Since Chanyeol wasn't at home that night, I drove to the hosptal right after, hopeing the doctors fromthe hospital also contacted him or else..he would be a little bit worried later to find an empty bed. 

I don't know how fast I actually drove but all I knew was that suddenly 2 blue lights appeared behind me. Without even thinking about stopping the car I drove even faster. The blue lights fastend up and drove even next to me, motioning me to roll down my window. I gave them a teary eyed look and kept driving. I was in some kind of drunken-drug-state, not knowing what was happening around me. Actually in such a state somebody had to stop me before something would happen.

The next traffic light came and of course it turned red. My consciousness came back in just a second and in the next second I stepped with both my feet on the brake. Full brake application. I stopped - luckily - right in front of the stop sign and so the police behind me. I started to cry hard, punched the wheel.
One of the police men behind me stepped out of the car in the next moment the light turned green and without lookign back I drove away.

I reached the hospital with red teary frog eyes and ran inside. Right in front of the information I stopped.

"Z-Zhang please"

"Excuse me Mss but the visitor times ended 3 hours ago, you can't go inside now"

"Are you kidding me? You guys called me like 20 miinutes ago and I immedially made my way to this damn place"

"eh who exactly called you?"

"Dr Kim of course. He told me that-"

"We don't employ a Dr Kim" the nurse said and frowned a little.

"W-what"

"Yes, you heard me we don't employ a Dr Kim, only Dr Park & Jeon."

"But Mr Zhang woke up from the coma?"

The nurse stepped aside to look in her documents

"No"

"What do you mean, "No""

"We told you, we don't employ a Mr Kim and so Mr Zhang couldn't have woken up yet. But to calm you down, I will look for him"

"Thank you"

She walks off, disappears in room 205 - Lay's current room. Moments later she comes back, shaking her head.

"He is still in coma, his status is good, nothing has changed"

"u-uhm...b-ut.."

"It's almost 2am, you should drive home now" she says and walks me to the entrance.

I totter to my car, the only car parking in the lot. Open the driver's door with shaking hands.

The last thing I can remember is my way to the car. I was shaking, tottering to it. Everything hurts, especially my waist. I lift my arm, push myself from the lot ground. The cement floor is extremly cold. My elbow hurts a lot as well. My legs are in mermaid position as I push myself up to sit up.

I collapsed in front of my car last night.

"shot...." I whisper as I rub my elbow, which got some scratches and bleeded a little bit.

I push myself off the floor, grab on the doorknob to support everything. As I'm finally standing: sractches on my elbows, knees, legs and even my face. I must have fallen hard last night.
I open the driver's door and sit down, turn the engine on and drive off.

It's 7am now. The fact that nobody has noticed me yet is astaunding. I mean it's a hospital, someone would notice a lifeless body next to a car right??

My target right now: YG building.

I park right in front of it, fans greet me as they pass my way, they're about to go to school. I smile, send them a "figting" and walk inside the building just to get my teary eyed sad face back. Whenever I pass a staff member I try hard to smile, greet them. 

"Hey Dani, sorry I couldn't make it-" Chanyeol.

I hug him, cry again, show him my scratches, tell him what happened and all he says

"You hallucinated last night. Dr Kim hasn't called you must have imagined that. And Dr Kim in general was Jongin for you"

I nod as I notice that Dr Kim's voice and Kai's voice sounded the same as I remember how he sometimes stuttered, that low tone.

Chanyeol walks me to the cafeteria where he places a tea and a coffee for himself in the table and sits down across from me.

"You need to sleep more"

"But I can't?"

"I know this might sound crazy but what  if we debut with just a single and the MV we already shooted and you go on a vacation. How about visiting your family in australia?"

"no."

"But-"

"We prepared so long for this and just because of this insomnia you want to delay everything?"

"I don't want to delay it! I just want to---give you a time to rest, time for yourself"

"But I don't need that. We're idols no matter what we have to smile, and I practiced that for already 10 years, so I know what to do on stage and on fanmeetings."

"B-But"

"We can. Together with can do thats. Remember..."We are one"? No matter if Kai died now...life goes on."
Yes now I'm 100% back to consciousness.

"Yeah you're right..." Chanyeol whispers and takes a sip of his coffee.

"So let's do this!" I say and for the first time a real smile appears on my face

"Remember...don't forget the funeral tomorrow" Chanyeol says in the vocal room as we practice the song.

"Yeah...."

The door opens as Chanyeol practices his rap. He suddenly stutters and stops. 

"Why did you stop-" I turn on my seat

"Kyungsoo...?"

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Second update yays WHERE ARE MY COMMENTS HUH?