June 2009

My Joohyun,

Happy Birthday! I’m sorry (I think I’ve been starting my letter to you with I’m sorry lately) that I only got to write you now please know that I always think about you even if I don’t write you. Congratulations on Vienna, so you are really going? For real? Can you live there alone? Are you sure? I admire you, you know that? You’re brave, I hope I’m as brave as you Joohyun. When I was faced with challenges and changes, I was complaining to you but here you are embracing it. From now on I will try to be as brave. I have gotten the hang here in the marines, though training is thrice as difficult, I think I’m now used to it, and I guess it leaves me little to no time to think about anything else, the second my head hits the pillow, i’m gone! Hahahaha. My friends here have been asking me for your number, I told them I don’t know and they thought I was Joking.. funny…coz I never really gotten your number.. hahahahaha, we are weird aren’t we?

I’m planning to extend here Joohyun, I don’t know, I guess being here gives me time to think about my future as well, is being a celebrity really what I want? Will it make everyone around me happy? I don’t know.. see I’m talking nonsense again, I’m sorry it’s just that you are the only one I can tell these things too and I feel like no one can understand me the way you do.

I am sending you chocopies for your birthday and a necklace. This is our fourth birthday of know