Jessica I - Waver

Romantic Street: Crossroad of Fate
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Does he hate me?

 

Will he hate me?

 

Does he still care about me?

 

Are we... still together?

 

I am in melancholy. I am in deep turmoil. I am angry about the situation. I am frustrated. Yet, most of all, I am scared... scared that he might not want to be with me anymore.

Kim Taeyeon, my boyfriend, the only man I ever had fallen in love with, has been avoiding me for a long while since the commotion at his residence. That moment was the first time I visited and met his family. Our meeting, initially, seemed to be perfect. However, as it went on, the horrible truth was unfolded. It had never crossed my mind that our lives were actually intertwined by an awful past.

My father, Vincent Jung, is the alleged main suspect on the murder of Taeyeon's father, Kim Junsu.

I couldn't believe it the first time I heard it from Taeyeon's family during that night. I somehow believe Taeyeon was clueless about it too. Nonetheless, immediately, I confronted my father and mother, Anna, about It. It was unfortunate that they have not given me a single answer. All I got from them was a command that I should stay out of their business. They neither confirmed nor denied the allegation. And with that, though, I feel like the truth is actually being told by Taeyeon's family.


It has been weeks since I've last heard from Taeyeon. I kept on trying to contact him but I was never in luck. I've been trying to visit him at his school yet, I have a feeling he transferred or maybe decided to be homeschooled for the rest of the school year.

Now, I am here, sitting at the bench right by the riverside where he and I first confessed our feelings for each other. I am hopelessly waiting that he would think of walking on this path. I don't care if he'll try to shove me away, I don't care. For as long as I get to see him again...

Now, the thought of him had me in tears.

I miss him so much.

I love him so much.

I don't want to lose him.

Taeyeon...

I heard footsteps. I gazed to my side and saw him. Subconsciously, I stood up and called his name, "Taeyeon..." Tears continuously fell from my eyes. I ran towards him. I hugged him tightly as I buried my face in his neck. I felt him hugged me in return. With that, I burst in more tears.

"I miss you..." he said.

"I miss you so much too..."

 

 

 

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We went and seated on a bench in a walkway under the bridge. This is to hide from the possible sighting of our families. I rested my head on his shoulder while our hands intertwined. For a long moment, we just stared over the still water in front of us.

I couldn't help but glance at him from time to time as well. Whenever our eyes meet, though, he always kisses me on the forehead. I always tend to smile bittersweetly every time he did that. It's always a warm and happy feeling. But, deep inside, there's always this feeling of worriment because of our situation.

"Do you hate me...?" I asked, which is the question I've been longing to hear an answer from him.

"No." he said.

"But, why were you avoiding me over the past weeks? Why weren't you answering my calls?"

"I... I actually changed my phone number..."

A tear fell from my eyes again. I smiled bitterly, "So, you really did hate me."

"Jessica... It's not like that."

"Then, what is it?" I unrested my head from his shoulder and looked at him straight. He looked back to me with traced sadness in his eyes. He smiled faintly. "Taeyeon..." I uttered, still couldn't help to shed a tear again. "What do you need me to do for you not to hate me?"

"I don't hate you, okay."

"But, why aren't you answering my question truthfully?"

He looked away and just stared at the still water. He sighed deeply. "I was just... I was just lost...

My family never told me the truth about my dad. They told me he died from an accident but it turned out he was killed. I was furious because, as I told you before, my dad is the one I was closest with. I just couldn't embrace the fact yet that someone had taken the life of my father away... I couldn't even picture the reason why..."

I looked away and stared at the water. Tears started to fall from my eyes again too.

"Jessica." he uttered then held my hand. "I'm sorry if I avoided you for the past weeks." He then sighed deeply. "But, to be honest, yes... hatred towards you came into my mind. But... but it went away..." he guided my chin to make me face him. "Trust me. I don't hate you at all. Because I know what matters to me now."

He held both of my hands up and kissed my knuckles. "I love you, Jessica Jung. I don't care about the past. I don't care about the conflict between our families. I want to take this path with you. I want to be with you. That's all that matters to me."

