AN: this chapter started inside the wash room okay? Right after Eunsae hanged up. ^^ Enjoy guysssssss~~ ^^

My back hit the cold wall as I lean onto it hoping that it wouldn't let me fall but I lost my balance and ended up on the tiled floor, landing hard that it hurt.

The wash room looked so small and suffocating as I sat on the ground. I drew my legs closer to me and hugged it, seeking for some comfort. I need to get out as fast as I could but my legs were weak and I can't move. I don't know what to do if I came running into him the moment I step a foot out. Should I just stay here and don't let anyone find me? That would be idiotic. Curse Jaehyun for not telling me. Why did I even agree to accompany him in the first place?

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Luckily when I went out from the wash room I bumped into Jaehyun. He was clumsily holding the food and beverages he bought.

"Jaehyun... I need to go." I curtly told him. I didn't mean to sound too harsh but I am out of words and that is the only one came slipping out of my mouth. “But the show haven't even started yet...” he said. “Are you okay? You look pale.” He touched my forehead, carefully checking if I got a fever which is impossible because I am fine...


"Are you hurt somewhere? Is that why you call on Seunghyun?" My face somehow brighten at the mention of Seunghyun.

That fast? But I just hang up on her minutes ago. Did I happen to stay that long inside the wash room? But it only felt seconds. How long did I actually day dreamed in there?


"Seunghyun is already here?" I asked not really believing.

He nodded in response. "I was surprised to see her outside when I came back, but the guards won't let her in that's why I called Baekhyun to get her. Let's wait for them." he explained, ready to me back, inside EXO's waiting room.
 

“I...”

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"Eunsae..." Then I heard him call me. A shiver ran down my spine and I automatically flinched, ruining my stoic stance. Jaehyun heard it as well but he didn't say anything nor he didn't give away any reaction. Gosh let me disappear right Before his eyes.
 

'Run'. My mind dictated me. I don't have another option anyway.

"I'll meet her out then, I am really sorry.". I excused myself, my feet pulled me away. it started with small steps and then I found myself running, away from them, away from Kyuhyun.

I know this is pointless. I'll end up failing. But I have to try my best and escape. Good thing Jaehyun didn't stop me. Or else I might something that I'll regret later.

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Running away was something I am accustomed to. I have been doing this my whole life, running away to every problem I encounter. Call me a coward but I lived my entire life that way. I am scared. I don't want to get hurt.

I can't seem to stand up on my own and face Kyuhyun. Not now and I think not ever. I came to realize after going back here that I'll only burden him if I ever did say yes that time. Going back to him and starting something would not benefit him any good. I don't want to see him falling down with his dreams. I already ruined a lot. I have come to this point that my heart is willing to set him free. Maybe all along I really wanted to let him go but this nagging thought in my head that he still loves me is keeping me from doing so.

Fine! I still love him, I never stopped in the first place even if he had my heart broken, and I know that deciding to back off will hurt me, perhaps it'll hurt him too but this is nothing compared to that dreadful outcome when one day he'll be out of the industry and his dreams will crash with us, would he still love me if that actually happened? I think no, so this is better. Now I should be the one to let him go like what he did to me. This is for the better.

“If you love someone you have to learn how to let go of that 'someone'.”

Ah... right! That's what I told him the last time we saw each other. I think I have to learn how to do that as well.

But really... I am such an idiot! I left Jaehyun to deal with Kyuhyun.

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"Eunsae"


I thought I already lost him but no I heard his footsteps coming closer. Did Jaehyun let him chase me? I am afraid Kyuhyun will reach me so I ran as fast as I could. And then as if the gods up above heard my pleas, I saw Seunghyun at the far end of the hallway with Baekhyun and some of the boys. I think they saw me judging from how Baekhyun waved furiously at my way, he even called out my name. However, some of them looked pass through me, even Seunghyun did. They must have seen Kyuhyun running behind me. I panicked and immediately pulled Seunghyun with me. I gripped her hand securely and ran away.
 

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