A/N Forgive me for not doing color coding anymore. But let's face it, I'm lazy.

Next day I was trying to avoid being alone with either Luhan or Suho. Joonmyeon from time to time looked at me and smiled and I smiled back. Kris seemed also strange. I was lucky to at least have Xiumin next to me this morning to keep me distracted.

• Are you ok? – I heard in English. I looked towards my left but the person who said it wasn’t Kris as I expected but Xiumin.
• Huh?  - I stuttered shocked, blinking my eyes.
• Sorry, didn’t want to confuse you. I asked Kris to teach me a bit.

I smiled. Xiumin was such a sweetheart sometimes. Even now he was letting me in to the van before him like a real gentleman. He sat next to me, passing me a bottle of water.

• You seem worried these days. – he satted.
• Do I? – I sighed.
• You don’t know who to choose right? – he whispered to my ear.

I think all the blood left my face.

• Don’t worry, I won’t tell anyone. Leader really like you, I can tell. Luhan is a bit different. It’s hard to tell. He always pretend to be fine but it’s more to him than everyone thinks.

I didn’t say anything. My hands was sweating as I have been caught.

• Ash, I don’t have much experience in relationships but I always heard when people say, listen to your heart. I believe it.

His smile was genuine and beautiful. It made me somehow relaxed. If my relationship with Kris would be so good like with Xiumin. If he would at least try to understand me… Before I could stop myself I said something that didn’t make any sense.

• Xiu oppa, do you think we can do something together?
• Is this a date – he teased. But in his voice wasn’t anything weird or suggestive.  – Sure

I smiled. He was cute when his brew raised a bit giving me funny look. He really could make me relax.

The day consisted of practises and practises and rehearsals. There was somewhere interview on the way and I was actually happy to assist. It kept my mind occupied and more friendly people around meant less trouble for me.

By the evening I found myself exhausted. Only then I thought how tired must boys be, since they pretty much were dancing all day if not counting interview.  I was sitting quietly in my hotel room, just after I taken shower. I knew better than to walk around in the towel so changed straight away in my not so fancy pj’s. My hair were still wet from the water when I heard soft knocking on the door. I noted cheeky smile plastered on someone’s face and smiled.

• So do you want to go for a walk? – Xiumin asked scanning my clothes.
• Isn’t it too late for you? – I said concerned.
• Nope – he assured me – let’s dry your hair and we can see some stars.

Without asking he grabbed the towel and mentioned for me to sit. I looked at him not sure what shall I do.

• Don’t worry I promise not to fall in love with you – he giggled.  – I am just being nice to my friend.

I signed heavily and rested on the corner of the bed while Xiumin first made sure my hair are dried of with towel and then put on my hairdryer. It was quite late so I wasn’t to comfortable with making a noise at this time. I didn’t want to gain any more attention. Especially that one member of Exo was in my room.

It didn’t take long before I changed my clothes, took a jumper and left the hotel with Xiumin. We sneaked out with the back door afraid of any sasaeng fans who could wait in the lobby or outside of the hotel.

• So, how the situation with Suho and Luhan? – he asked.
• I don’t know. I really like Suho and all but I don’t want to hurt Luhan. And you know the fans. Something could happen to me. And there is Kris, who clearly gave me an idea he doesn’t like it.
• Why so many and, and….? And why suddenly you mentioned Kris? – he checked if there’s someone around. Before continued.  – Do you like him?
• What?! No!  - I responded. Where did he even get the idea from. I mean Kris is just weird and makes me confused that’s all.
• Ok, ok I was just kidding. But thinking about it, you spend awfully long time watching him and trying to get his approval. Don’t you think you should just try to be happy?
• But what about dating ban? – I said.
• What dating ban? SM dating ban? You know it’s not real right? It was just a made up thing for fans, so they would believe we do not date – he laughed.
• Then you date? – I was shocked.
• Yep. Well maybe not currently. But for example Lay was dating not long ago, till the girl gave up.  – he stated.
• Why Luhan doesn’t contacted his ex girlfriend then?
• She won’t speak to him. He tried. I know Luhan likes you too, but I didn’t figure out how much yet. You might be just the person who makes him forget for few hours about his lost love.

I sighed. This was one of the reason I didn’t want to break his heart. I didn’t want to leave another scar.

• But seriously Joonmyeon is amazing guy and he really likes you. Give him a try. Fans will give up after some time.
• I will think about it – I said.

That night I didn’t sleep well. Around 4am I gave up and decided to do something about this whole situation. To be honest, I didn’t know what I am actually doing. I texted Suho asking if he is asleep and kind of hope he wasn’t. Within second there have been soft knock on my doors and Joonmyeon walked in.

• Are you ok? – his voice sounded tired by panicked.
• Yeah  - I whispered crossing the room and standing in front of him.

He looked ever so handsome in his bed hair and still half closed eyes.

• I have made the decision – I said. He looked at me confused. And there was only one thing, that could explain him properly what I meant. I leaned in and pressed my lips against his. He was shocked at the beginning but it didn’t taking him long to understand what I meant. He smiled into the kiss and responded back.