"I love you too... so much." I cupped his face with my both hands. I rested my forehead on his. "I don't care about other people. I don't care if my family will forbid me to be with you. You're the only one that matters to me too. And, I will do whatever it takes for us not to be apart." I kissed his lips. "If having my father face justice is what needed to be done, I will ensure he'll go behind bars because of what he did."

"Jessica..."

"I love you, Taeyeon. I love you so much."

"I love you so much too." He pulled me closer and captured my lips again. With that, he parted my lips. He inserted his tongue and had it explored the insides my mouth. I was in so much drowned of his addicting taste. Our kiss went deeper and deeper. It's to the point that we didn't care about the surrounding anymore if people will see and judge us.

 

 

 


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We spent that night together. And throughout the two months after, we continuously had ourselves consumed by lust and desire to be together. We always spend nights together. It was almost every day.

I guess it forms as our coping mechanism. It's like our escape from the horrible past.

We continued our relationship as if nothing happened. We never talked about the conflict between our families. Instead, we just kept on talking about us and some other things. We always just talked about our beautiful future together. It makes me happy in some way.

Someday... when this is all over, we'll be happy. We'll have a family of our own.

Triplets, as he said. The thought had me chuckled. He always insists for us on having triplets because of that peas-in-a-pod stuffed toy I gave him on our sixth month. It's cute that he's really determined on getting triplets and we all know that's something which couldn't be forced. In case it won't happen, though, he declared we're just going to have a baby every year 'til we get three. The thought had me chuckled again. 

I just happened to be consumed on these thoughts as I watched him sleep right beside me. Yes, we spent the night again. This time was, I think, the night we went on tirelessly. It was a really great night.

I scooted near him and just ran my fingers on his bare chest. My Taengoo is sleeping soundly. Watching him sleep like this reminds me of this same innocent face that had me fell for him many months ago.

A peculiar, goofy but adorable guy randomly stopped in front of me while I was waiting for my actual date that day at that restaurant. He bore this innocent face as he joined me on my table. He was like a kid who got lost.

It was funny. He thought I was his blind date. I remember him asking me hilarious simple questions. Still, I found him handsome and interesting as our conversation went on. He made me curious about him. But then, I guess it was already more of an attraction.

He seemed to be so imperfect right in every aspect... well that's in exception for singing and in bed, of course. But to me... I feel like he complements me. It's like... he completes me.

The thoughts had me chuckled again. I couldn't believe that this goofy, funny, cute and handsome guy had me head over heels in such a very short time. I guess... we both may not realize it but maybe... maybe I did fell for him first than him on me.

This innocent face. It's kind of inconsistent, though... Considering how he made me so happy last night. I say the word innocent won't be really applicable to him if he's awake. I sighed deeply. I feel

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I realize I haven't updated this one for more than a year. So here's a quadruple update. I apologize it took too long. The events in books 1 and 2 of RSDTD is so much intertwined on this arc that's why it's hard for me. lmao. Bear with me for any errors you may encounter. I'll fix it up later.Bye!
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taengolden_star #1
Chapter 65: I miss this story
taengolden_star #2
Chapter 65: I wonder when will sica knows the truth about their break up..only hyoyeon and sunny right that knows the real story?i just re-read the story from chapter 1..
lalalavieenrose
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Chapter 65: It's kinda clear that both of them still love each other. Thank for the updates!!! 💓
taengolden_star #4
Chapter 65: Arghhh! I didnt expect you to update 3 chapters at once!! Not complaining though..hhahahah..thank you so much for giving these taengsic moments!
taengolden_star #5
Chapter 62: OMG! tq for updating thiss and more, giving some taengsic moments T_T..tq so muchh.
taengolden_star #6
What happen author-nim?have you abandon this story?
taengolden_star #7
Chapter 60: I wish taengsic have their moments too. Its making me hurt watching taeyeon had to endure seeing yoonsic moments. T_T
taengolden_star #8
I miss this story T_T