, Amber actually forgot about, the 'thing' she did to Krystal. She didn't think of something else, and it made Krystal to breath out in relief. She was actually, praying that Amber would forget the incident, and it seems her prayers were all answered.
















 

Amber is on her bed at her condo, staring blankly at the ceiling with her arm folded underneath her head. She just got home from a photo shoot, and her body is already exhausted, because of all the day work. She's tired, but yet her eyes were wide open. She was thinking of Jessica - what she's doing right now; is she doing okay, and some other concern thoughts about Jessica. She misses Jessica badly; she wants to touch her hands; hug her and kiss her, like they used to do. She wants to call her lover, but there is something stopping her to do so.

 

Then, suddenly her phone rang ..

Turning her head to the right side, she reached out her arm to pick the phone on the nightstand. Knitting her eyebrows, she was staring at the phone screen in confusion. She thought, that maybe it is some important matter. She immediately swipes her phone to answer it.

"Sooyoung-unnie, wassup?" Amber said, as she lift her body in a sitting position.

+"Yow, Amber where are you right now?"+ Sooyoung asked, from the other line.

"I'm actually at my place right now, why?"

+"Aahh .. Okay. Uhm .. Amber, are you doing something tonight?"+

For some odd reasons, she is starting to get curious. Rubbing her eyes she answered."Uhm, nothing unnie. I just got home from a photo shoot. Wae, unnie? Do you need anything?"

+"Uhm, well .. The girls and I are outside right now, shooting a CF. Well .. Except from Jessica."+

Amber's ears perked up, when she mention her girlfriend's name. Blinking her eyes, she was thinking for a possible reason."She's not with you? Why? Is she doing something else, right now?"

+"Well, no. Honestly, the reason why I called you, because Jessica is alone at the dorm and she also have a high fever."+

Amber quickly straightened her back, of what Sooyoung told her. She's worried about her girlfriend, right now."What?? B-but ... How did she have a fever? Is she doing okay? Is she alright?"

+"Well, right now, maybe she is sleeping in her room, but we assured that before we left, we gave her some medicine .... Amber, I want to be honest with you, the day you fought with her ... She's really not doing good .."+

Amber hanged her head low, she's thinking that, its her fault that's why Jessica turned out to be liked that.

+" Amber, you should go there. We can't check her, because we're stuck here."+

Amber nodded her head, as she gave a response."Yes, unnie. I will."

Before they hanged-up, Sooyoung gave the password of their dorm, so that she can immediately enter inside. Once they ended their conversation, Amber got up from her bed, and headed towards her closet to grab her jacket. She quickly wore her shoes, grabbing her car keys in the drawer, she run towards the door, and left her place at once.



 

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The road is clear right now, that's why I got here fast. I am currently standing at the front door, hesitating if I should enter or not. I'm actually nervous right now, because I didn't see her for a month. Thinking once again what Sooyoung told me, made my heart sunk. This is all my fault, that's why she turned out to be like that.

"This is really my fault." I mumbled to myself.

I gulped, as I punched the 4 digit password. Once the door is unlocked, I slowly flew it open, popping my head first. I scan the area, and no one is inside. I left myself in, closing the door behind. Sooyoung, said that she must be in her room right now. I dragged myself towards her room and I bit my lower lip, as I reached out my arm to turn the door knob, but suddenly the door swung open. I looked up and saw Jessica.

Gosh, I missed her so much; I missed everything of her. I noticed that she lost weight. Jessica, why are you doing this to yourself?

"Amber?" She whispered. Her eyes widen when she saw me standing in-front of her. Tears are starting to build up in her eyes.

"Amber!" It came out as a whimper. She suddenly jump onto me, and good thing that I caught her; wrapping my arms tightly on her waist and hers around my neck. 

"Amber .." She mentioned my name once again, in between sobs. My eyes are already burning, and when I closed my eyes, I felt a tear just run through my cheek. I tightened my grip around her waist. I really missed her, so much.

"I'm really sorry, Amber. I'm really sorry .. I'm really sorry .. I missed you so much .. I love you .. I love you .." She said in the crook of my neck, and this made me to cry even more.

