“You approach me quietly as the night falls,

Removing the darkness to wake me from my sleep,

and leaving me through the open window…….”

 

(“Moonlight”- EXO-K)

 

 

 

Everything seems to be going back on the right track now. Wendy thinks.

 

 

Irene is taking a good rest.

 

Sooyoung is recovering slowly but steadily.

 

Taeyeon and Jessica are on a vacation at Budapest.

 

Sera and Hyuna are doing fine.

 

 

It’s just that Seulgi and Chorong’s deal is left unsettled.

 

 

 

Wendy can’t help but to worry a bit for those two.

 

 

Still, she has to worry about herself first.

 

 

 

According to Sera and Taeyeon, Wendy is capable of doing most tasks on the world, simply saying, she could be a good mother and a good dad at the same damn time.

 

But there’s one and only one that she all time - to reject.

 

 

You can’t blame her since we all love her for her warm heart, while that’s the exactly same reason she could never say no.

 

 

 

As a popular singer-songwriter, the Canadian girl attracts a lot of boys and girls. 

 

Artists, producers, stylists, designers, random staff, and more.

 

 

 

That’s one…. Or two, that particularly worries Irene Bae the national goddess.

 

 

 

Kang Seungyoon is a talented young boy that is kind, has a nice sense of humor and plays guitar well.

 

Bae Suzy is another goddess who sings and dances fairly great, also has a nice figure.

 

 

 

It’s true that Irene is more alerted towards the one sharing the same surname as her, maybe it’s because she got to know her girlfriend earlier than herself.

 

 

Although Irene is desperate to dig out their history, she can’t just ask the snowman nor her friends since she has to show her trust.

 

She wants to let Wendy know that she trusts her, ever since that night Wendy opened up more and got drunk.

 

 

 

Irene does trust Wendy, she just doesn’t trust the other one.

 

 

 

 

 

Wendy, on the other hand, is also nervous.

 

She isn’t sure about how her former schoolmate sees her.

 

 

Since she thought she doesn’t quite swing the other way before.

 

Let alone the fact that they were kind of “hostile” as they were like the top 2 singers at their university.

 

 

She understands perfectly why Irene had reacted like that. 

 

 

And she just wants her favorite snapback back.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“Wendy-xi !!”

 

 

“Hello.” Wendy looks up and greets the cheerful DJ. 

 

 

“You looks listless.” Luna opens the door to let her guest in. 

 

 

“Probably ‘cause I’m tired.” Wendy sits across the DJ seat and forces a smile.

 

 

“I can see it from your eyes. You can tell unnie if there’s anything bothering you. ‘Cause you’re my favorite dongsaeng and I’m your fan from the start.” Luna gives the younger girl’s head a gentle pat before settling down.

 

 

“Thanks unnie. Don’t worry, you can start the show on time.” 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“Hi, everyone. Welcome to the Luna’s Radio Date ~~~ So today, finally, we’re having another huge star in our show. It’s also my dream to have her here……. Let’s welcome - Wendy !!!!!!!! Seriously, I’ve been a fan since “The Stargazed” period. Now I can get to see her in person. And let’s introduce yourself, Wendy-xi.” 

 

 

“Hello ! I’m Wendy, previously known as The Stargazed. I’m so grateful that Luna-xi have played my song, “All of The Stars” at its premiere day. And I’m happy to be here too, such a great chance to get closer to the Korean audience.”

 

 

 

“Oh~ So you listen to my show ? Why did you tell me earlier ? Awww….. Anyway, I can’t be so selfish. Now, I will ask some questions so that all of you out there can know Wendy a little better. Are you ready ? Number 1, your songs are wonderful. What is your inspiration for these songs ?” 

 

 

“Thanks…. And, I have to say my ideas come from my own life experience. Also I’m observant and I tend to be sensitive about things happened around me so…… “Afire Love” is for my grandpa though. I sometimes have hard times in composing too.”

 

 

 

“But you always manage to write sweet and romantic songs like “All of The Stars”, “Photograph” and “A Pair of Wings”, is there anyone you’re dedicating to ? ” Luna smirks while posing a questions that almost everyone is dying to know.

