January 2007

My dearest joohyun,

How was your Christmas in Austria? I envy you sometime since you get to travel to different parts of the world, when we become a well known band, I’ll also bring my mom to different countries, you know let her relax aand have some time off to herself. I spent Christmas with my dad in Seoul, to bad you weren’t there, we could’ve at least meet but anyhow, I was with my dad Christmas day, mom was at halmonis, the next day, the boys went to Seoul as well, we stayed for a week in FNCs dorm in Seoul, just in case all work out, we will be staying there for the duration of our training. Mom was not happy since there are just the two of us and if I’ll be moving to Seoul then she’ll be the only one staying here in Busan but then again, nothing is concrete as of yet, there are a lot of things that could go wrong. We also met a number of other trainees, aspiring idols, actors, models, no wonder the entertainment industry is so congested, there are a lot of us and made me realize that for us to really make it out there? We have to have something others don’t have, we need to offer more, sadly I don’t know what that is. The musicians were equally talented, if not, more talented than we are. I will admit to you and you alone. I’m disheartened. Oh Joohyun, is this really what I want? I’m confused but I don’t want my dongsaengs to see it.

Wow, so it does exist huh? Fixed marriages? Don’t do it Joohyun. I am just a friend wh