(Author's note: The last chapter. Huhu. >_<)

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Chapter 55: Way Back Home

Now, I’m here again at Simply KPOP to sing my final song and say goodbye to this show. It’s my last performance here.

“Are you really sure with this Rhianne?” JB asked me.

“Trust me. Things will be better if I leave.” I said.

“Will you come back?” he asked.

“I will. I promise.” I said.

“Rhianne, JB, you’ll now be on stage.” the staff said.

I smiled at the staff and smiled at JB too. “Let’s go.”

JB and I went on stage and I can see fans’ reactions. They were expecting that Mark will be the one singing with me today but it isn’t him. It’s JB.

*flashback*

“I want to take a 5-month leave.” I told JYP.

JYP looked at me so surprised.

“Why? Why all of a sudden? Is there something wrong on how I handle your schedules?” JYP said.

I shook my head.

“Then why?” he asked.

“I’m going to search for something that was lost.” I said.

Then tears started to form in my eyes.

“Did something happen between you and Mark?” he asked.

I smiled at him, “I need time to be with myself and with my family.”

“Rhianne, you’re not answering my question. What happened with you and Mark? Maybe we can talk about it first before deciding.” he said.

JYP immediately stood up and hugged me. He was comforting me now.

“Tell me Rhianne, what happened?” he asked. “You’re not yet even having your one year after your debut and you’re going to take a leave?”

“I’ll come back on my one year debut, with a new me, with a whole me.” I said.

Then JYP sat down again. I can see in his face that he is very much irritated. JYP was about to say something but I immediately talked.

“I’m sick and I don’t know until when I’ll be living on this earth.” I said.

“What?” he said.

“It’s true JYP-ssi.” Kahi unnie suddenly entered the office. “Rhianne is sick. She has HCM.”

JYP looked at me. “HCM? You mean the heart disease? When? How? Why?”

“It runs in the family.” Kahi unnie said. “And too bad she was the one who have it.”

“How did you know about this Kahi? Why didn’t you tell me?” JYP said.

“Because it will only be painful for her.” Kahi unnie said. “Give her a break JYP-ssi.”

“Sigh.” JYP said. “Do you have a doctor there that will surely make you feel better?”

“I have a doctor there.” I said.

“We’ll talk about it.” JYP said.

*end of flashback*

Before singing, I decided to say something first.

“To all my fans, thank you for supporting me, 15&, SIMPLY KPOP, and as well as JYP. I’m sorry that I have to leave this show, Simply KPOP, for now. I’ll come back here I promise. I’ll just be busy with some other things and I’ll promise you that you’ll like it. Again, I hope you’ll listen to this last song.”

Then the music started.

(Play Gotta Go My Own Way)

I gotta say what's on my mind

Something about us

Doesn't seem right these days

Mark entered my mind. The lyrics of this song are what I really wanted to say.

Life keeps getting in the way

Whenever we try, somehow the plan

Is always rearranged

It's so hard to say

But I've gotta do what's best for me

You'll be okay

I've got to move on and be who I am

I just don't belong here, I hope you understand

We might find our place in this world someday

But at least for now, I gotta go my own way

Don't wanna leave it all behind

My friends, Jinyoung, Jimin, Yerin, Onii-chan, GOT7…JB, I don’t want to leave all of you. My fans, I don’t want to leave. I want to stay. But it will be so hard for me to stay, not with this situation, not with this condition.

But I get my hopes up

And I watch them fall every time

Another color turns to grey

And it's just too hard to watch it all

Slowly fade away

I'm leaving today

'Cause I gotta do what's best for me

You'll be okay

I've got to move on and be who I am

I just don't belong here, I hope you understand

We might find our place in this world someday

But at least for now, I gotta go my way

JB: What about us?

What about everything we've been through?

Me: What about trust?

JB:You know I never wanted to hurt you

Me:And what about me?

JB: What am I supposed to do?

Me: I gotta leave but I'll miss you

The moment JB sang, I hugged him and I started crying. But I still have to sing.

So, I've got to move on and be who I am

(Why do you have to go?)

I just don't belong here, I hope you understand

(I'm trying to understand)

We might find a place in this world someday

But at least for now

(I want you to stay)

I wanna go my own way

I've got to move on and be who I am

(What about us?)

I just don't belong here, I hope you understand

(I'm trying to understand)

We might find our place in this world someday

But at least for now, I gotta go my own way

I gotta go my own way

I gotta go my own way

What about us Mark? What about everything we’ve been through? I gotta leave because I have to go my own way.

“I’m sorry for ruining the song everyone. It’s just that, I’m so in to the song.” I said then I bowed down and went backstage. JB immediately followed me.

“Are you sure you’re going to be fine?” JB asked.

“I’m going to be fine.” I said as I wipe my tears and packed my things. I’ll be going straight to the airport.

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Airport

I immediately covered my eyes with sunglasses, plus I’m wearing something that people won’t be able to recognize me. I don’t want them to see me go. I don’t want to create an issue. I’m tired of it.

“You’ll come back Rhianne.” JYP said.

“Of course I will. I just need some time and space.” I said. “I’ll be healthy the moment I come back.”

“JYPE will always be open for you Rhianne.” JYP said.

“I know.” I said.

“Oh