A/N: I had cramps today and I still wrote this for you guys! That's commitment. It's a special KrisChen chapter. Hopefully you'll love it because it's been a long time coming. Enjoy!

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Chapter 49

Chen rocked on the balls of his feet. He was an idiot. He should be at home just hanging out with Baekhyun and Chanyeol – who he had now apologised to – but instead he was hovering outside Kris’s door and wondering if he should knock. Why did he put himself through this kind of worry?

No, he had made a decision last night after seeing him with Tao and had already spent all morning thinking it over and over. This is what he wanted and he wasn’t going to mess things up again when he knew how lucky he was to have someone as amazing as Kris fall in love with him. He took a deep breath and knocked.

It was a little while before Kris opened the door. He looked surprised to see Chen there but not unhappy about it.

“H-hi, how are you? I mean, um… I wanted to come and say sorry for the other day and running out like that.”

“You apologised yesterday,” Kris reminded him. “I told you it’s alright.”

Heat pricked Chen’s skin all over. He should have thought more about what he was going to say.

“I was… Oh! Happy birthday. Well, not happy birthday because it was actually the other day but you party is today so happy birthday party… day. Maybe you should just shut the door and I’ll knock and we can start this over again.” He laughed nervously but was surprised when Kris actually did shut the door in his face.

He hovered for a second. Had he said something wrong? Uncertainly he lifted a hand and knocked once.

“Who is it?” Kris called cheerily.

“I-it’s me.”

He threw open the door with a bright smile. “Chen! What a pleasant surprise. What brings you here?”

Chen smiled. He liked Kris best when he was playful. “Sorry I’ve been so difficult lately.”

“It was my fault. I shouldn’t have hurt you.” His eyes drifted downwards. “Hey, you’re not wearing the bandage anymore.”

Chen covered his arm with his hand shyly. There was still quite a big mark where Kris’s wolf teeth had punctured the skin but there was really no need for it to be bandaged up anymore. “Yeah, it’s getting a lot better now.”

“I’m still sorry.”

“No, I don’t want to talk about that again. Can we just forget about it, please?”

“Of course. Come in.”

He followed Kris inside and looked around. It seemed quiet. “Where is everyone?”

“They went out to get everything for the party tonight. Tao said I couldn’t go because it had to be a surprise.”

“But you already know about the party.”

“I know.” He shrugged. “But that’s just how Tao is.”

Chen cleared his throat and looked away. “How is Tao?” he asked quietly.

“Okay. His heat didn’t last long.”

“Did you two…?” He didn’t really want to know –mainly because he was pretty sure he already knew the answer – but he asked anyway. Just to be certain.

“You know how it works. It was his first time in heat. I had to take care of him.”

Chen nodded. He knew but it still made him jealous. Especially since they had never shared that level of intimacy, in heat or not.

“You could have asked Lay to calm him down.”

“He’s part of my pack. If he had wanted Lay to then I wouldn’t have argued but there wasn’t really a reason for me to say no.”

Chen didn’t meant to look sad at that revelation but he must have because Kris cupped his face and made him look up. His eyes were warm and gentle. “Baby, it didn’t mean anything, not like it would with you. I’m not in love with him.”

“Promise?”

“I promise.”

He kissed Chen gently and somehow managed to not sigh in relief when he felt him smile against his lips. Carefully he pulled him closer and was rewarded with Chen’s mouth softly opening to let him inside and his fingers tangling in his shirt.

“Kris,” he panted when they broke apart, “I missed you so much.”

“I missed you too, silly.”

He grinned and with a sudden rush of confidence linked their fingers together and led him towards the bedroom.

“Where are we going?” he laughed.

Chen looked over his shoulder with a cheeky grin. “Well, we’re alone, aren’t we?”

“Kris, stop!”

Chen tangled his fingers through Kris’s blonde hair and pulled him back a little more roughly than he had meant to. It had taken a lot of willpower though to stop him when what he was doing felt so good.

