small amount of rate--ness bc of words yea
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I can't remember what happened afterwards but as I woke up I knew that this wasn't what I called my home.

I was lying in this huge bed, covered up to my collarbones, my hands lying on top of the blanket. My eyes wander up and down my covered body. I feel cold. Where is my bra though?

I slowly lift the blanket and 

"...god damnit im -" I whisper as I notice the snorting sound next to me.

I slowly roll to the side and stand up.

As I turn around I notice that this is obviously Chanyeol's and my apartment and this is obviously..Chanyeol's room.

We did it. Geez.

I walked around the room, slowly and silent, as I grabbed my clothes from the floor and disappeared in our bathroom.

Thinking about nothing but the night and trying to get all the small puzzle pieces together to remember the entire night as one is all I do while I step into the shower.

Showers have this special kind of magic trick that gets humans to remember stuff.

"Wasn' Lee Hi together with Chanyeol?" I suddenly remember as the hot water runs down my torso.

'I never stopped loving you' echos in my mind over and over again

He loved lee hi didn't he? He was in a relationship with her why...why would he say something like that.

While preparing some cereals I keep thinking and thinking.

Did he just use me for ? Just a toy? Lovely words to get me into his room? Or closer his bed? Too much alcohol?

Together with my freshly made bowl of cereals I walk into the living room.

Toy. 

Great.

Take the broken hearted lady and do it with her.

A crack sound out of his room and I startle.

The sound of his door opening and I want to run away, but I cant risque to drop my cereals.

I dont even dare to turn on the sofa and peek to the door. Just stay here where you are and act like everything is perfectly fine.

"Good morning sunshine" his morning voice greets me as he starts to massage my shoulders from behind.

I dont look up but I can feel myself shaking.

And I wont answer.

I take another spoon of cereals instead

"Hey are you okay?" he asks and stops just to walk in front of me and block my view on the small tv.

His bare chest attracts my attention. Nothing but boxers. NOTHING BUT BOXERS I REPEAT.

I cough. Almost choke on my breakfast meal. He laughs. Of cours he would do that

"Not okay anymore?" he smirks. and slowly walks up to me

"stay away" I answer

"Huh"

"After I finished this I will move out again so you can live with Hayi"

"Wait..."

"Yes don't worry this never happened i will never tell anything to her dont worry-"

"We broke up some time ago" he suddenly says

"Oh"

"Yes we broke up. Because I still loved you. All the time I loved you and then Kyungsoo left and I got my chance. Finally."

"oh"

He bends down and gets on my eyelevel, on his knees.

He takes the bowl out of my hands and places it on the table

"I loved this evening, I loved this night, I love you. Please do me a favor and don't give me a no now. Please be mine for a while" he begs as he holds my hand.

My eyes wander between his big puppy eyes and his bare chest and his boxers.

"I-"

"Please"

"I would love too but-"

"Kyungsoo?"

"Yea..."

Chanyeol rolls his eyes and stands up.

He places both hands on his neck and walks to the window

"Of course Kyungsoo" he mutters

"Chanyeol-"

"I will go and get myself breakfast. Think about it. It means a lot to me."

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