Chapter 3: The Beginning

Missing You- Talyor Hilton

‘Ms...Ms...’ I felt slight taps on my right shoulder. Reluctantly I had to open my eyes. ‘We’ve landed in Incheon International Airport.’ She looked at me as if I was some specimen that had so happen to land in the seat of this plane. Well I did pop in two pills before knocking out. Never liked the ascending or descending be it in flight or life. If things would be my way...life will be the calm river of Adriann Van Der Hoop’s painting. 

All this while she looked at me like I was mental. Well she very well may be right hence I smiled and got off as per normal. Dragging the stuff I had to bring, I opened my eyes to search for the dude who would be holding my plank card. Maybe it was due to height but all my eyes could capture were the happy family greeting one another. Was this what my heart was secretly seeking for? 

Heaving one last sigh, I went back to finding my card. ‘Jessica shi...’ I turn to face the voice that draws me. The lady was slightly tanner, a few more inches taller. Dressed in a figure hugging yet simple black one piece. Her hair long and especially curled at the bottom to give it a wave effect. I shamelessly dissect her through my eyes, she slowly grew to become more and more uncomfortable. 

‘Erm....are you Ms Jessica Jung Sooyeon?’ I nodded and looked at her in the eye indifferently. ‘O...alright. This way please.’ She stretched out her hand and guided me through the crowd. She would turn her head a few times double checking if I was still behind. Was she being caution or did she know my tendency to run away? I pondered over that question as I watched her back view. 

Surprisingly, she got into the driver’s seat. A little shock and some what not trusting the image of this lady sitting behind the wheel causes me to stay rooted in front of the car. We exchanged glances through the wide windshield. I noticed her finger slowly rising and then signaling for me to get on the passenger seat. Next it awkwardly lowers to her side as I blankly look at her. I think I have a gift at making this lady feel uncomfortable. We continued the little staring before she finally gets out of the car. 

As she closes the door lightly, ‘I do have a license...’ I shrug my shoulders. ‘Would you like to drive?’ I looked at her once more before coldly walking past her and into the driver’s seat. She calmly took her seat. Immediately she fastens her seatbelt and straightens out her attire. I let my eyes runs once more up and down her body. Then having them look at the GPS machine. Now back to staring at her again. 

In ten seconds, her body begun to tensed. Another ten, and she swallowed some saliva I presume to ease her dry throat. Five more seconds, she fidgeted a little. Ten seconds later she tidies up her long fringe. She is so not getting me. Thus I lightly tapped her shoulder and then pointed to the GPS. ‘Oh...’ She tried to smile but it turned out rather awkward. ‘Right...sorry about that Unnie.’ My eyebrows raised in confusion. This prim and proper is younger than me? Interesting. She punches in the accurate address and I was greeted by one laughing girl. ‘YAH! This is Im YoonA being smarter than YOU! LEts GO GO GO!!!!’ 

I peeked at her as she was blushing red. For someone like her...who knew that the GPS would be sounding this hyper. Still the engine started and Im YoonA started ordering me in a rather peculiar manner. ‘To the left to the left.’ Her rendition of Beyeonce’s Irreplaceable. Before changing her whole tone to one of an announcer when describing the distance. Whoever this Im YoonA is, she must have had a free day to record all these. 

We drove in silence. I would notice the occasional blush whenever YoonA had one of her outburst moments. Guess this car wasn’t meant for any other driver but her. Arriving at a rest station, I got off with the keys. She watched me leave her alone in the vehicle. I went to the counter and get two bottles of mineral water some snacks. Paid the cashier and out. 

She had wind down the windows and was on the phone. As I approached her, one couldn’t help but heightened their sense of hearing. ‘Yes Mr Lee...yes she is with me...yes sir...yes I assure you she would be there in another hour...yes...’ Seems like she was speaking to someone higher up. Maybe it was the man that Father had thrown me at. Through the open window, I dropped the a bottle and the separate packet of snacks. ‘Oh...erm Mr lee...yes bye.’ 

‘Thanks Unnie.’ I nodded my head. ‘I’m Seo Juhyun by the way...’ Was she waiting for the procedure of exchanging of names then the simple brief introduction of each other’s life? I turn to see her hand stretched out. So I look at the hand then back at her then back at the road. Whoever that Mr Lee was probably didn’t tell you what an I am. What an you’ve made me to be. 

‘I’m working and studying at Northern Star Boarding School for girls.’ Guess her spirits wasn’t dampen by me. Is that a good thing? ‘The GPS voice is YoonA Unnie...my roommate back at the dormitory.’ I provided no response other than the stepping and realizing of the pedals. ‘You’ll be staying in room Pyxis, I’ll be two rooms down. I’m staying in Azalea. Apparently Mr Lee takes into account who is staying inside the room before naming it. Oh and classes will be starting next week.’

Pyxis...a small and faint constellation in the southern sky and is latin for a mariner’s compass. If he had choose the name meant for the students living in that particular room then what does it mean? ‘Oh and you’ll be living with one more other student that is said to be arriving back tomorrow. Exciting isn’t it Unnie? To be starting a whole new school term.’ Her eyes glittered at the word school. She is either weird or unique. She makes that fine line even more blur to me. 

Finally we arrived. She helped me settle into my room before closing the door. It was a simple two tiered room. I looked up and back down. Which would be better? My eyes shifted to the nine steps up to the second deck. That helped to decide. I flung my sling bag onto the bed beside. Next, I sat on the floor. Leaning my back onto the new bed. The new bed that is soon to be called mine. Scanning the room that is going to be called my room soon. But for now, this was as foreign as can be. 

One final glance around the room, I begin to unpack. Once that was taken care of, my hands reached for your book. 

October 3 2011

Hello...the past few days were a blast wasn’t it? Alright maybe it wasn’t for you. I mean it was halloween and all you could think of was putting a sheet over you. Seriously Jessi, your halloween dress up skills are as great as Leo when he was five. Yes I may not have a proper recalling of my brother when I was three but the photos. OH MY GOSH the photos. They had me rolling on the floor. Alright back to the more serious stuff, today we went out. Of course people were staring. I mean the hotness was being all giggly in front of some other short girl. I am hotness by the way. Yes you do agree.People were staring like eyeball directly at us..I mean is there not a more discreet manner of doing things? I mean some of them would literally have their eyeballs bulging out of their sockets. Rude aren’t they? 

However something major occurred. We had a moment. You know the moment...the look between each other. It was strong. Like we are meant to be. She did tilt her head in but you see I chickened out at the last minute. We then tried to play it of as if nothing had happened. Typical wouldn’t you say. Jessi, you know I wonder why I’m sitting at my desk scribbling to you when I could just pick up the phone and babble it all out. I know you wouldn’t judge me. I definitely know you would still love me for who I am. However something is making me shut up. Making my tongue useless whenever I want to spill it all out to you. What does that mean I wondered? Either way, I’ve decided to reveal to you my journey only after my passing whenever that may be. That is all for today. Daddy made meatballs with baked potato. You know you wish you were me. Haha. Alrights. Love you. Bet you are missing me! Haha. 

Missing you...I died because of you. Steph. Why can’t you come back from the idiocy that you’ve casted upon yourself? I hate missing you. Missing you hurts like...argh forget it. You stupid fool will be gone and all I can be having is a monologue. In the longest of while, a lone tear came rolling down. I hugged the only thing I had of you and cried in silence.