37 ♥ Heartsick
Hearts are Made to be Broken
♥ Sunggyu ♥
I keep staring on the screen of my laptop, considering whether I need to hit the 'log in' button or not. It just needs a second to do it but I have thought about it for at least an hour.
"Oh, come on, Sunggyu," I groan and point the mouse cursor to the 'log in' button, right under the password field. "It's just out of the curiosity."
It's 6 PM in London, meaning it's around 2 AM in Seoul time. To be honest, I feel really sleepy. I even told the others that I would be sleeping in my room instead of going out.
However a thought filled my mind as I wanted to sleep: Will a week change Eunye's mind about me?
From our deal, I only have one week left to prove that I'm serious so she could at least give me a chance. Strange enough I don't feel like I will have that chance after one week.
It's not like she hates me or else. She always responds to my question. Well, it's really different though from the way she talked to me when I first returned to Seoul.
No more cold glare. No more sarcastic smile. No more sharp tone in words. I guess we have somehow returned to the way we were before I had a relationship with Bora.
Except for the fact that I'm the one who has feelings for her. Or at least I think so.
So here I am now, sitting in front of my laptop instead of taking a good sleep while the others are busy with their own meetings.
There is an online blog I used to write on before with Bora when we're still in a relationship. Yeah, it's so out of trend, I know, but it's simply the way I tried to keep in touch with Bora since I was busy somehow.
I just want to know if she still thinks of me after I broke up. Me and my self confidence.
On the day of my reunion with my college friends, Bora didn't appear. A friend said that she had an errand to do and she apologized for not coming.
As much as I wanted to ask her, I still felt... afraid? Is it that impossible to be friends again after a break up?
"Okay," I take a deep breath and finally click the 'log in' button. The screen changes, loading the new screen which shows the welcome screen.
Unfortunately before I can do anything, the knocks on door distract me in instance.
I quickly close my laptop before I rush to the door and open it to see Woohyun and Hoya, standing right in front of the door.
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♥ Woohyun ♥
I just returned from the meeting when I see Hoya and Hyuna at the lobby of our hotel. I think they just returned from their meeting too.
They walk to the elevator, not noticing my presence at all. I decide to ask the receptionist about my request to drop the present for Eunye.
It's nothing really expensive but I really hope that she will like it. I recorded a song that I wrote by myself, a song that I hope will remind her of my love whenever she hears it.
Actually I think that's the last step I will take to show her how much I love her.
After this I will support her with Hoya.
It hurts but all I want is her happiness. If she is happier with Hoya, why should I force her feelings for me?
I'll stay by her side if she needs me. I'll do my best to do whatever I can for her... as a friend.
After making sure that she has received the present, I walk to her room since I want to greet her the birthday wishes face to face.
Hoya is standing in front of Eunye's room. He has the frustrated look on his face. He knocks the door and waits for no one to open it for him.
"Hoya," I call out his name and approach him. "Is Eunye not in her room?"
"Maybe," he answers with worried look. "It's strange. Where is she?"
"Maybe she just takes a walk around," I try to ease him from negative thoughts. "How's the meeting?"
After exchanging words for minutes, we part our ways to our own rooms. I take a shower before going downstairs to have dinner.
"She still hasn't returned," that's the first sentence Hoya says to me when we meet. "It's almost eight already."
I put down the empty plate I just took and walk out from the queue line, "I'll wake Sunggyu up. Maybe he knows where she is."
Hoya accompanies me to Sunggyu's room. He opens the door right away and he doesn't look like he was just sleeping.
"I've woke up an hour ago. Why?" he answers simply.
He told us that he still hasn't met Eunye today so he can't help us at all. He decides to give a call for her since he knows her number here but her phone is dead.
"I'll look after her," Hoya speaks calmly but it's obvious that he is really worried. "It's late already. I'll call you two if I find her."
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♥ Eunye ♥
People are walking here and there, dancing on the dance floor, chatting and laughing with their friends, drinking the cocktail, and doing whatever they want to.
It's my birthday and I'm actually alone in a night club nearby from our hotel.
Once again, for the umpteenth time, I plug in the earphone to my ears and press the play button on the new iPod I just received as my birthday present.
I maximize the volume to beat the sound of the music at the night club. Woohyun's voice makes my heart to skip another beat again even thought it's just one song.
I don't think it's because of his beautiful voice. It's not because I know he wrote this song by himself.
It's because I know his reason to sing it for me.
Why can't my heart beats for Woohyun like how it beats for Hoya? Why can't I see him the way I saw Sunggyu two years ago?
Woohyun is perhaps a perfect man every girl wants to have. Caring, sweet, honest, and everything. What is wrong with me?
A glass grabs my attention when the bartender puts it in front of me. I look up to see he points his thumb to a man from the other side of the bar.
There is a man who lifts his glass for me, a sign that he is the one who gives the drink. He drinks his own glass before putting it down on the bar again.
The next thing I remember is my head starts to spin around. After I drank one glass as a polite attitude, I drank another glass again and again.
How many glasses have I drunk? I don't remember.
Why did I drink it when I know I can't handle alcohol?
Is it because I just wanted to do whatever today? Is it because I couldn't think straight with all the confusion in mind? Is it because the heartsick for knowing that maybe it's better for me to be alone?
Slowly but sure I lose my consciousness but I swear I hear a familiar voice calls my name before I completely space out.
"Eunye!"
This voice...
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