12am
Even After Time (Infinite Hiatus)The siblings came back inside their house.
It was getting late and they started to drive back to the university.
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Jessica's POV:
We have been driving back for a while now and we haven't talked once during the whole way.
I looked out the window not really trying to see anything in particular.
I felt him stare at me for a second and back at the road before he began to speak.
"Thanks S-Jessica"
"For what?" I continued to stare out the car-window.
"Riding with me"
I nod in response.
"I actually want to talk to you about something though"
"What is it?"
"Well, I just want to ask you if you are done thinking...."
"I actually am..."
"Really?!?"
I hummed my reply.
"Well...."
"I think you were right."
"About what?"
"About us..."My heart was beginning to hurt again.
He kept silent and focused on the road.
"We're here."
"Donghae..."
"Look I was wrong"
"No no...you were right. Let's move on."
"Jessica..."
"We broke up. We had other options but we broke up"
"I wasnt thinking straight at that moment"
"We could have done this. Not talking and thinking our relationship through when we were dating but right now we are nothing. Just people who is trying to bring back what was already gone. Trying to get something we threw away. We are no longer in a relationship Donghae so what are we doing?" I tried to stop the tears that were daring to fall down.
"I'm sorry...."
"You have nothing to be sorry for. Thank you for everything. Even if it wasnt for as long as I wanted us to be I was happy. Guess this is goodbye." I didnt want to break down in front of him. I wanted to seem strong so that he wouldnt get hurt as much. I wanted to make it work but I knew it be foolish of me too. I unbuckled my seat belt. and held on to the door handle.
"I'm sorry. You will always have a place in my heart don't forget."
"I won't. You will always have one in mine too so don't forget as well."I turned around to face him again.
"It's 12."
"Yup."
"May I?"He leaned in towards me.
Before I could reply I felt our lips touch. He moved his lips slowly and I found myself reciprecating the action. Our lips moved in sync. My mind told me to stop him but my heart didn't let me.It's goodbye anyway right? I closed my eyes and tilt my head to have a better angle. I found myself leaning closer to him. Our kiss became more heated. I unconciously tried pulling his shirt up but he immediately held my hands down not letting me to. He pecked my lips once more and pulled away.
"I-I'm sorry. I wasn't thinking. Good night." What was I thinking?!?!?! Pabo jung! Oh well... I grabbed hold of the handle on the door once more.
"Do you remember what today is?" He asked me. How could I forget?
"It's the day we started dating....It's been a privelege."
"I know. Bye Hae.And likewise."
"Bye Sooyeon-ah"
With that I pulled on the handle and exit the car. The tears that had been threatening to fall earlier began to fall down.
The start of the end of my feelings for him. This is for the best. The end of us. Perhaps in the future we could be together if possible but for now its goodbye. I love you Lee Donghae. I meant it everytime I said it to you and even now. Move on. Please be happy. That way I could too. I hope I did the right thing.....
I ran up the stairs to my dorm. I locked myself inside my room and cried my heart out. I tried hitting my aching heart to reduce the pain. Bye Donghae...
-End of POV-
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would have worked out right, yeah
We were never meant for do or die
I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hurt you now I can't stop
[Chorus]
I want you to know
That it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
But someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone
Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you wanna cry
It started with the perfect kiss then
We could feel the poison set in
"Perfect" couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go
[Chorus]
And I'm already gone, I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone
Ah already gone, already gone, already gone
Ah already gone, already gone, already gone
Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
[Chorus]
And I'm already gone, I'm already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone
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