Title:  Authornim

 Author:  hangarianne

Characters: Jinyoung / Bambam / You (Reader)

 Disclaimer:  This is a GOT7 fan fiction originally written by hangarianne. Any similarities to real-life persons, situations, places, etc. are coincidental. No copyright infringement intended.

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“Do you love me?” I asked Jinyoung.

“Of course, I do...” he tells me and I feel reassured once again.

I always find myself asking him the same question every chance I get; not because I doubt him or anything, but because I just love hearing him say that he loves me.

Jinyoung isn’t the type to always express his feelings. He isn’t the showy type of guy. Sometimes, he’s just too serious and I don’t know how to approach him at times. But all of these made me fall for him. I knew a whole lot more about him but I didn’t care about his flaws. The more I pointed them out to myself, the more I learned to accept him.

Stupid... Who ever told you to let your world revolve around him? I always scold myself everytime I feel lonely when he’s not around. Before Jinyoung and I became a couple, I used to be more involved with people, with my friends. However, this changed when we started dating. Everything revolved around Jinyoung. I feel happy whenever I’m with him and when I’m not, I usually find myself bored or sad. It doesn’t even take a day before I start missing him. Sometimes I tell him this but he always tells me that it’s because I don’t have friends of my own. I always tell him I’d start going out with my friends but I’ve gotten too lazy to go out lately. Even if it’s Jinyoung, it’s hard to ask me out.

Just what is he doing right now... I lay down on my bed as I wait for Jinyoung to go online. Every night, we’d chat until we fall asleep. That’s how clingy I am to him. I’m well aware it’s not a good thing but then he says it’s okay. He must be telling the truth, right?

*ting* I rushed to check my Facebook. He’s now online and I can’t be any happier. We start chatting; asking each other how our day went then go talk about anything we could think of. I always sleep late because of him but it didn’t matter. I love talking to him. He feels the same way towards me, too, right?

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One day, Jinyoung and I had a fight. I found out that he went out with his friends that day. It shouldn’t have been a big deal until I realized that he lied to me. The day before, I asked him to come visit me but then he told me that he had plans with his family. Of course, I no longer insisted and let him. The following day, I tried to busy myself so as to not end up bothering him. It’s a day with his family, let him be, I told myself.

Hours passed and I barely noticed that it’s already evening. Finally, he sent me a message telling me that he’s now on his way home. I ask him where he went but then he tells me that he went out with his co-workers and not his family. I’ve always been cool with him going out with his friends – regardless if it’s a man or a woman – as long as he tells me where they’re headed to. This is to avoid times when his mother contacts me to ask for her son’s whereabouts. I always feel bad whenever I can’t pinpoint myself where Jinyoung is.

However, what disappointed me is the fact that my own boyfriend lied to me. Again. This wasn’t the first time he lied to me about going out with his friends. Sometimes, it makes me wonder why he does it. Is it because I’m being too clingy? Is it because he thinks I won’t let him? Am I being too controlling? As always, I fight with him but always end up apologizing. He apologizes too but I always feel like whenever I speak my mind, I end up hurting him more. Is something wrong with me? Sometimes it scares me that maybe one day, Jinyoung will give up on me – that he’d lose his patience and just leave me.<