It's been a week since we signed up for Searching for a Shooting Star, and nothing has happened yet. When I say that I mean like no Eunjung, no Youngah. Overall no drama. I thought that, that would make me relax - but it hasn't, if anything I've been even more jumpy. It feels like they're plotting something against me. And since I haven't been at school, I won't have a clue what it could be. Though I'm probably just being paranoid. Yeah, paranoid. 

Speaking of school... we have to go back on Monday. Missing a whole week of school, with no reason, isn't exactly an acceptable thing. Now being paranoid about that is okay for me to do. Who knows what can happen? By now Youngah and Eunjung have spread even more rumors about me. Sometimes I just don't get how some of those rumors are even thought to be true. Like if people think I'm ugly, then why would I be able to seduce Wooyoung? Sigh. People just... I don't even know.

I basically have two days to prepare for the worst. 

Oh joy. 

After all of this - the drama, the rumors, the bullying - I can't help but think... What would I be doing if I hadn't met Wooyoung? I bet my life would be different. Different to the point where it's unimaginable. Okay, maybe I can imagine what my life would be like, but what I can't is life without him. Without him, I've felt that before. I remember when he left, and I didn't go after him. And I can't forget that time when he went missing for a little bit. Right now, thinking of those times, I remember feeling so scared. Scared of losing him, never being able to see him again. He's become part of my life, a big part. And now that I know I have feelings for him... if he were to disappear again... 

I don't think I would be able to handle it. 

No. 

I wouldn't be able to handle it. 

And that just makes things so much scarier. 

Ugh. Why did I have to fall for him? I mean yeah, he can sing and dance. And he has a smile that makes my heart skip a beat. And when he laughs I can't help but laugh with him. And sure he can be so adorable at times - his pout makes me want to squeal! 

Okay Jieun. Way off topic. Wait. What was the topic? 

"Jieun?" 

"Huh?" 

Wooyoung exhales a soft laugh. "You weren't listening were you," my face reddens, I didn't even know he was here! Isn't he suppose to be out buying milk? I nod slightly, still embarrassed. "Well I said, that we should go together." 

"Oh okay, let's go." 

I tap Wooyoung's shoulder. "I'm going to go to the restroom real quick." 

With a small smile, he nods. "Alright, I'll be in line paying for the milk." I flash him my own smile and head off. We've been at the store for about an hour, and we're only buying milk. We (I) kind of got distracted by the free samples and sweets.

I go into the third stall and do my business. There are three other girls in the restroom when I step out of the stall. I bite my lip and lower my head, they're from school. Hopefully they won't notice me. As quietly as I can I walk to the sink and start to wash my hands. The girls continue their conversation as if I'm not here, which is completely fine with me. I take once last glance at the three before I head out. I let out a sigh of relief. 

Wooyoung greets me with a smile. "Let's go?" I nod. 

We're five minutes into the walk home, and I just now noticed that he is carrying two bags. "Do you buy more than just milk?" 

He looks at me with a sheepish smile. "Yeah, popcorn and some chips." I raise my eyebrows, why buy those things? "I was thinking that we should have a movie night." 

Well I wasn't expecting that. I blink. "A movie night?" I repeat. He nods. "Why?"

"We have to go back to school on Monday, so we might as well make our little break fun right?" I letout a small laugh at his words. "I'm taking that as a yes." he grins at me. Sometimes he just so childish (but it's cute). 

The rest of the walk home is quiet, not silent, because of the occasional car, or awkward, just quiet. A nice comfortable quietness. Even though I love his voice, I like how it is right now, walking side by side. It just feels so nice, I smile. I especially like that his hand is interlocked with mine, it was kind of cold. 

Wait what? 

I look down down at our interlocked hands, then look at up at Wooyoung for some explanation. He smiles, "My hand was getting cold." I blink, feeling my cheeks flush a bit. This boy... 

Monday. 

I've been dreading this day. I already have a bad feeling and the day hasn't even started yet. Sigh. Hopefully I really am just being paranoid (though I really doubt it). I follow Wooyoung, the space between us is mere inches. It hasn't even been five minutes since we got here, but already we have gotten all kinds of faces. Most thrown towards me. "I still can't believe she is IU, she must use auto tune." I cringe. Though in a way it is a compliment, it's an insult. I bite the inside of my cheek. Wooyoung still has yet to say a word, though with that frown on his face, I hope he doesn't. 

The atmosphere in homeroom is... awkward, to say the least. The moment we walked in everyone stopped their conversations. Oh please say that there aren't new rumors about me. I take a quick glance at my classmates, my eyes stop at a certain person. 

You have got to be kidding me right now. 

"So you have finally decided to come back to school," she clicked her tongue, shaking her head. "You're still as ugly as I remember you." 

Wooyoung clenches his fist. "That's a bit harsh don't you think." his voice is an octave lower than usual. 

"Of course not, her personality is ugly." she frowns; she always was a good actress. "In the week you were gone, I've been telling everyone how you attacked me at our old school," my breath halts. As if I wasn't hated enough. "How you were my best friend, but got jealous because I was more popular than you." I clench my fist. I want to scream at her so much. "We were so close Jieun... even now I can't believe the monster you've become." oh great, here are the tears. "And knowing that you still hurt people-" 

For once, I found myself able to speak. After all these years, I finally find myself able to speak. "What are you talking about Youngah?" I take a step forward. 

She flashes me a smirk, like she did all those years ago. "You hit Eunjung, that's why she quit her job at your cafe." she starts to cry. "I thought you changed." 

That lying- "Jieun would never do that!" I glance at Wooyoung, he's angry again... "And you're all dumb for believing her! How can you just accept the lies that she and Eunjung are feeding you!" 

The room goes silent. And not in the way that I thought it would. Wooyoung always had a way with the other studens, even after he started hanging out with me, their were still people who loved him. But right now...

"Oh Jang Wooyoung," Youngah shakes her head. "I both pity you and dislike you." the rest of the students murmur in agreement. This is not good at all. Where in the world is our homeroom teacher? Then again, it's not like he would do anything. "Don't you see, you're the one eating lies." if looks could kill, Wooyoung would be a murderer. "Don't you see that she's been lying to you this whole time, think about it, really."

What kind of sick plan is this? The way their stories about me and him are always changing, it's just unrealistic. Sometimes I feel like popularity clouds people's minds too much. It's like they're trying to get Wooyoung against me... 

"I don't know what Eunjung has told you, but I know who Jieun is. And she is not a liar." even though this isn't really a good time, my heart flutters at his statement. 

"Do you?" and there is Eunjung's grand entrance. And of course, she's crying. I would have groaned if I could. "Do you really know Jieun?" 

And for the first time, I see him hesitate; that really hurts. "W-Wooyoung?" 

He turns his head to look at me, I don't know what his eyes are saying, but I know it's not something I like. "Jieun-"

"Hey you kids, sit down now!" 

He hesitated. I sit down in my seat, not daring to look at him. Does he not think he knows me well enough? After all we have been through? Swallowing, I turn to him, maybe he will explain himself. 

He looks at me, regret flashes in his eyes... and he turns away. 

Regret. He looked at me in regret. 

Does he regret being my friend? 

school started today #freshman lol OTL 

um so this is their "back to school? get it? ahaha
because you know, they went back to school, 
and I went back to school. 

Well yeah here you go! 

I honestly don't know when I'll update again lkjfklj

High school sure is something... 

Well I'll try my best! 

Until next time.
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stay in school lol