Genre: Angst Requester: MrsLeeSungyeol Author's Note: Sorry If you wanted something a bit more angsty, hope you enjoy :)  

 

It’s not so easy dating a k-pop idol, especially when he’s away for weeks or even months at a time, spending so much time with so many pretty female idols. It’s hard to watch him on TV, hearing him talk about his ideal type without comparing yourself to that girl. It’s also hard when he’s especially close to one female idol in the same company as him. “Alright, I’m off now! I wish you could come along to see the performance.” Jongin pouted at me, hugging my waist tightly. He nuzzled his cheek into the crook of my neck and pulled me closer to him. I smacked his arms with the dish cloth. “Ya oppa! You’ll be late if you don’t get going. Your band mates are waiting for you.” Jongin groaned in protest, but let go anyway, taking the packed lunch I prepared for him. “Good luck my star.” His lips curved into a blissful smile before heading off to the manager’s car that was waiting outside. I sighed and dried my hands on the dish cloth. The house was a lot lonelier without him around. Me and Jongin were a fairly new couple, with only s and the SM staff knowing about us. The reason why we weren’t comfortable with the idea of our relationship being known was not just because of dating restrictions, or the fact that Jongin was a member of a popular group with countless fans – including sasaeng fans. There was another reason too, and that was that I was a former trainee under another company… YG. YG was well known for being the ‘rival’ company to SM, and both Jongin and I were afraid it would ruin not only his career but our relationship.   It was 8pm at night and I was sat watching today’s live performances on music bank from earlier. I sighed as I realised that I still had two hours of the program to watch until I got to EXO’s performance. Out of boredom, I scrolled through my friend’s posts on facebook, sometimes laughing at a funny picture they’d taken at the beach. A chat box popped up. “Hey Anna” it was from Tiffany. I smiled to myself, knowing that these next two hours would pass by quicker now I had someone to talk to. “Did you see what Seohyunnie posted to Jongin? :/” I frowned. No, why? “It’s just… I think you should see it. I’m probably over reacting and over thinking things but please look at it ‘:S” Hesitating, I searched Seohyun’s facebook and scrolled. I hummed to myself, not seeing anything wrong. “I can’t see anything, what did it say?” that was when I found the post. I bit my lip, feeling anxious. My chat log pinged and pinged with messages, but I didn’t feel like answering. “It’s there somewhere”, “Did you find it?”, “Anna?”, “Well, if you didn’t, it said ‘going out tonight for a loooovely dinner with Kim Jongin’. Am I reading too much into things?”, “Are you there?”, “Anna!”. Then another message. “I guess you found it already, huh? Don’t worry about it sweet pea, it’s probably nothing. If it helps I’ll cancel my date tonight so we can have a girl’s night :)” I shook my head to myself. “Don’t cancel the date unnie, I’ll be fine. Like you said, it’s nothing, right?” I scoffed. How could I be so sure of that? Jongin was handsome and charming and all the girls loved him, so it would make sense that even Seohyun unnie would fall for him as well.   A few minutes later it got worse. A picture was posted by Jongin himself, showing him with Seohyun, her kissing his cheek and their fingers laced together. It’s nothing, right? Don’t worry about it. What if it is nothing? What if it isn’t - do I just scream and lash out at him? I couldn’t… I switched everything off before I went and smashed something. I felt so let down, but right now I wasn’t sure if I was let down by Jongin – I believed in him – or myself – I didn’t trust him enough. What did I say to him now? Well done jag