Sanduel take step back his legs were shaking after what he saw he stood in the middle of the street , his supposed mother was hugging a little boy and holding him close to her , he wasn't that small but her eyes would shine when she look at him , she raised her head and meet her eyes she stare at him and her smile vanishing  , he knew she recognized him she took the first step to the side of the street were he was standing , but he put all his energy and ran like a crazy person .

He ran and ran until he fall on the ground out of breath , he hugged his shaking body and tried to hold his tears but he couldn't , there's one name repeating on his mind that he could help him , and he take his phone to call him but he remember that was on a vacation , he tried his best stand leaning against the wall his apartment was close , he take a few steps but couldn't continue and the last thing he heard before seeing black Baro yelling his name .

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" how are you feeling ? " Taecyeon asked Nichkhun he just arrived and came to see him .

Nichkhun knew that he can't hide anything from Taecyeon he sighed and spoke " I feel stupid and I'm sorry for ruining everyone day " he said playing with his bandaged hand .

" you should feel like this " Taecyeon told him " but there's something else I need to hear from you " he added and waited Nichkhun to raise his head and nodded .

" when you left me in the resturant to walk home with Jongdae a few days ago , I received a call and I went to meet someone and I heard a scary things " he paused closing his eyes " my father in korea , he's came alone but he meet your father , I watched them after knowing where he is staying and I could know what they talked about ... " he looked at Taecyeon and chuckled " ... you know they mentioned me and you , and thier dirty plans , but the real problem is that I found out that there's a man walking out the streets looking for Jin , not just in korea but in the U.S.A too ... I don't know how I could get here again " Nichkhun held Taecyeon hand tightly " I really gave up on my father long time ago and I don't care about myself , but they shouldn't even think about Jinnei he suffered enough already ... " Taecyeon hugged him rubbing his back to calm him .

" Shhh , I won't let anything happen to both of you " he whispered on his ear and stroaked his hair gently .

" they're monster and you know what they could do " Nichkhun said wiping his tears feeling a shiver going through his body from his mixed feeling .

Taecyeon wanted to say something to comfort him but suddenly they heard a noise , like a sound of glass breaking and then someone yelling " Till him to shut up ! " .

" Jin ! " they both ran out the room to the corridor where Jongdae was watching TV and Jin standing next the stairs a tray next his legs food and glasses everywhere  , Taecyeon looked at the screen where his father smiling picture showed .

" torn off - " he couldn't finish his suntence when Jin throw the first thing get on his hand at the screen breaking  it " baby calm down and be careful " .

Jin shake his head covering his head  " Hyung tell him to be quiet " he said between his sobs , but no one was really talking .

Nichkhun stepped closer carefully but left a few steps between them " baby listen to me I won't let anything hurt you , just trust me and don't move I'll came to you " Jin was trembling and he screamed when he felt that Nichkhun getting closer to him and jumped not caring with the glass on the floor .

Nichkhun frooze stepping back and Taecyeon didn't realized what happened , Jin was barely able to stand and they knew he going to faint any minute , but it was late and he fall backward on the stairs with a loud  thud followed with a heavy silence .

Jongdae was the first one to react from the shock and carefully walked down to check him , he was laying on the floor in a wired position and there was blood next his head , Taecyeon follow immeaditly calling the ambulance  .

" is he alive ? " Nichkhun asked tears burning his face and Taecyeon shoot him a death Glare .

" Shut up Khun ! Just Shut up " he ruffled his hair annoyed " please stay with me baby , please " he pleade kissing his palms .

The ambulance came quickly and Nichkhun went with them crying while holding Jin hand " you had to be strong Khunnie , I'm coming after you ok ? " he nodded and Taecyeon closed the door .

" I can't come I'm sorry " Jongdae apologized " can I do anything for you ? " Taecyeon shake his head and ride his car and drove like a crazy man .

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Jinyoung rest his head against Shinwoo chest and looked at the sky , they ate outside and they were drinking wine now , he played with his ring and smiled .

" so do you want children too ? " Shinwoo asked him kissing his hair .

" What ? " Jinyoung yelled when he recalled what he heard " we're not married yet " .

" but we'll " he torn to look at his boyfriend surprised a little " you know we should put a plan if you want to do the wedding this year " .

