I was always someone who can be described as calm and composed, a little self-centred and maybe short-tempered. Otherwise, I could handle my feelings pretty well. I guess you could say I kept all my feelings bottled up, so that they wouldn't show. 

But here I am, tears welling up in my eyes. Like there was a leak in the bottle that contained all my feelings. I can't cry now... Not in front of sehun. I tried to blink my tears away, but the more i pushed my feelings aside, the more i wanted to cry. 

"......" Sehun said nothing. 

Mom and dad, Jaehyo, the contract, Sehun... All my problems came flooding back to me. I really couldn't cry now. Not at this party. Not wanting Sehun to notice, i looked down. 
A few drops of tears fell onto my lap.

Oh no... I'm crying. 

No, it wasn't a leak, it was like someone had broke the bottle and all my feelings were released. For the first time, i realised -- maybe i'm not as strong as i always thought.

 "……" Sehun still remained quiet. 

I wiped my tears away. I bet i looked horrendous. I was about to stand up when...

Sehun suddenly wrapped his arms around me. One hand on my back and the other behind my head. What?

"…I'm sorry."

He's apologising? But he never did anything wrong...

 "I'm sorry I made you feel this way. This is my fault. I'm so, so sorry.

"Its not your fault... I was the one at fault for thinking this contract wouldn't be a big deal." The words I couldn't speak echoed over and over in my mind. 

Sehun my hair slowly. Feeling even more guilty, my tears started falling again. Sehun pulled away and held my shoulders instead. He's leaning in... I closed my eyes as tears continued rolling down my cheeks. 

Oh...

His lips brushed against my eyelids and cheeks over and over, as if to kiss my tears away. Sehun...

Touched by his actions, I cried even more.

When I finally stopped, Sehun pulled away. "Let's end this," he said quietly. I kept quiet as he lead me back to the party. 

Some of the women gaped at me. I must have looked like a wreck. Sehun pulled me up the stage and the place grew quiet.