 

 

Wendy chuckles, “I’m a romantic freak. I admit that. I have the wildest and weirdest imaginations. These songs are written for not only for someone, but people who may have the same feelings as I do.”

 

 

“So you are saying that there is really “someone”, right ?” Luna carefully asks, even she is surprised that Wendy has given such hint.

 

 

 

“You can say so.” Wendy coolly replies. 

 

She wants to reassure her insecure Daegu cabbage.

 

 

 

The last time, Irene did not have the choice but to keep silent.

 

For this time, tables has turned and Wendy decides to say what she could.

 

 

 

“Wow…. You’re honest, Wendy-xi. You have someone you like ? Can you give more details about that person ? What kind of person do you like actually ?” Luna is excited.

 

 

“It is someone who takes care of me well. I don’t necessarily mean in a motherly way, I can take care of myself but…..” Wendy pauses for a laugh, “But, mentally…. I am relaxed and very comfortable when we are together. Everything goes naturally and I enjoy every second of it. And yeah, that’s it.”

 

 

 

“There are seldom artists who talk about their relationships. It’s more than enough, Wendy-xi. And I sincerely hope things go well for you. And now….. Next question, since you are new to the industry here in Korea, are there any artists you want to get close with ? Or you are already close with ?” 

 

 

“Hmm……” Wendy taps her pen on the desk while thinking. “As I have mentioned, I have lived here for some years and I listen to K-pop too. But I am still not that close with anyone but I do want to befriend with those who can dance. ‘Cause I cannot so……” 

 

 

 

Wendy tries hard not to lie and she ends up chuckling in embarrassment, as she is thinking of the graceful dancing figure of a Daegu cabbage.

 

She just hopes Luna did not spot her red ears.

 

 

 

“Oh you can’t dance ? I’m sure there’re many who are willing to teach you.” Luna luckily is busy looking at the monitor and carries on, “Too bad you’re kind of not available anymore. Well, there are a bunch of question incoming. Would you like to answer them, Wendy-xi ?”

 

 

“Of course.”

 

 

 

“So…. It’s from the audience 94BSY143. You and Suzy are former-schoolmates, right ? Are you two friends or enemies ? Do you guys still keep in touch ? Along with the new national goddess line, who do you think is the prettiest ? IU, Suzy, Irene, Shin Sekyung or Park Boyoung?”

 

 

“That’s a lot of questions there…..haha…..” Wendy continues her embarrassed laugh. “First thing first, yes. We used to attend the same university. My major was actually Contemporary Arts, while she was in the Music Department. We’ve known each other but not that close. I’m sure we are friendly to each other though. Lately, we met in a music show and chatted a bit. It’s quite nice to see a familiar face.”

 

 

 

“So you studied Contemporary Arts instead of music ? You left me in awe again. Wait…. You have one question left. Come on ~~” Luna turns back to her nervous guest with a smile.

 

 

“I don’t know much about the line-up so……. ” Wendy grins. 

 

Lies, Shon Seunghwan. You walking derp, the answer is clear but you cannot just scream it out. But she is shouting to herself internally while her face is blank. 

 

“Can I choose Jeon Jihyeon sonbaenim ?”

 

Lame. Such a letdown. Anticlimax. You should have said “why can’t I choose who is the handsomest male actors”…….  No, because people will reply - because your gay vibe is too strong. 

 

 

 

“I guess you can…… I’m sure that you will get to know them more as times goes by. So next……” Luna finally takes notice of the unusual hyped tone and stiff smile. But she thinks it’s better not to ask now.

 

She continues, “From Simon_3983 - I’m your big fan and could you please collaborate with other Korean artists ? We are all looking forward to see you singing in Korean or trying kpop music. Wendy-xi, are you interested ?”

 

 

 

“It sounds fun.” Wendy lifts a genuine smile. “I don’t know if I can do it or I’m willing to give it a try. So fellas, please contact me if you wanna sing with me ~~~hahaha”

 

 

“Wow, Wendy-xi is so cool~~~ So Let’s take a break after hearing a song recommended by Wendy………….”

