"Oh ..." I cursed to myself while in the womens bathroom at the awards show. Outside the door was Hana waiting for me to come out and tell what the results were. I can't believe this. On this little pee stick was one small symbol that has changed my life for the worst. 

I was pregnant... with Yixing's child.

He just started his career and so did I. What was I supose to do? And say? I couldn't tell them now. It wasn't the right time. EXO was nominated for Best Newcomer Group. I couldn't ruin that for him. It was supose to be a great night for him and myself as well. Performing in front of thousands of people instead of just the couple hundred at the music programs.

In frustration I threw the pregnancy stick across the bathroom. And I screamed. It wasn't fair. I was supose to be this great performer that had this great supporting boyfriend who was also a singer. Maybe after my contract was over then I would have the thought of settling down. But not now.

Rapid knocks from outside filled the quiet bathroom.

"Taylor?! Are you okay?" it wasn't Hana's voice though. It was much deeper than a woman's.

I threw the pregnancy test in the garbage bin and hid some paper towel over it so no one would know.

I slowly turned the doorknob and opened the door to see a concerned Yixing and the rest of EXO. Hana mouthed a sorry towards me.

"I'm fine. You know, just yelling out the nerves." I lied, "You look great though in your suits, all of you." That was the truth.

Yixing's concerned frown was replaced with his usual smile with that dimple that I always loved.

"Taylor. We better go and get you ready. And I'm sure you boys have to go to your seats now." Hana grabbed my wrist and pulled towards her.

That's when Yixing stepped fowards closer to me. He placed a gentle kiss on my cheek and whispered in my ear, "You are going to be fantastic, remember that okay? I love you."

I nodded with a blush creeping up on my cheek. Watching EXO leave I saw Yixing laughing with all the other members and how much fun they looked like they were having. I couldn't ruin that.

-

My performance went off without a hitch. I tried my best during it not to think about how a small human being with a heartbeat was growing inside of me. I had to clear my mind from everything even Yixing. I sang and danced to my limits and after the song I ran off stage as fast as I could and began to throw up once more. I pushed too hard.

Now, sitting in my dorm I am just staring up at the ceiling watching the fan spin in circles. It does 20 rotations in 10 seconds. I count.

September 20th. 12:08am. I get a call from Yixing. I let it go to voicemail. I nev