19 ♥ Change of Heart
Hearts are Made to be Broken
♥ Woohyun ♥
"Remember to give me the song of your choice for the midterm exam next week," I remind the students as they pack up their stuffs. "You need to give the list to me in two days."
The students nod, mumbling and bid me goodbye, leaving the classroom. I smile and watch them walk away, continuing to their next classes.
I walk to the piano and sit behind the black and white notes. I put my fingers on them and start to play random notes, letting the melodies to echo in the empty room.
Music has always been my friend whenever I feel alone, happy, or sad. I have been interested in music ever since I was a little kid and Sunggyu also shared the same interest with me.
Both of us learned how to play piano, to control our vocal, and somehow I manage to write songs for myself. I never told Sunggyu about this because it's just my secret hobby.
Three days have passed since the day I met Hoya. He is a really good listener and I'm glad that he is Eunye's best friend. Somehow I believe that he can protect Eunye.
Meanwhile I start to pity myself.
I know that Eunye was not serious about me, perhaps not even for the slightest, but my heart still goes for her even until now.
I know that Eunye was not serious about me, perhaps not even for the slightest, but my heart still goes for her even until now.
Sunggyu has moved out from my apartment and he lives in his own apartment now. It's close from Eungeum Art School and I haven't visited him yet because of my schedule.
Midterm exam is coming and I need to prepare everything perfectly to help the students get the best score with their own skills.
When I don't do anything else at night, I will grab my music book and start to write whatever words crossing my mind and try to combine them with compatible notes.
"Oneuldo nae gieogeul ttarahemaeda"
Even today I'm still wandering in memories
I sing the first line of the song I just finished last night. I smile sadly as I remember that Eunye is the one in my mind when I wrote this song.
"I gil kkeuteseo seoseongineun na"
I'm lingering at the end of the road
I take a deep breath and start to focus myself with the song. My fingers dance on the keys slowly, producing the harmony.
"Dasin bol sudo eomneun niga nareul butjaba
Naneun tto i gireul mutneunda"
I can't see you anymore but you've still got a hold of me
And again, I lose my way
Is it wrong for me to keep loving Eunye? I know it sounds crazy and foolish, but weeks are enough for me to fall in love with her till this state.
I can't describe this feeling with words but whenever I see her smile, I want to protect it. Whenever I look at her, my heart beats for her. Whenever I'm with her, I wish the time can stop for us.
"Neol bogo sipdago
Tto ango sipdago
Jeo haneulbomyeo gidohaneun nal"
I miss you
I want to hold you again
I stare at the sky and pray
I wonder if I ever crossed her mind. Not as the one she thought as the 'victim', but as the one who could make her smile. I wonder if she felt the same with me even just for a second.
"Niga animyeon andwae
Neo eobsin nan andwae
Na ireoke haru handareul tto illyeoneul
Na apado joha
Nae mam dachyeodo joha nan
Geurae nan neo hanaman saranghanikka"
It has to be you
I can't be without you
For a day, a month or a year
It's fine even if I'm hurt
It's fine even if my heart hurts
Yes, because you're the only one I love
I'm hurting myself by loving her...
...but my heart is longing for her.
~ ♥ ~ ♥ ~ ♥ ~
♥ Eunye ♥
"Ah, Jihyun," I call one of my students who just walked pass me, bowing politely. She stops, waiting for my question, "Did you just finished with Nam Songsaenim's class?"
"Yes," she replies with a smile. "I think he is still in the classroom."
"I see. Thank you," I retort and, without wasting another second, I walk to the vocal room where Woohyun taught the students. I already have his schedule in mind so it's not difficult to find him around school area.
After having a heart to heart talk with Sunggyu, everything does look a little bit better. Even though I still can't be like how I used to be with Sunggyu, at least I try my best to treat him the same way I treat the others.
There are two things I need to take care for now.
The first is my unexplained feeling whenever I'm with Hoya. Thanks to this, I still haven't found out what he wanted to talk with me three days ago.
Looks like he is busy with something else, regarding about the dance competition or something like that. At the same time I'm also preparing for the English exam which will be held in a month.
I also need to talk with Woohyun. Let's just say I always keep my promise and I need to keep this one because I've said so to Sunggyu.
When I hear a deep but soothing voice from the room, I stop immediately and take a peek from the window. I find Woohyun is playing the piano and he sings beautifully.
This is the first time I see him playing a piano. I know he has a great voice, well, I mean he is a vocal teacher, but I never thought his voice is this great.
I can't take my eyes off of him because he looks so into the song. I'm not the expert when it comes to music but he surely can grab my attention with his voice.
"Nae meongdeun gaseumi neol chajaorago, sorichyeo bureunda
Neon eodinneungeoni
Naui moksori deulliji annni
Naegeneun..."
My bruised heart is still looking for you, calling for you
Where are you?
Can't you hear my voice?
To me...
He is alone but he sings as if he is telling someone else what's inside his heart. It feels like he is singing his heart out.
