Chapter 54: The Answer

“Let’s break up.” he said.

You know you’re hurt when your heart has a sudden stop and there’s a sudden shortness in breathe and you can feel it in your lungs. Most of all, your eyes fill with tears and you ask ‘why?’

My hands are trembling. I want to slap Mark but I can’t. I want to face Mark but I can’t. My body won’t listen to me. I’m frozen.

“We’ve been like this always. We fight then we make up. I’m tired of it Rhianne.” he said.

But still I didn’t answer.

“Let’s give each other some space to think about it.” he added.

I didn’t answer or any. I still stopped right on that position. Just because of a simple fight, he’s going to break up with me? Where’s that FOREVER AND ALWAYS? BECAUSE HE HATED ONE ATTITUDE, HE’S GOING TO BREAK UP WITH ME. MARK DIDN’T LOVE ME, RIGHT? HE JUST WANTED TO BE WITH SOMEONE SO HE ASKED ME TO BE HIS GIRLFRIEND. HE DIDN’T LOVE ME.

I wiped my tears. “For the last time, I’m asking you. Watch my performance on Simply KPOP. That’s going to be my reply with what you said right now.”

I started walking again and paused.

“By the way, thank you for the birthday gift. It’s the best gift I ever received.”

And I went out of the backstage and started walking to the dorms.

I thought we’re going to be strong Mark? I thought we’re going to be strong. But why are we like this? Why is this happening? Why are we breaking up?

Is it my entire fault? Am I the only one being selfish here? Is it wrong to be mad and be hurt?

I can’t feel my legs. It’s like I’m going to collapse. I can’t see anything. My eyes are covered with tears. Tell me this is just a dream. It’s not real, right? It’s not real? Rhianne, this is just a dream. Slap yourself! Wake up!

No, it’s real.

“Rhianne!”

It’s JB. I know it’s him. He’s the only one concerned. My legs collapse. I can’t walk anymore. I don’t feel anything.

“What happened, Rhianne? I’ll bring you to the hospital.” he said.

I held JB. “JB, tell me. Who should be blamed if a leaf falls from a tree? Is it the tree that let it fall or the leaf who got tired of holding?”

“What are you saying Rhianne?” JB said.

I stood up and started walking again.

“Rhianne, what happened?”

Today is one of those days when I wish I was a little girl and could climb into my mother’s lap and cry until the hurt goes away.

“Rhianne.” JB said.

“I’m tired JB. I wanted to take a rest.” I said as I entered the dorm.

Then Jimin and Yerin immediately approached me.

“How was your… What happened to you unnie? Why are you wet?” Yerin asked.

I didn’t answer them and I continue walking to my room. I immediately closed it and locked it. Then they were knocking.

“Unnie! What is happening to you? Unnie!”

I started crying again. I’m mad at myself. I’m so mad at myself.

“Waaaaahh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

All those gifts, I started to throw them away. I don’t need them. They won’t comfort me

“Unnie! What is happening?” they said as they were still knocking the door.

Why Mark? Why?

Dugdug. Dugdug.

My heart.

My hands are trembling. Where is my inhaler? I can’t breathe.

Breathe in, breathe out.

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JB’s POV

What is happening with Rhianne? Did something happen between her and Mark? I have to confront Mark.

Suddenly, I saw Mark going out of the backstage. He was like a zombie. He doesn’t care about anything around him. He’s just walking.

“Mark!” I shouted.

He just continue walking, ignoring me.

“I’m talking to you!” I said and I punched him.

But he just sat down. He didn’t fight.

“What happened?” I asked.

Mark just smiled. “She’s yours.” then he stared at me.

I can see in Mark’s eyes that he is also hurt. What happened?

Mark continued walking.

“Hyung!” Youngjae said. “Wendy noona is still waiting for you outside.”

Mark just smiled at Youngjae and continued walking. Then Youngjae approached me. “What happened hyung?”

“I don’t know too.”

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Mark’s POV

Did I just say that? Did I ask her to break up with me?

“Mark.” Wendy said. “Are you alright? What happened? I’ll talk to Rhianne.”

“Go home Wendy.” I said.

“What happened?” she asked.

“JUST GO HOME!” I shouted.

“So that’s your answer? Huh. I don’t understand you.” she said as she ran away.

I made another girl ran away.

Rhianne, she’s everything to me. I can’t live without her but I guess this is the answer to my question. I should choose… no. But I have chosen her instead of Rhianne. No, this is wrong.

I immediately ran to 15&’s dorm and knocked.

“Rhianne! Rhianne!” I said.

Yerin opened the door. “Where’s Rhianne?”

“Go out.” Yerin said.

But I continued entering their dorm and knocked at Rhianne’s room. “Rhianne! Rhianne!”

Then I felt someone held my hand then slapped me. “That’s for making Rhianne unnie cry.”

Then Yerin slapped me again. “That’s for leaving her in the rain.”

Then she slapped me again, “And that’s for knowing nothing! Now get out!”

“Yerin, calm down.” Jimin said.

They’re all mad at me. I immediately went to my room.

“What happened, Mark?” Jackson asked.

“I’m not on the mood Jackson. I’m sorry.” I said.

I cover my face with the pillow. I can’t show them I’m crying. No. I chose this. I need to bear with this. I’m sorry Rhianne, but it is I guess the best for us.

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SIMPLY KPOP

Rhianne’s POV

It’s been days since my birthday after Mark told me to break up with him. Right now, I have finally decided. I went out of the room and saw Mark outside their room.

“Rhianne,” he said.

I smiled at him, “Listen to the song I’m going to sing. It’s my answer.”

“Rhianne, let’s talk first.” he said as he grabbed my hand.

“Enough with the talking Mark, the damage has been done.” I said.

I removed my hands from him and I went to the studio.

At the studio, JB was there.

“Are you sure with it Rhianne?” JB asked.

“I’m just kind enough to give him what he wants. He wanted space? I’ll give him space.” I said.

Then I entered the stage.

(Author’s note: This is one of my favorite songs and it breaks my heart. This song is entitled, “Let Me Be The One” by Jimmy Bondoc)

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