Random thought #4: The Earth rotates. Thus, it's always nighttime on half of the earth and daytime on the other. We can apply the same on this one. It's like... it's daytime on Yoonsic side and it's nighttime on Taeyeon side. Get it? lolololol.

Note: This chapter is a reference to the devastating yoong/taeng/sic chapters in RSDTD, Chapters 129 and 130 but extended up to 131 for you to get the full grasp of what I am talking about. There's always one person in RSDTD that seemed to be on Taeyeon's side. This WILL also be a reference to the upcoming chapter, no. 352. Yes. I have not even released that yet but I swear, it's related to this and you'll get to be confused as Sooyoung will. *wink*wink*.

Anyway, it's playboy Taeyeon time. Here we go.

"So, how do you want to do this?" Ji-eun asked as we entered a motel room. She sat on the bed while I had myself relaxed on the couch. "No again, oppa?"

"Ji-eun, we both know how our night always goes."

She then whined, "I don't get you, really! You always just waste money refusing the good things!" She then leaned, "Yah, oppa. We are supposed to have with your payment to me. I am not getting paid here for just a simple chat. This is not how ion works."

"Aren't you supposed to be happy I'm not sleeping with you?"

"Why would I?! I want to freaking sleep with you as in ever since we first spent the night together! I treasured that night I swear because you were so damn ing good. Seriously, even without your money, I would definitely sleep with you. I swear. I can be yours for free. Just come here and do me."

I teased, "Ji-eun. Don't be like this. You know I'm not ready."

"But, you have been sleeping with dozens of girls! Do you think I didn't see you the other day heading inside a motel with two women, oppa?! And the other day too! I called you and I hear someone when you answered!"

I chuckled as I looked at her in confusion, "Are you jealous?"

"Of course, I am! You always have with random women but not with me! I don't even know why!" Then, she interrogated, "Oppa, you tell me the truth. Are you really sleeping with those women there or you're just having a chat with them just like how we are now?"

I laughed loudly, "That's a good one."

"Yah, oppa! I'm serious on my question!"

"I'm sleeping with them."

She then pouted cutely, "But, why not with me?"

I sighed deeply. I went to sit beside her on the bed. "I'm sorry, Ji-eun."

"It's not like we didn't already have before. Why you act as if something never happened to us? Is this because I am one of the reasons why you and that Jessica broke up?"

"It's not like that. I'm not blaming you on that. I know you didn't really mean to break us off with that frame-up. You were just caught in between." I patted her head. "Besides, I've always been thankful to you that you helped me on my break up with her."

"But, why are you shutting me off? I..." She looked down while blushing madly. "I have to admit, Taeyeon oppa, I..."

"You?"

She then looked at me while blushing, "I think I like you."

"Ji-eun..."

"Do you like me too?"

"Of course, I do."

"As a potential girlfriend?"

"..."

She then became saddened, "Is this because I'm a e?"

"No! Don't ever think that. You know, I never really looked down on you because you are one. I mean, I don't really care what you are or what you are doing."

"Then, why can't you see me as a potential girlfriend?"

"I am not capable of love anymore, Ji-eun."

She slapped me on the chest, "You've been having girlfriends left and right!"

"But those were just flings. I'm not really serious about them. But you, I don't want to do the same on you, to only have you as my girl just for fun. You are special to me Ji-eun."

"I can be your special girlfriend then."

I lied my back on the bed frame, "You do know enough how much I love her, right? Are you going to be able to take that? Okay, we'll get serious, but deep inside we both know I am in love with someone else. You're just going to get hurt at the end that's why I don't want to risk our friendship."

"But, a couple of y time wouldn't hurt." she said with her puppy eyes and pouty lips.

I sighed, "If I say yes, are we going to have the chat that I always want after?"

"Yes!"

"Alright. Let's just get this over with."

And yes, she won and got what she wanted from me. To be honest, I didn't really want to sleep with her. I always just want to book her from time to time since I wanted to protect her from the erted men who have been trying to sleep with her. So, I'm just spending money to schedule her on every two weeks, Friday nights. Ji-eun isn't really a full-time e. She always just have a routine schedule of becoming one. She's actually studying in college, the same age as me, and just needs extra money to finance her studies. So, yeah, as always, we just spend those nights with nothing but chatting and watching movies, playing board games and bunch of wholesome stuff.

After we were done with such a satisfying session, she snuggled me as she rested her head on my bare chest. "Now, talk." she said.

"So, until when are you going to continue this profession? Do you have any plans on stopping at all?"

She glared at me, "Are you for real, huh? After what you did on me, you think I will stop now?"

"We can still have even with you not being a e, you know."

Her face then lightened up, "Really?!"

"That was a trap, wasn't it?"

She chuckled, "Yes." Then, she redirected, "But, can I be honest with you?"

"Sure."

"Ever since we've become closer. I never really slept with other men."

"Of course. I've been booking you on your bi-monthly schedule, you know."

"Silly. Do you actually believe I am just a e twice a month?"

"Err yeah?"