 

 

 

 

 

 

Luna carefully approaches the exhausted Olaf after the radio show ends.

 

 

“Wendy-xi, are you okay ? Your face looks …pale.”

 

 

“Oh, I think I’m just lacking sleep. Don’t worry.” The Canadian smiles and sticks a thumb up.

 

“So…. It’s not because of your relationship, isn’t it ?”

 

 

 

Wendy’s lips open and close. But words just won’t come up.

 

Luna sighs and pats the younger girl’s shoulder.

 

 

“You can trust unnie here. You can always share your worries with me, okay ?” 

 

 

“Okay. Thanks, unnie.”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Irene has done a lot today while Wendy is not around.

 

 

She visited Sooyoung once and went for a check-up in the hospital.

 

She chatted with Jessica on Skype.

 

She went to the supermarket with a big mask on her face.

 

She took a stroll at the park where she used to go when she was still a trainee.

 

 

A lot of thoughts have piled up in the little head of the Daegu girl.

 

And it seems that she just can’t get them out no matter how many things she has done, trying to divert her attention.

 

 

Maybe it’s just take one person to fix this.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Chorong rushes to the lounge bar after Wendy has dropped her off, where she is supposed to meet up with her “friend” Naeun.

 

 

 

Naeun has found Chorong’s recent attitude absolutely unbearable.

 

And she decided to have a private talk with her.

 

 

 

“I’m sorry, ” Chorong pants as she finds her major crush. “You know, Traffic jam.”

 

“It’s alright.” Naeun frowns and checks her wristwatch. “You’re only 2 minutes late.”

 

 

 

“So why do you wanna meet here ? Why can’t we talk back at the house ?” Chorong actually knows the answer but she has to hear it from the other girl's mouth.

 

“Chorong-ah…. We think we need a talk, you and me. You’re acting weird lately.” Naeun unconsciously pouts.

 

 

 

Chorong manages to remain her poker face seeing the jutted lips, “How ?”

 

 

 

“You’re seeing somebody, don’t you ?”

 

 

“Can’t I ?” Chorong innocently replies.

 

 

Naeun scrutinizes her face and turns her gaze at the bartender, “Who is she ?”

 

 

 

“Actually I was going to the movies with her later. Why don’t I call her here ?” Chorong smirks internally.

 

 

Bingo, here goes the plan. Oh so smoothly. Chorong gives herself a hug mentally.

 

 

“Fair enough.” Naeun answers without budging an inch.

 

 

 

Chorong makes a call and turns back, “I thought you can’t drink.”

 

Naeun traces her fingers along the glass, “I’m an adult. I can drink, I just don’t.”

 

 

 

“Alright. Make sure you won’t get drunk, ‘cause kids will smell booze from their dear Miss Son tomorrow.” Chorong can’t play cool forever and shows her concern.

 

 

“Just one glass.” Naeun laughs drily. “I needed it.”

 

 

 

Silence falls between the two friends.

 

Again, both of them are indeed having chaos in their heads.

 

 

 

Just when Naeun is gulping down the very last drops of the drink, a slender brunette steps into the lounge.

 

 

 

“Oh, you are Chorong-unnie ?” 

 

 

 

“Yep, and you must be Jessica-xi’s sister.” Chorong politely greets the new comer. The sisters literally share a very similar aura and voice.

 

 

“I didn’t expect to see you here. And this is your ….friend ?” Krystal pauses ‘cause she isn’t sure if everyone in Korea she knows have the same orientation as she does.

 

 

“Yeah, it’s Naeun. This is Krystal…. I didn’t expect you either. I thought you are in the States.” 

 

 

Naeun shows a friendly smile.

 

 

“You know, personal reason….” Krystal shyly scratches her nape. “Ah, I am meeting a friend here. Seulgi, do you know her ?”

 

 

 

Chorong freezes on her spot as she hears the name of the vicious bear.

 

The bear is supposed to be arriving, alone.