" wedding ? " he mouthed confused and Shinwoo pecked his lips smiling .

" hey , did you regret asking to marry me now ? " he .

" of course not , I just love you and want to spend all my life with you , wedding and children and anything is up to you , I don't mind anything make you happy " he said softly .

" but we should decide  together you know if we agree to spend our life together and get married , we should share everything together and show our love and care to each other  " Jinyoung felt warm on his chest and butterflies on his stomach .

" You know when you said yes to me I felt like I owned the world " he held Shinwoo face with both if his hands putting his wine away and kissed his forehead , between his eyes , his nose , his lips " I want to give you the world if I can " Jinyoung hugged him inhaling his scent .

" I don't want the world I just want you "  he whispered leaning until they share a kiss feeling thier lips fiting together perfectly , Jinyoung turned his head to deepen the kiss and his hands went through the brown locks , kissing back and letting Shinwoo his bottum lip and fell his tongue teasing him , they pulled back when they were out of air , both were have big smile on thier faces , this was favorite kind of kisses just to show thier feeling , it was soft and warm and sweet like how Jinyoung saw Shinwoo .

" something wrong ? " Jinyoung asked after a peacful silene , Shinwoo take his glass and fell it again , and Jinyoung knew that he get his limit , he know already that he rarely drink .

" nothing ... " he said taking a sip from his wine , but Jinyoung show him unconvinced look  he sighed and added " I'm just worried about Sandeul " Jinyoung nodded knowing very well that this would come soon , but maybe it was a bit faster than he excepted he was aware how his boyfriend and the younger were attached to each other , the younger never hide his feeling and the older never pushed him away , he always jealous how he was babying him .

" You have to talk to him when we're back , he listen to you well " he tried to comfort him and Shinwoo nodded smiling " you know what ? " he asked grining .

" What ? " Shinwoo asked confused .

" we should adopt children after our marrige , I never thought about it but you would be the best father ever " he smiled imagaining having children in a small house with his lover , he know his lover is an angel and he would give thier children love like no one could .

" I don't mind if you were the father " Shinwoo spoke softly pulling Jinyoung closer to his lap " I want to have you with me all the time , kissing you " and he did " hugging and holding you " he did and get up carrying Jinyoung bridal style walking inside the house , kissing the younger all the way to the bed room " and make love to you " he said in a low voice while laying Jinyoung on the bed gently .

Jinyoung heart start beating fast with the thought of What his boyfriend said , he closed his eyes and lst him kiss his lips hungrier this time , his arms wrapped around his neck holding on his hair , his shirt was removed and then his skin was attacked , His face , neck jaw down to his chest , Shinwoo touches drove him crazy like always and all he could do was loudly .

He felt alive when finally Shinwoo entered him and each was amazing and make him hold his boyfriend closer until they came together .

Jinyoung wake up to the sound of his phone ringing , he sighed remembering they slept last night without a shower , just a fast cleaning with wet towel and it was already so hot and Shinwoo was hugging him holding him close .

He answered his phone quickly and careful without checking who was calling , to not wake up his sleeping boyfriend " hello ? Channie what's wrong ? ... calm down and tell me ... ok we'll come back don't worry and don't apoligize " .

" what's wrong ? Something happened to Channie " his boyfriend asked him with closed eyes worry could be heard on his deep voice .

" it's not Chan " he answered shaking his head and added " he's scared a little ... " he paused to stroak his boyfriend hair and groaned closing his eyes " Sandeul locked himself on his room yesterday and he's not talking to anybody or letting in , they just hear his sobs and this how they know he's alive " .

" What ? Why nobody tell me anything ? " Shinwoo get up from the bed .

" he didn't let them but Gongchan was scared and didn't know what to do " Jinyounh said following his boyfriend to get ready to leave .

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Sehun went to check on his brother who was busy with some paper " Hyung are you busy ? " he asked catching the older attention , who raised his head with a big smile .

" I always have time for my baby brother come here " he said and Sehun throw himself over his Hyung body .

" you really grow up a lot " he said playing with his hair " what's bothering my baby ? " .

" I don't want to grow up ... I just want to stay everyone baby " the younger said holding his brother " I want to fall out of love " he said in a low voice .

