36 ♥ Sincere Heart
Hearts are Made to be Broken
♥ Eunye ♥
"The students will need to choose the song they want to perform next week," I translate the explanation of the commitee briefly to Hyuna. "You need to collect it on Saturday morning."
Today is the second day for us in London. The clock just strikes 3 PM and I'm currently busy attending the meeting with the other counselors from different countries.
Meanwhile the students are training hard under the professional trainer from the commitee. Hoya stays with them while Hyuna is with me for the meeting.
After another hour, it will be my birthday in Korean time. I didn't really remember it until Woohyun mentioned it yesterday.
I was really touched by his wish. For a reason I know that he's not just trying to make me happy. It's a sincere wish and that makes me feel even more guilty.
I've been so selfish. I blamed Sunggyu for breaking my heart and I took revenge on others. I was mad at Hoya for not realizing my feeling for him.
Then what was in Woohyun's mind all the time? How did he feel, listening to my complaint, staying by my side, knowing that I like Hoya? It must be hurt.
Compared to him, I feel so small. He has such a kind and sincere heart and I...
What have I done to return his kindness and love?
What have I done to return his kindness and love?
"Eunye," Hyuna touches my shoulder lightly. "Are you alright? It's like you're spacing out... Care to share?"
It's our break time and we have thirty minutes to do whatever we want before we return to the meeting room. I choose to go the cafetaria to buy the ice coffee while Hyuna wants to have the jasmine tea.
"Ah, no," I smile to her. "Don't worry about me. What do you think about the preparation, Hyuna?"
Though I'm speaking about the dance competition with her, my mind is actually thinking of something else.
What if Woohyun is the one for me? What if I'm too late to realize everything? What if I'm never meant to be with Hoya?
What if...
What if I choose Woohyun?
~ ♥ ~ ♥ ~ ♥ ~
♥ Hoya ♥
The students are doing really well. No wonder since they're selected among the other students from the dancing classes. They are indeed skillful.
"Lee Songsaenim, what if we add the breakdance moves?" Naeun, one of the girls, gives me an idea. "The boys go on first then the girls continue."
I nod and listen to her explanation. The others also give their idea. I smile to them, "Discuss it with five of you. Tell me your conclusion afterwards."
They do what I say and I lean against the mirror, watching them discussing about the idea with excitement. It's good to see them full of spirit.
I hide my yawn, covering my mouth. I still haven't get used with the time difference yet. Sunggyu is no different from me; he's sleeping right now in the hotel.
We have our break time but the students choose to continue their practice by their own. The intense training will continue until 8 PM in London time.
"Oh," I suddenly realize that I have missed something. The meeting. Have Eunye and Hyuna finished yet?
"What time is it in Seoul now?" I ask the question out loud.
Naeun answers me with confused gaze, "It's probably midnight already. Why, Lee Songsaenim?"
"Eh?!" I drop my jaw in shock. If it's midnight in Seoul, doesn't that mean it's her birthday already?! "Aigoo!"
I rush out from the dance practice room, heading to the meeting room just to find Hyuna is walking to the dance practice room... alone.
"Where is Eunye?" I ask her and she tells me that Eunye has returned to the hotel. I facepalm myself, feeling stupid because I don't remember the time difference.
I remembered it before the training started but I was so into the practice that I forgot to check the time. For the past two years, I was always been the first who greeted her birthday.
"Don't regret if you lose Eunye just because you think she is your best friend."
My heart clenches when I remember Sunggyu's words. Does he prepare something for Eunye? Did I lose from him?
Wait. Since when did I compete with him?
"Howon, we need to return now," Hyuna snaps me back to my senses. She chuckles, "Come on. They are waiting."
I really need to come to Eunye's room. I don't care about the deal I've made with her. It's her birthday and there's no way I will keep the silence between us.
How could I forget to ask for the number she uses here?! What was I thinking?
I need to give her the birthday present. I need to apologize and we need to talk.
No. We must talk.
~ ♥ ~ ♥ ~ ♥ ~
♥ Eunye ♥
Hoya really doesn't give me birthday wishes this year. Looks like he really takes the deal seriously, that we can't talk except for the work stuff.
I throw my phone on the bed before throwing myself lazily. As much as I want to be mad at him, I know it's my fault in the end.
If only I didn't let my emotion to take over me, everything would not be like this. I am tired already with this cold war.
The sun still hasn't set down here but it's already 1 AM in Seoul. My eyes feel tired but I still don't want to sleep yet.
It's alright if I go somewhere by myself, right? I can speak English and I have money. I should do something new in my birthday.
When I'm done wearing my jacket, the knock on the door stops me. Who can possibly looking for me? Sunggyu is sleeping, Woohyun is at the meeting for upcoming vocal competition, and the others are still attending the intense training.
I open the door and find the hotel staff is waiting for me. He bows slightly to me and hands over a white envelope, telling me that someone asked him to give it to me yesterday.
"Thank you," I take the envelope and close the door after he walked away. I sit on the bed and start to open the envelope, wondering what's inside.
There is an iPod inside. There is no name of the sender. I unwrap the box and plug the earphone into my ears, feeling that there is something more than just an iPod.
I turn on the music player then press the play button... and I was right. A voice starts to talk and I know who it is.
"Happy birthday, Eunye. Happy birthday, Eunye. Happy birthday Choi Eunye. Happy birthday to you," the person sings without any background music. "I'm sorry that I can't give you the person by myself but I really want you to receive this simple gift."
I close my eyes, focusing on his voice, "I'm not good in choosing gift for girls. Singing is the only thing I'm confident with so, yeah, I hope you will like this song. I know it's not really good but I wrote this with all my heart."
He made a song for me?
"It's not a happy song but I really wish that you will always remember that I love you whenever you listen to this song," he speaks. "Once again, happy birthday, Eunye."
I can hear he was playing the piano as he started to sing the song.
"Even though we long for someone
There exists a right or wrong answer
Our answer is those traces of tears
I looked up at the night sky"
His voice is really clear as if he is singing right in front of me. I start to imagine how he looks like while playing the piano.
"The moment that the two of us met was a little too late
And I encounter your tears
Even if someone might be hurt
The future can't be seen"
I unconsciously clench my fists when I hear the lyrics. Is this how his heart feels? Is this what he is holding inside all the time when he's with me?
"One more time, one more time
I want to see your smile
No matter how many times, no matter how many times
The time we spent together will not be taken away from me"
I run my hand to my chest and I clutch my shirt. It's as if I can feel the pain through the song.
"One more time, one more time
I embrace your back
I won't let go, I won't let go
If I put it into words
Is something going to change?
I miss you more than 24/7
Because it's you"
I don't know if it's just my feeling or not but his voice wavers somehow. Was he crying when he sang this song for me?
"Through the night
I hold my sadness in the depths of my pocket
From here on
Let's walk together again deep in my mind
I love you more than 24/7"
And before I realize it, I start to cry after he whispered the last line of the song.
"One more time"
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Author's Note:
This chapter is kind of random, isn't it?
Drop any comment about what you think about this story so far.
No worry, I will love to read every comment! Really! ^^
The lyrics of the song is inspired by "24/7 ~ Mou Ichido ~" by WaT, a Japanese duo.
I love the song and I think parts of the song describe Woohyun's feeling so...
Well, I hope you also like it! :)
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