 

Well, not really the latter part. They didn’t discuss that.

 

 

 

“Oh there she is…..”

 

 

 

Chorong thought her jaw has dropped to the floor when her gazes flew to the entrance again.

 

 

 

Kang Seulgi is not joking at all.

 

No one knows exactly where on earth did she get a hot short one-shoulder black dress, that barely covers her bottom, putting one-side of her collarbone on display, and nails it by looking freaking alluring.

 

Not to mention her thick eyeliners, red lipstick, slick ponytail, steel-toe heels.

 

 

 

Even Krystal, who starts to figure things out, wipes drools with her sleeves.

 

Her 94-line buddy did tell her that she has to do a flavor for her friend tonight.

 

But she didn’t say it’s Chorong.

 

 

 

Seulgi does the little catwalk towards her dear friends and pulls the black-belt chicken feet lover into a tight embrace.

 

 

“Oh I miss you~” 

 

 

Chorong shrinks when she hears the strange high-pitched tone of the bear. 

 

Moreover, she shrinks at picturing a certain giant baby’s reaction seeing this.

 

 

 

She thinks she’s a dead meat for sure when she sees the lipstick mark on her collar after the bear pulls away.

 

 

 

“Argh…. This is Naeun. And this is Seulgi.” Chorong stutters situating between the two girls who are now engaging in a tense staring competition.

 

 

Before Seulgi can strike again, Naeun speaks first.

 

 

“So you are dating her ?” The kindergarten teacher bluntly asks her friend without breaking the eye-contact with the bear.

 

 

Seulgi can feel a sweat feeling down from her neck but it’s not the time to back down, “Technically, maybe.”

 

 

 

Naeun frowns more that her eyebrows nearly touch, “Maybe ? Are you playing her ?”

 

 

 

Krystal reaches out a hand to support Chorong’s elbow that she won’t faint.

 

 

“I don’t know if she is playing me either.” Seulgi plays with her ponytail. “She calls me out whenever she likes. And now, I don’t know you are indeed Chorong’s girlfriend or not…… Chorong-ah, say something.” She doesn’t forget to finish by throwing a seductive wink to the said girl.

 

 

 

Everyone have eyes can see the fuming Naeun and the panicking Chorong.

 

Also the silent audience Krystal.

 

 

 

The three girl all have their eyes on Chorong, forcing her to speak.

 

 

“I….. I…… She…. We went out for a couple times and….. ” Chorong mutters while her eyes are glued on her lap.

 

 

“I’m not her girlfriend but I demand you not to play with her feelings.” Naeun cuts her off. “If you feel like she’s not serious, I apologize for her since the Park Chorong I know isn’t that type of player. So Chorong, tell me, are you serious about this ?”

 

 

Naeun then finally has her eyes back on her friend, who is so touched by her words that her eyes secretly water.

 

 

Krystal, on the side, can’t stand how slow the progress is and nudges Chorong, signaling her to make a statement.

 

 

 

Chorong closes her eyes and takes a deep breath, “I want a date. And Seulgi is hot. End of story.” 

 

 

Seulgi gets the hint and wraps her arm around Chorong, “Let’s date then.” 

 

 

The two walk out from the bar with Chorong looking back and shouts, “Be safe, Naeun-ah.”

 

 

 

 

Krystal finally knows why she is here - to clean up the mess.

 

 

She sits next to the girl who has just ordered another drink and awkwardly says, “Too much alcohol is bad for your liver.”

 

 

Naeun smiles bitterly, “But it’s good for my heart.”

 

 

 

Krystal, who is as smart as her sister, has the whole story puzzled back now.

 

 

 

“So you like her.” 

 

 

“Do I ?” It's more than asking for agreement than a genuine question.

 

 

 

“A normal friend won’t react like this. You are mad at yourself more than her now, right ?” Krystal casually leans her back at the bar table.

 

 

“How do you know ?” Naeun widens her eyes. “But it doesn’t matter anymore….. I lost before the match even began. It's too late for me to see.”

