Jimin was hurting

She was hurting because of the defeated look on Jay's face after she shut the door. She never wanted to hurt anyone

She's realizing things about her and Jay, about her and Jaehee.

She has never forgotten how Jaehee planted a soft kiss on the side of her lips. Wondering what does it mean? What does it say? She's being paranoid.

"But what about Jay? What if Jaygave up on me? What if Jay pushed through with the breakup?" These are the thoughts that have been bothering her.

What if... So many what-ifs. Till she just cried herself to sleep.

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After I felt my feet go numb, I just slumped on the ground with my head on a bench, pitying myself.

"Jaehee..."

I didn't need to look up to see who was speaking in a hushed tone and trying to gather me up and help me sit on the bench.

I texted Yoon to fetch me from my miserable state right now.

"Yah, get the up because someone will notice that you're a member from Weeekly. C'mon! Up!"

"Yoon..." I answered, letting out small sobs.

I slowly stood up and came face to face with Yoon. The truth is I'm still shy to her. I was aware that Yoon was in the middle of a house party when I called her.

I was also aware that Yoon would be willing to drop anything or everything if I need her. That's how great of a friend 04 people had. Even though I'm always ditching her if she's inviting me to hang out or at least have dinner with her members. She's always been the same friend as me.

"Yoon... Sorry." I said biting my lips to control the sobbing.

"Yah, what are you saying? Sorry? Sorry for what? What happened?"

"Jimin unnie...." I blurted out, trying to catch big gulps of air.

I saw Jayoon looked at me with wide knowing eyes. She knew how badly and madly in love I am with the girl in question.

She was the first to know when I finally admitted to myself how totally bonkers I am for the tall woman.

"I'm listening Jaehee."

I didn't even notice that I was zoning out of my hoobae again.

"Yoon, I kissed her..." I said without any expression whatsoever.

"Wow. Good for you. But why does it look like your damsel in distress?"

"Yeah, I should be happy about it, right? But I heard. I heard her tell Jay-ssi how she only sees me as a friend." My voice started cracking up

"What?! Seriously?!" Yoon said a little too loudly.

"She said that there will never be anyone but him.." Fresh tears started falling, "I heard everything. Word by word, nuance by nuance and it hurt too damn much."

"Jaehee, you know that you've always known that Jimin sunbaenim doesn't belong to you? She was never yours Jaehee. So why? Why are you like that? I thought you're strong?" She said a little too softly now.

"I know. I know. But she keeps on sending me mixed signals that she's somehow jealous, then when I kissed her, she didn't get mad at me. And that's where I lost it. I hoped for something, anything that would make me feel like she also feels the same. Turns out I'm a ing moron for believing myself."

"Jaehee." She went on, "Remember the day I told you to just straight up tell her the truth about your feelings for her before you will go to the friendzone? Remember what you told me when you really went to the best friend zone and she and Jay-ssi became together? You said, 'Yoon, I know what I'm doing, If suiting up as her best friend is the only way to keep close to me..' Then I'll suit up right now,, without skipping a heartbeat." She finished talking.

"I know what I said, Yoon. It's just, actually hearing her say out loud how she only sees me as a friend. It broke me."

Jayoon was at loss. She seemed to be bereft of words.

"It's either I'm smart or stupid. Yoon, am I stupid? Am I dumb? Am I ugly Why can't Jimin unnie see me for more than just her best friend?" I asked with pleading eyes wanting to know what's wrong with me.

"Jaehee, you know that you're stupid and if anyone sees you now, they will see you as an ugly person. You look like an actual melted Jelly. Look at you, so ugly. I don't even want to touch you. Wipe your tears." She tried to lighten up the mood.

"Come on Jaehee, you're a human magnet. Whether a girl or a guy wants to be with you, heck even Kang Taehyun sunbaenim wants to get your number. Then now? You're going to give up just because of a girl? The world is full of guys and girls Jaehee. Ewwwww I'm disappointed in you!"

'Stop. Can't you see I'm being emotional here? And now you're making me feel so down. Haha."

"At least I was able to force a smile out of your fugly face. Haha"

"Excuse me, did you just call me 'Fugly'? As in ing Ugly?"

Jayoon enveloping me in a hug, "Shut up. Don't cry because of her. Promise me you'll try to be okay."

"I'm trying Yoon..." I said still wrapped into Jayoon's warm embrace.

"Try harder this time." She said and she pulled me up from where we're seated, "Let's go."

"Where?"

"TO YOUR DORM."

"What? NO! I don't want to. I can't stay there. Yoon, can I just sleep at your dorm? I'll just go home tomorrow." I protest, just wanting to sleep in StayC's dorm.

"Stupid. Fix yourself. Change your clothes!"

"What?"

"I'll teach you how to hunt."

"Hunt? What are you saying?"

I just gave her a puzzled look because I can't even understand her.

"Girls... or boys whichever you prefer Jaehee. More likely just give your number to Taehyun sunbae. Didn't you said that you like TXT?"

"Are you crazy? What are you even saying? Haha"

"Jaehee, do you remember those moments that every single girl that I liked, liked you? But you're turning them down because you said you're not sure if you're gay? Where is that girl that got every girls and guys to fall to her feet? Because I envy her, she was ing awesome!"

"Haha. Long gone, eonnie. Can you just stop?"

"Jae, you've taken too many hits from her. It's your turn now to have a little cry then have a ing fun."

Then I realize may