January 2007

Dearest oppa,

I had a great time in Austria but my brother didn’t show up long story short, my dads threatening to remove him from the family registry. I know that this phase of their relationship will soon pass but you know, while I am in the middle of it, I do wish for it to stop. I hope we can all go back to the time life was simple, but I guess that’s what you call growing up. Oppa, my unnie and I visited University of Music and Performing Arts, Vienna. I plan to go there for college. My unnie wil help me talk to mom and dad. When I saw their school, I immediately wanted to go. I know that’s where I’ll go. I haven’t even passed the exams yet but I know that’s where I’m meant to be. I’ll take up Music Education. 4 years in Vienna, 4 years away from all these family madness. Please pray that they allow me to go. I also told my brother, he didn’t wish for me to live alone, he said I can try Julliard and be with him and as much as I miss him, I want to do this on my own. I’m entering high school next school year and tho it’ll be years till I enter college, I’ll start stacking up my credits so they can’t refuse me! Hahahaha

Oppa, be strong. Your dreams are bigger than your fear, remember that. What is important is you start. You will be discouraged and you will lose faith, you will be scared and sick but what’s important is that you start. You start somewhere. You just have to try. If it’s meant for you then