Kris looked up, alarmed, and swiped a quick tongue over his shining bottom lip. “What’s wrong?” he panted. The concern in his voice quietened the nerves in Chen’s belly and made him even more sure. He shifted so that he felt slightly less vulnerable if that was possible with his legs spread wide and his boyfriend between them.

Kris pulled himself up Chen’s body so that he could nuzzle against his neck and press hot little kisses to his jaw. “Is it too fast? Do you want to stop?”

Chen shook his head. He looked into Kris’s deep brown eyes and hoped he sounded as certain as he felt. “Nothing’s wrong,” he said quietly. “I don’t want you to stop. I want…”

“What?” Kris prompted when he paused. Heat flushed his cheeks.

“I’m ready.”

Kris blinked and then smiled. He reached up to caress Chen’s warm cheek gently. “Are you sure? There’s no need to rush.”

Chen nodded. “I’ve been thinking about it for a while. I really want to.”

Unable to contain his happiness, Kris kissed him hard. Arms twined around his neck and their bodies pressed together in a way that sent a flood of pleasure through them both.

“Ok,” he said, gently lying his partner back down. “Now, tell me if anything hurts ok?”

Chen nodded and bit his bottom lip to keep from smiling too much. Large hands ran down his body, soothing him until he had better control of himself. As soon as Kris’s long fingers began softly over his entrance he let out a little moan. It felt so nice, different to when he touched him anywhere else.

His eyes fluttered shut at the tender and the gentle pressure he applied. A whimper escaped him when Kris eased a finger inside him, just up to the knuckle. It felt good. An involuntary smile lifted the corners of his mouth and he could hear the laughter in Kris’s voice when he asked, “Does that feel good baby?”

Chen shifted a little as he pushed in further and all sorts of strange sensations erupted inside him. He nodded, not trusting his voice to hold steady if he answered.

“Open your eyes, kitten.”

He did as he was asked and gave Kris a shy smile that his partner couldn’t help but kiss. “More?” he mumbled against his lips. Chen nodded and groaned as the intruding finger slipped further inside him. His hips bucked involuntarily and he swore.

“Naughty boy,” Kris teased.

“S-sorry.”

He laughed and it was a deep, warm sound that made Chen tremble. “It’s ok, baby. Do whatever you want.”

He began to in and out, soon speeding up as Chen’s breathing became fast and he clung to his shoulders. Embarrassed, he hid his face against Kris’s neck, teeth nipping at his skin because he couldn’t seem to stop himself.

Then the finger disappeared and he felt two pushing at hi entrance. It hurt more this time but he whimpered, held his breath and let it happen. It wasn’t so bad once they were in and moving at a steady pace. The first one had felt wonderful and that knowledge forced him to adjust as he waited to feel that pleasure again. He was just managing to push past the sting of tightness in his muscles when Kris eased out again. Chen whined.

“Patience.” Kris kissed his sweaty forehead and reached for the bedside table. He pulled out an almost full tube of lubricant.

“It’s ok,” Chen told him hurriedly. Wolves could usually do without it thanks to their bodies’ natural desire to mate and bond with their pack mates, regardless of the gender.

“Shh.” Kris coated the liquid over his fingers and then his long, hard that had been so neglected until now. “It’s your first time. I don’t want to hurt you.”

Chen pouted. He had hoped they wouldn’t need to use it, that he would just be ready. Kris noticed the expression and kissed him again. “Lie still,” he said. “It’ll feel good, I promise.”

He had lied. It felt amazing. It felt so good that Chen’s hips rolled in a rhythm all their own and his fingers clung to Kris’s well-muscled arms and each breath that escaped him was either a whimper or moan.

There was a spot inside him that Kris hit with each long that threatened to undo him so much so that when Kris pulled his fingers out and lined up his instead he almost had Chen whining in protest. He didn’t want to be without that feeling for a second.