She then giggled. She rested her head on my chest again. "That is why I like you, oppa. You are really so sweet and innocent. No wonder that Jessica fell in love with you."

"So, you're not?"

"I'm a part-timer, yes. But, that doesn't mean it's only twice a month. But, enough of that. My point is... I stopped. I really did."

"I'm glad to hear that."

"Thank you for this, oppa."

"Wow. Now, I feel like I'm the e with you thanking me."

She giggled again, "That's not what I meant, you know. I just really want to thank you for this night."

"Okay. Why?"

She looked at me while resting her chin on my chest, "Because you gave me a parting gift."

"Huh?"

"I'm leaving."

"Where are you going?"

"I got a scholarship abroad. I'll be going to the UK to pursue medicine there."

"Wow. That sure is so great! I'm happy for you!"

"Thanks, oppa. I don't really know what happened but there's a foundation there which offered me a scholarship. I already passed the series of panel interviews. I think I really won their hearts so that's it. I'm heading there by next month for good."

"This is really such great news. I'm glad you're pursuing your ambition."

"Thanks. If you want to come with me, I sure don't mind."

"Nah. I think I'm good here."

"Alright. Promise, you'll visit me if you got the time?"

"Sure."

"Then, we'll have ?"

I chuckled, "Sure."

I sighed deeply. I sure am going to miss this girl.

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Ji-eun and I spent the rest of the night sharing very satisfying sessions of . I guess it would become a habit for both of us before she leaves for the UK.

It has been more than seven months passed since my break up with Jessica. And throughout the whole time, I did nothing but had my mind occupied. With that, I mean, be occupied by dating and sleeping with different girls. I couldn't exactly resort to liquor or other stuff since I am forbidden to do so by my psychiatrist.

If I become a drunkard now that I am still undergoing therapy sessions for my disorders, there may be a chance I would never get out of this shadow of mine. Thus, I resorted to this kind of lifestyle. 

I am thankful to my friends that they have accepted me in going to this path. Though, Yuri is in doubt. He never really liked this 'new' me. But, still, in the end, he just went along and accepted. Though, he always tells me...

'Never lose who you are.'

I chuckled from the thought. Yul always sounds so philosophical.

I don't exactly know what he meant or what he is pertaining to. Yul has always been like this to me, anyway. He always gives me cryptic statements and just leaves me figuring out the rest. Sometimes, when he's frustrated though, he just gets straight to the point and scolds me. He's like a father to me, always guides me and knocking some senses in me.

On the other hand, my other two good friends are really great influence, Yoong and Sooyoung specifically. They taught me the ways to hit and score on girls. I am starting to find my own way to get what I want to, though.

To be honest with you, I am enjoying this new me. It's like finally, I am enjoying the greatness of the world. It may sound like I'd rather prefer this than be with Jessica but... what can I do? I had no choice, okay.

I decided rather than feel miserable with the outcome of our relationship, I'll just take this path to help me cope up and forget about her.

Miss Anna Jung was right. Jessica and I are star-crossed and our relationship was doomed to oblivion. No matter how much you look at it.

More evidence on why?

Well, right now, I am having dinner with my family on a Saturday night. And the usual favorite topic is Vincent Jung.

"That Vincent sure never backs down." Dambi-noona uttered. "He's already abducted. Evidence pinpointing him are already like everywhere and still, he's not budging?"

Jongin-hyung then responded, "Let him deny his charges. The more he denies, the more he could face his death sentence."

"I am totally wishing for that." Mom said. "I want to witness his death sentence myself."

Jongin-hyung then looked at me and asked, "What about you, Taeyeon?"

"What about me?"

"Why does it look like you are on Vincent's side?"

"I am not."

"Then, why aren't you joining our conversation?"

"What do you want me to say?"

Mom then interfered, "Jongin, stop. You are so much aware of your brother's state of mind, right? Just leave him be."

"Is it not enough to make you happy?" he asked.

"I am happy he was jailed."

"And you don't want anything more? Taeyeon. There's still a possibility he will be out."

"And you think that possibility will be gone if I laugh along with you guys over his agony?"

"Are you disrespecting me?" He balled his fists.

"What do you think, hyung?"

He stood up and smash his fists on the table, "ing disrespect me again, Taeyeon. Come, you ing coward."

I stood up and stood beside him. "What are you gonna do then? Hit me? Go on. Come on."

He quickly hit me on the cheek. I stumbled on the ground. He landed his fist on my cheek again. Mom and Dambi pulled us away from each other. Sulli started to cry and ran away to her room.

"Jongin, this is enough! Stop hurting your brother!" mom said.

Dambi-noona uttered, "Oppa, you do know Taeyeon is suffering from his disorders. Please stop making this hard for him. He's still---"

He cut her, "He's still what?! He's still trying to decipher everything in his mind?! He's still trying to understand the ing situation?! He only got those ing disorders but that doesn't ing mean he's stupid!" He looked at me. "I ing raised this family on my own after dad died. I deserve that ing respect from you."

"Just tell me what you want, hyung.