" did Taecyeon Hyung did something ? I swear to god if he hurt you -- " Sehun chuckled at his brother protective side .

" no , and you know he won't " Sehun pulled back looking at his brother sadly " I just feel like I'm not enough , he could do better " he bit his lip and looked down .

" Why do you think like that ? I bet he feel lucky to date a handsome , clever young man " Kris said rubbing his back .

" it's not like he the opposite " Sehun sighed and added " he's just too perfect and I feel I'm not ready , I can't do to him a lot like he do to me and this drove me crazy " Sehun closed his eyes and shifted to get more comfortable on his brother embrace .

" is this about the accident ? " Kris asked him softly .

" not just this but sort of yeah " Sehun wanted but he couldn't hold his tear anymore " I couldn't even offer the most normal things lover do ... " he covered his face and groaned " and you know what's more funny ? He never complained or try to force me on anything , he even told me he woukd wait ne until I'm ready " Sehun cried louder not able to talk anymore .

" Shh , don't cry " Kris wiped his brother tears and rubbed his back to  calm hin down .

" I love him and I don't want to lose him , but I don't want to be selfish " Sehun said feeling his heart sinking .

" but you have to be selfish when you love , cause everything is allowed when you love someone " Sehun want to protest but his phone cut him , it was Jongdae and he answered quickly .

" Hyung ... What ? Where are they now ? I'm coming ... ok Hyung " Sehun jumped from his Hyung lap startling him " oh my god I need to go Hyung " .

" wait , calm down and tell me What's happened  " Kris said .

 " Jin Hyung fall from the stairs and he hurt his head , Taecyeon and Khunnie Hyung with him I need to go " he said rushing out .

" wait I'll drive you " Kris followed him grabbing his keys.

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Wooyoung jumped hearing the phone ringing , Junho sighed and rubbed his arm watching his biyfriend answering his call .

Wooyoung was staying with them after coming back from thier little trip , he was nervous and Insecure about a lot of things and Kris was one of them , but today he felt a heavy weight on his chest .

" I need to go there's an emergency on the hospital " Junho nodded and walked him to the door .

" be careful " he said kissing Junho forehead . 

" you who should be " he said looking at frusterd Wooyoung " he's going to explode any minute " .

Junho sighed and nodded " I'll don't worry good bye " .

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Taecyeon covered his face groaning they had been in the hospital but no one told him anything , all he could hear the sounds of what happened repeating in his head and Nichkhun loud sobs , he raised his head to look at his friend " calm down Khun please he gonna be fine , we won't let anything happened to him " he said pulling him in a hug .

" I'm scared Taec , it's not just he broke up in front our eyes but he was bleeding so much an ... and he didn't open his eyes all the way to the hospital " Nichkhun cried louder recalling the memories .

" Hyung ... " Sehun voice make them pull a part , Taecyeon stood up quickly hugging him " What happened ? Jongdae Hyung called me , you know he couldn't come to the hospital " he asked worried .

" I don't know everything happened fast , I was in Nichkhun room and we walked out after hearing the noise , and he triped back and he just lied there , his head bleeding ... " Taecyeon said holding the biy closer seeking more comfort from the younger who rubbed his back .

" Sehun ... " Minseok voice force them to pull a part .

" Hyung do you know how is he ? " the older shake his head .

" no I came here after Jongdae call , he's worried you know he can't come to the hospital " Sehun nodded holding Taecyeon hand " don't worry the doctor who taking care if him one of the best " he said and left after the nurse called him .

Then another doctor appeared looking for Kim Seokjin family and they'll gathered around him " we treated the wound on his head and stopped the bleeding , but we can't confirm anything we need to do a few check up and wait until he wake up , his body look so weak so I can't give a specific time " Chansung told them .

" can we see him please ? " Nichkhun asked through his tears .

" yeah we're taking him to his room but be careful and don't make a noise " Nichkhun nodded and Taecyeon torned to talk with him .

" you can go I'll talk with the doctor " Sehun went with Nichkhun and Taecyeon looked at Chansung taking deep breath " I need to tell you something about Jin condition " Chansung nodded for him to continue " before he fainted and fall from the stairs he went through a nervous attack , it's not the first time I mean this must be write on his profile but ... this time it was stronger and I think he would go thtough another one after he wake up ... " .