“Kris,” he gasped, not knowing why he said his name just knowing that he needed to.

“Just relax. You’re doing good, puppy.”

Chen gave a playful whine and snapped his teeth gently at him. It made Kris laugh and he stole a quick kiss. “Hold onto me,” he said.

Chen did as he was told and then Kris was pushing inside him. Despite the lubrication it was still too tight. Chen’s eyes flew open and then squeezed shut. He dug his fingers into Kris’s shoulders and buried his face once more against his neck. He gave a whimper when the pain didn’t ease.

“Are you ok?” Kris panted close to his ear. “Do you want me to stop?”

Chen shook his head hard. It felt like he was being stretched too wide. He would never adjust to this. Kris was too big and he was too small. It just didn’t seem possible. Despite knowing how it would make his partner worry he couldn’t hold back a long, pained moan.

“Jongdae.”

“No, don’t stop.”

“I don’t want to hurt you.” Kris’s voice was tight, like he was in pain too. Maybe he was. It was a very tight fit after all.

“I’m fine.” He pressed himself closer still to his lover. He wasn’t going to stop when they had come this far. If he did he would probably be too embarrassed and ashamed to ever try again.

“Are you sure?”

He nodded and managed to look at him. Kris’s arms wrapped around him, keeping him close and holding him steady.

“Try to relax,” he advised. “I’ll go slow.”

Chen bit his lip and snuggled closer to him again. It was easier that way. Kris moved a little, just testing the waters, and Chen gave a surprised whimper. He shivered at the little movements that sent tingles through his body.

Ever so carefully Kris began to speed up. Each roll of his hips was strong and deep until Chen had no choice but to relax and loosen slightly around him. Somehow their bodies seemed to find a way to fit together and Chen became more and more aware of that spot inside him that sent little floods of pleasure to his .

He felt his boyfriend drop little kisses all over his face as he loosened his grip on his shoulders and lay back a little. It still stung at his entrance and each movement created a rough, burning friction that he was sure to feel later, but beyond that was that feeling that was almost perfect.

Kris’s breath was hot and heavy against his ear and he grunted softly now with each . Chen knew he was getting close and couldn’t help but feel a little relieved. It felt good, especially being so close to him, being a part of him like this, but it was exhausting too.

Suddenly Kris pushed into him more deeply. Chen gasped at the sudden invasion and the burn that came with it as Kris moaned and came deep inside him. Chen’s mouth fell open at the strange, overwhelming feeling of it.

When he had finished he pulled out gently. He was as careful as possible but Chen couldn’t help scrunching his nose up at the uncomfortableness of it. Kris gave him a hot, breathless kiss that he had barely started to return when he felt a large hand wrap around his .

“Oh!” he gasped, bucking. A sharp ache ran through him at the sudden movement but it was quickly replaced as pleasure raced through his . He was soon shivering and whimpering uselessly as Kris expertly worked him to a . With a moan he came in his partner’s hand and then sank, shivering against the pillows.

There was a soft, tickling sensation around his abdomen and he glanced down to see Kris carefully cleaning him up before doing the same to himself. Chen just lay there, sweaty and exhausted.

Ever so tenderly, when he was done, Kris collected him into his arms and helped him under the covers. He was very aware of all sorts of strange parts of his body now and it made his toes curl at the oddness of it all. It wasn’t a bad feeling though. No, it actually made him smile a little shyly.

Kris pulled him softly into his arms and nuzzled against his hair. “Was it ok?” he asked.

Chen smiled and closed his eyes. Ok didn’t really sum it up. It had felt so intimate and strange and wonderful all at once. Yes, it had hurt but not as bad as it could have and it had felt good too. He yawned a little, suddenly exhausted.

“It was perfect,” he mumbled.

Kris squeezed him gently, scared to hurt him but unable to stop himself. He kissed his lover’s cheek and then settled down beside him, ready to sleep forever so long as he could keep Chen with him like this.