It's strange how my heart aches; it's like I can feel his pain.
"Na dasi sarado
Myeot beoneul taeeonado
Harudo niga eobsi sal su eomneun na
Naega jikyeojul saram
Naega saranghal saram nan
Geurae nan neo hanamyeon chungbunhanikka"
Even if I live again
No matter how many times I'd be born again
I wouldn't be able to live even a day without you
The one who'd care for me
The one who'd love me
Yes, as long as I have you, that's just enough
Woohyun stops playing the piano for seconds and just stares at the piano in silence. I look at him, wondering if the song is finished already.
He uses his fingers and sings the last line of the song, whispering slowly but clear enough for me to hear.
"Neo hanaman saranghanikka"
Because you're the only one I love
I clench my fists and hide myself behind the wall. I close my eyes and rest my head against the wall.
I can't just apologize and tell Woohyun to forget me. I know it the best that it's not that easy to forget the one who you thought would return your feeling. I know that words couldn't heal the broken heart.
"Choi Eunye," I murmur to myself, "you've crossed the line..."
~ ♥ ~ ♥ ~ ♥ ~
♥ Woohyun ♥
I heave a sigh and then stand up. The song is too short and I feel like I still miss something. I want to complete it but I don't feel to do it now.
I grab my book and walk out from the classroom. For my surprise, Eunye is standing next to the door and my eyes widen with her sudden presence, "E-Eunye?"
"Woohyun," she straightens her body and gives me a small smile. So she doesn't call me with 'Oppa' anymore. "Did you finish with your class?"
"Yes," I answer and lock the door before returning my gaze to her. I don't know why but she doesn't look as cheerful as usual. "Is there anything I can do to help you?"
"Now you're getting all formal with me," Eunye chuckles but I know it's an awkward one. "You must be really, really hate me now."
"No!" I quickly retort. I cover my mouth, feeling that I don't control my voice. "S-Sorry, I just... I mean, I don't..."
She smiles and mutters, "You're a really good person, Woohyun. I mean it. You're not supposed to fall for someone like me."
"You're not a choice for me to choose, Eunye," I state the sincere words. "It's just... It has to be you."
It sounds cheesy but none of the words is fake. Some said I'm good with words but when Eunye is in front of me, I think words are not enough to tell her my heart.
Eunye runs her right hand to cover and I see her cheeks turn into pink shades. She looks away and murmurs, "It's the first time someone said that to me..."
"Really?" I blurt out the word without thinking. "Ah, I'm sorry. I don't mean to... I mean-"
"No, it's alright," she cuts my words and clears . "Not the first time heard it but, well, I think it's the first sincere one..."
She still avoids my eyes and she starts to fan herself with her hand, trying to calm herself down, "Ah, it's hot here."
Her excuse is kind of lame because it's actually kind of cold. The sky is dark and it's obvious that it's going to rain soon so how come she said that it's hot?
Is it possible that Eunye has a change of heart for me?
Unfortunately the moment is interrupted abruptly by Junhyung. He calls out her name and rushes to our side, "Eunye, you're here... Aish."
"Eh?" Eunye blinks with confusion. "What's wrong?"
Junhyung messes his hair and he looks panic, "How can I say it? Err... It's the best for you to go back now before-"
He doesn't manage to continue his sentence because some students are running to Eunye and they have the curious expressions on their faces.
"Choi Songsaenim! Choi Songsaenim!" Dongwoon, her student who also takes my vocal class blurts out quickly. "Is it true? Are those pictures real?"
"Yah!" Junhyung scolds but the students don't stop because Eunye asks them what pictures are they talking about.
"Those pictures on the announcement board!" a girl chirps in with excitement as if it's a really big and important news. "Those pictures of you and Kim Songsaenim!"
Kim Songsaenim? Are they talking about Sunggyu?
Eunye doesn't wait for their next question. She walks pass Junhyung and heads to the announcement board which is put right next to the staff room.
This morning I was pretty sure that the announcement board was only filled with the midterm exam's announcement and the pamphlet of dance competition in London.
Now there are at least ten pictures of Eunye and Sunggyu. They're holding hands but it's not what really surprised me.
The harsh words are written on the pictures: 'two-timer', '', 'cheap', 'shameful'.
Dozens of students are looking at the pictures and now that they have noticed Eunye's presence, they start to whisper and some points at her, discussing about the pictures.
Who did all of these?
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Author's Note:
The song in this chapter is "It Has To Be You" by Super Junior's Yesung, an OST for Cinderella's Sister.
Honestly, I thought I would never put a song in this story,
but, then again, my love for music is unstoppable that I really want to share my favorite songs with all of you.
Hope you like it~ :)
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Author's Note:
The song in this chapter is "It Has To Be You" by Super Junior's Yesung, an OST for Cinderella's Sister.
Honestly, I thought I would never put a song in this story,
but, then again, my love for music is unstoppable that I really want to share my favorite songs with all of you.
Hope you like it~ :)
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