Chansung looked at him confused " but we're giving him a medicine and drugs to calm him don't worry we'll be ready to help him if something happened " Chansung said .

" I'm scared that he would try to hurt himself , so please make sure to not leave him alone even if we would be by his side , but we can't do anything alone  " Taecyeon said and Chsnsung nodded .

" don't worry I'm staying here tonight you can go and check him " Chansung said walking away taking his phone calling his boyfriend " Junho I need to tell you something but don't let Wooyoung notice ... don't freak out but Jin is here ... yeah , I don't know ecxatly but he's not in a good condition ... I called to ask you if we should tell Wooyoung ... ok do what you think is good ... I'm staying here tonight by the way ... bye baby " he hang up and went to the emergency room where he saw a familiar figure checking one of the patient , he froozed eyeing him until he torn around and saw his face , he torned around quickly panicking following him walking in Jin room .

He went to his room closing the door and leaning against it with a closed eyes , this can't be real he must imagaine things , this man can't see him and Junho and why he went to Jin room ? He know that he nothing to do with Jin condition .

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Shinwoo drove like a crazy until Baro opened the door for him " Hyung ? What are you doing here ? " he asked surprised looking for Gongchan guessing why the older was here .

" I'm sorry I called him " Gongchan said running toward the older hugging him " Hyung ! Thanks god you're here ! I'm scared " Shinwoo rubbed his back comforting the younger who was about to cry .

" it's ok , could you tell me what happened " Baro then get in and told them how he saw the younger fainting in the road , and how he locked himself and never let anyone in if it wasn't for his screams and loud sobs they would think that he hurt himself " ok I'll check on him " .

" Good luck " Baro told him and he went to knock on Sandeul room but there was no answer  .

" Sanduel that's me could you please open the door " he could hear something moving in the room but stil no answer " you know that I won't move until you open the door " he waited for hours but no answer came , Jinyoung was eyeing him worried and Gongchan and baro were looking at him hopefully , so he spoke again " Lee Sanduel you got one minute to open the door before I broke it , and you know that I could do it " .

It didn't take more seconds for him to her Sandeul low voice whispering " I'm letting just you in " he said and Shinwoo nodding forgeting that the latter can't see him .

" ok I'll come in alone " he said exited hearing the doorknop moving to open the door , which slightly opened just to let the older in and quickly closed the door after him " thanks  god you're alright ! " Shinwoo said carrying the younger boy in his arm holding him tightly , and the latter didn't hesitate to hold on him too .

" Hyung " he spoke in a sad voice feeling his tears wetting the older shirt , who pulled back to wipe his tears .

" Shh , don't cry it would make you look ugly " he said pushing the younger fringes fron his eyes and leading him to set on the bed " could you tell me now tell me what's bothering my baby " he asked when he felt that he stopped trempling .

 " Why don't you tell me first Why are here ? " he said playing with the older hands then he noticed the new ring on his left hand and gasped " ... oh my god what's this ? " he asked .

" I think you know very well what is this " he said pulling him closer to his side " let's talk about you now " he said playing with the brown hair .

Sandeul looked down sadly and said " I saw her ... I mean the woman who birth me " he said scared to face the older who hold him tighter " she was with a young boy and she hold him close to her , our eyes met and she said it ... " he could hear him crying again " she called me with my real name Lee Junghwan and I didn't know how to breath after it " Shinwoo hugged the younger and pulled him to his lap stroaking his hair softly like he used to do in the past like the first time they slept together .

They were so young back then Sandeul was twelve and Shinwoo thirteen they were nieghbours , Shinwoo was coming home late  slightly to an empty house , he was about to open the door when he saw a fire on the next door house , he heard someone screaming and he ran inside and saved the little boy who was locked on his room crying .

Nothing happened to him thanks god , but there was no sign for the little boy parents for weeks , he lived with his mother anyway and the boy said nothing from the accident just kept himself stuck to Shinwoo side even sleeping with him ,  gaining a strong glare from Jinyoung who spent a lot of time with the olders .

It take Sandeul months to talk again and he accept that his mother won't come for him , and if it wasn't for Shinwoo who was like a mother to him more than his real one , he won't be alive , the older boy