I kissed her shoulder; her neck; her cheek, and when she looked at me, I immediately captured her lips, which she responds back. We were both hungry for each others touch, that's why our kiss turned out to be hard and rough. The bitter taste of our tears, that keeps on flowing down through our cheeks, is a sign that we miss each other so much. No words can't express; this intimate moment with her explains it all.1 month of being away with each other, I realize that, I can't live without her - my life is a living hell without her. 

I immediately broke the kiss, once I was lacking of air. We were both panting, as our eyes were glued onto each other. I slowly put her down, because my arms were getting tired. Placing a hand on her cheek, I used my thumb to brush the tears away.

"Amber .. I'm really sorry .." She started. Tears are starting to form again in her eyes, as she was looking at me intently.

"I-I'm sorry because I .. I hurt you .. I'm sorry because I doubted your love .. I'm sorry, because I didn't listen to you .. I'm sorry because I accused you of nothing .. I'm sorry if I'm being too possessive. I just love you so much. I'm just afraid to lose you."

I smiled at her sincerity, and she pulled me by the neck, asking for a kiss again, and I obliged, as I lean forward, capturing her pinkish lips. It was slow and gentle; this time, she was the one who broke the kiss. I leaned back slightly, just to look at her beautiful face.

"Amber, I know that sometimes, I tend to be jealous so easily, even if its not necessary, but you know I really can't help it. Can you blame me if I have a hot girlfriend like you, that many girls are willing to throw themselves to you?"

I giggled at her statement, pinching her nose and she gave me a peck on the lips.

"Amber, I'm sorry if I acted like that. I know, I went overboard. I am sorry for being a bad girlfriend, sometimes. Amber you were the only person who made me feel like this. You will not might want to believe me if I say this, but in my pasts relationship, I never felt this so much happy and in loved - this is all because of you. I love you, Amber .. So much, that I'm willing to sacrifice everything just for you."

I was touched by her words, and I think I'm starting to shed a tear again. I should be the one telling this to her, and I'm still thankful because I met her.

"I realized one thing, while we were away with each other, Amber. I just realized that, we don't need the public to know about us. It doesn't mean that we were both ashamed or we're not proud of our relationship, because we agreed to keep it a secret, but if people are there just to insult us or to break us apart, do we need them? No. All we need is ourselves; the people who support us and our love for each other."

"Amber, I'm willing to change just for you, because this is how I felt and I'm not sorry for saying this - I love you. Amber, will you give me a chance?" When she asked me this, her tears didn't stop from flowing through her cheeks and without second thoughts, I pulled her by the waist as we shared for a tight embrace.

"Pabo .. Of course I will. I never stopped loving you. I miss you and I love you too, Jessica." I said, as I kiss the top of her head.

"I love you too, my llama~ so much." I heard her say, and my lips curved into a smile.

While hugging her, I just notice one thing - she's wearing a tank top and boy shorts, and I can't feel that she's hot. I thought, she have a fever?

"Jessica?" I called as I pulled away from the hug, both hands were on her sides."I thought you have a fever?"

"Fever? Who told you?" She asked in confusion.

"Yeah, Sooyoung-unnie called me earlier that's why I'm here. I assume that,you are okay now."

"Sooyoung told you?" I nodded.

"Aish! That Sooyoung pabo .." I heard her murmured.

"Why are you calling Sooyoung-unnie, pabo?" I asked, chuckling.

"Hmm? Oh, nothing. That is not important, the more important is, that we're okay." 

"Yeah, but your feve ..--" The next thing I knew, I was cut off by Jessica's lips.
 

I know, everything will be wonderful after this.

 

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A/N: Before I forget, I want to recommend a fanfiction again for you guys. Whoever who loves reading angst, I think you will love this. Its a tiffber story .. It means the main pair is SNSD TIFFANY x AMBER. This is my first time reading a tiffber story, and I know this is a rare pair in some fanfiction stories. I just love SNSD x Amber pairings .. Hehe. So, its a must read and for sure you will not regret reading it ..

This is the link of the story : 

http://www.asianfanfics.com/story/view/456428/third-time-s-the-charm-amber-angst-snsd-tiffany-girlxgirl-tiffber