 

 

“How do you know ?” Krystal mimics. 

 

 

“Look at Seulgi.” Naeun slightly raises her voice. “Who wouldn’t fall for that  ? Those legs… Argh….”

 

 

 

Krystal hides her giggles, “Those who already have someone else in her heart. Like me. Yeah, she’s damn hot but when you are in love with someone, that someone is forever the best.”

 

 

“I am only a friend.” Naeun knows where the brunette is leading to and rebuts.

 

 

“You know her first. She has spent so many years with you. You can WIN HER BACK.”

 

 

“Can I ?” Naeun scans herself and sips on her drink.

 

 

“You ain’t bad. I think Seulgi isn’t that into Chorong…… Have confidence in yourself first. And everything will go as you wish.” Krystal smiles.

 

 

“Thanks….” Naeun also curves her lips into a soft smile. “Should I treat you a drink for your advice ?”

 

 

“I’d love to but no thanks. Someone will flip her if she smells my breath.” Krystal giggles while recalling the face and the nags. “Let’s halt a cab after you finish your drink.”

 

 

 

 

 

 

Naeun walks on the cold dim street alone after she gets off the taxi.

 

The shared house of them is not that far but she feels like taking her time today.

 

 

The summer breeze gently sweeps on her face, keeping her awake.

 

 

She however wants to wake up from this nightmare, since alcohol isn’t working for making her numb.

 

 

She likes a girl.

 

She likes her friend. 

 

She likes her but she is seeing someone else.

 

 

Naeun isn’t a music lover, yet she fishes out her phone and starts booming music on the empty walkway.

 

She isn’t into love songs, yet her fingers automatically selects one for her.

 

 

 

“No matter how much I talk, you can’t hear me.

You’re throwing yourself at that person again,

Why do you dream so dangerously ?

Now stop straining your heart and let it rest.

My heart is shredded into pieces watching you.

 

A place that cannot be reached,

A place that cannot be held,

The reflection on the surface is not her.

It’s my sad story that cannot be fulfilled,

the closer I get, the stronger the pain is.

 

Just her, stop…….

 

I call out to you like this,

Don’t go closer, 

Your wings will get wet.”

 

 

 

Naeun makes sure she have dried her tears before reaching for the door knob.

 

 

She doesn’t want anyone to see her in such pathetic state.

 

Not even her friends, not even Chorong.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Wendy drives her car aimlessly for an hour or so. 

 

And she pulls up at a remote diner.

 

 

 

 

“I don’t plan to stay long so……..” She has the window down and sticks her head out.

 

 

“So will you at least let me in or you come inside ?” Suzy bends down and innocently smiles.

 

 

“Come in.” 

 

 

 

 

“You know, I am risking my life to meet you here. I mean it, my girlfriend is my life.” Wendy folds her arms and mumbles.

 

 

“I heard the radio.” Suzy gazes at the front and answers flatly.

 

 

 

 

“And ?” Wendy turns slightly towards the other girl on the passenger seat.

 

 

“Who is your girlfriend though ? Can you tell me ?” 

 

 

“No. Just like I’ll never ask about your personal life.”

 

 

 

 

“Is she beautiful ?”

 

 

“Yes.”

 

 

“She takes care of you well ?”

 

 

“Yes.”

 

 

“How long have you…. loved her ?”

 

 

“A long long time ago.”

 

 

“Before you met me ?”

 

 

“I don’t know. What I know is, she mended me.”

 

 

 

 

“That’s why you are asking me out tonight ?” Wendy stops the little “interrogation".

 

 

“I just wanted to talk. I am your friend, right ?” Suzy let out a soft chuckle.

 

 

“Alright.” 

 

 

“So I am your friend now ?” 

 

 

“Sure.”

 

 

“Thanks.” Suzy looks at the Canadian and smiles.

 

 

“You’re welcome.” And the Canadian smiles back.

 

 

 

Suzy have talked with Wendy for a little more about their campus life, reminiscing.

 

 

 

And she stands at the night, watching her car disappearing into the darkness.

 

 

She sighs and heads back to the diner.

 

 

She orders herself a glass of whatever booze while random music echoing around the room.

 

 

 

“Have you lost your way again, 

The night air is still cold, get up.

So, hold on, I can’t leave you alone,

I follow you from a distance.

 

You’re showered by a shower of starlight,

I’ve never seen such an entrancing expression.

I see you still like a picture, 

At the end of the gaze……..”

 

 

 

Now she knows.

 

She is in good hands.

 

 

She could remember seeing her alone, at the corner, deep in thoughts.

 

She could tell her was hurt.

 

She wanted to help but she didn’t know what exactly to do.

 

 

A person that has been so hard for her to approach.

 

 

 

“You painfully smile toward me as if nothing has happened,

But your slender white shoulders start trembling, I’m telling you,

You can come rest by me,

When dawn comes, you can fly toward the moon.

 

A place that cannot be touched,

A place we cannot go together.

It’s not you who flew to me when the night fell,

My sad story that cannot be fulfilled,

The closer I get, the stronger the pain is.”

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

“I met Suzy today. Alone. At my car.”

 

 

 

Irene puts down the dishes and hums, “You've told me on the phone. Anything else ?”

 

 

 

“She asked about my girlfriend.”

 

 

“Go on.” Irene pulls down her sleeves.

 

 

 

“I didn’t tell her much. I reassured that me and her are friends.” 

 

 

Wendy looks into Irene’s eyes, trying to get something out from them, since her face is plainly blank.

 

 

 

“She likes you.” Irene states.

 

 

“I know.” 

 

 

“What are you going to do ?”

 

 

“Nothing. I cannot just tell her in her face, that “please don’t like me ‘cause I won’t like you back” ?”

 

 

“Don’t make her fall deeper then.” Irene steps closer and her expression softens.

 

 

 

 

“Roger that……… And how’s your day, Bae Joohyun ?” Wendy cracks a silly smile and hugs her girlfriend.

 

 

“It’s good now.” Irene is happy to inhale the scent she’s been longing the whole day.

 

 

 

They stay in the same position until Irene talks again.

 

 

“You know what…….” She pulls a few inches away and glances at the little derp face, “You should have answered “Irene” on that question.” 

 

 

 

The derp face turns into a long face, “I shouted it in my heart. How am I going to explain if I really do ?”

 

 

“Easy, Olaf…..” Irene giggles. “One day, we don’t have to hide anymore. And you can literally scream on the top of your lungs that Irene is the prettiest for you.”

 

 

 

“That's a great idea.” Wendy closes the gap and pecks her lips. “I don’t mind waiting though.”

 

 

 

“Wait, the soup……” Irene hops away like a little bunny and turns back to the stove, “Sorry for ruining your cheeseball moment……  So, how’s Chorong ?”

 

 

 

“She is not answering her phone nor texts. But what I can gather from Seulgi and Krystal - Naeun seems to like Chorong too.” 

 

 

“It’s good…. Krystal is back too~” 

 

 

 

“Hey, do you wanna see how Seulgi dressed for tonight ? It’s taken by Krystal.” Wendy hands the cabbage her phone.

 

 

“Oh my god, how could I never think of her being this smoking hot ?” Irene takes a good look and exclaims with her dancing eyebrows.

 

 

 

No wonder they are a good match.

 

 

 

“Well, can you dress like that for me too ? Like now ?” Wendy slyly asks while eyeing the cabbage from head to toe.

 

 

“Eat your dinner first.” Irene smacks the ert snowman in the head. “Then we can both try on some clothes.” She whispers into her ears before tending the dishes.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Hi guys. Sorry for not updating in ages.

So here comes a long chapter :D

 

Have been focusing on school stuff lately.

Such as planning to take a MA degree and ...... I'll go on an exchange to South Korea next academic year *tada*

Yeah, I feel like sharing with you all XD

 

I will have more time from now, hopefully ^^

 

Hope you like this as always ~~

And comment if you have any thoughts or anything you wanna say to me.

 

I'll return soon *pinky promise*

xo