21 ♥ Heartache
Hearts are Made to be Broken
♥ Eunye ♥
When I hear the sound of opened door, I clench my fists silently as my heart beats faster. I feel both afraid and impatient to see who the culprit is.
After the school was over today, I didn't return to my apartment. Instead I locked myself inside of a bathroom for hours until the school was empty so I could sneak inside the staff room.
For days I was putting distance with everyone as much as I could. I was actually thinking to let the case to slide away but then, yesterday, more pictures were put on the announcement board.
This person surely hates me a lot. That's all I can assume from what he or she is doing against me.
I came up with a conclusion that this person must be doing his/her action during night time, when the school is closed. If I want to catch this person red handed, I must do the same.
However I didn't expect the electricity to be down at the time. I don't bring anything that can be source of light except my phone so I just stay still at the corner of staff room for the mean time.
I told myself that if I heard even the slightest sound from outside, I would rush and meet the culprit face to face.
Now I'm actually wondering why this person stepped inside the staff room. What does this person want actually?
The footsteps are coming closer to my place and I stand up slowly. I use my phone to light the floor and my eyes find someone's feet around only three metres away from me.
"Huah!" I don't even bother to see who this person is because I'm too surprised to act calmly. I scream and push the mysterious person away before hitting his shoulders continously.
"Y-Y-Yah!" the deep voice groans in protest. He grabs my wrist to stop me from hitting him, "Stop!"
He uses his flashlight to see my face. I cover my eyes with my free hand from the light. My eyes widen when the person murmurs my name vividly, "Eunye?"
I gasp in surprise because I immediately realize who is standing in front of me, "Hoya?!"
"What are you doing here at this time?" he lets go of my wrist and lowers the flashlight. "Aish, you hit me real hard."
I just grin akwardly and mutter, "Sorry..."
Hoya sighs and repeats his question, "So... what are you doing here and how did you enter this locked room?"
"I don't leave the school. I sneak inside here before the room was locked and the electricity went down around fifteen minutes ago...," I explain. "Well, what are you doing here then?"
"You don't answer my question," he flicks my forehead lightly. "I come to get my phone. I left it on my desk. You're going to explain to me whatever you're doing later, young lady."
To be honest, he is the last person I want to see right now. No, it's not because I suspect him or else but I just don't know how to face Hoya after what happened.
There is a part of me which feels guilty when I remember Woohyun. What does Woohyun think now? Does he hate me? Does he feel betrayed by Sunggyu?
I also don't know what to say to Sunggyu. I can only act cold towards him because I don't want stupid prank from the students to happen to him. It's my foolish act, not his.
While Hoya...
Yes, he cares about me, just like what he always did but that's actually just makes me more uneasy. His affection makes me confused all the time so I decide to keep quite a distance with him.
"Wait for me outside," he hands over the flashlight to me while he takes my phone from my hand. "I'll use this to find my phone."
I just nod slightly and follow his instruction. I open the door and I hear someone squeaks right next to me.
"Who-" I turn aside to see who is there but the words are stuck when the person runs away immediately.
She is wearing black long coat and black knit hat but thanks to the flashlight, I can see her face. She accidentally drops a picture on her attempt of running away. I bend down to see what picture it is.
It's another picture of me and Sungyeol, my last 'assignment' before Woohyun.
I know that I'm supposed to chase after her but I'm too shocked because I recognize who she is.
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♥ Hoya ♥
I walk out from the staff room after I found my phone. Pushing aside my surprise because of Eunye's presence, I think that it's the best moment to talk with her about the incident.
"Eunye, let's-" I was closing the door when Eunye cuts my words without hesitation as if she really needs to tell me now.
"It's Bora," Eunye turns off the flashlight, leaving us in darkness. "It's Bora who put those pictures."
I frown and repeat her words, "Bora? Bora put those pictures? Bora as in Sunggyu Hyung's ex-girlfriend?"
She turns on the flashlight again and retorts, "They broke up already?"
This conversation is actually going nowhere. I don't think it's a good idea to end up throwing one for another question in the middle of darkness like this.
"Let's talk outside," I exchange the flashlight with her phone. I take her hand and lead her out from the school without another word.
The security guard looks at us with confusion when I return the flashlight. I guess he actually wants to ask me what Eunye is doing or how she could sneak inside but I fasten my pace with her.
We stop when we almost reach her apartment. I let go of her hand and turn to look at her, "You were saying?"
She clears awkwardly, avoiding my gaze, "I saw Bora and she dropped this picture when she noticed that I saw her."
Eunye shows me a picture of her and a man, holding hands and posing in front of the camera. I look up from the picture to her, "Bora? Are you sure?"
"Is it possible that I want to accuse her without any good reason?" she rubs her temple, sighing heavily. "How does she even know that I work at Eungeum?"
"Eunye, I think it's not possible," I speak out my thought. "Why does she even want to do this? What kind of advantages she has by doing this?"
"How would I know?" she shots back right at me. "It's been one year or so since the last time I met her. Who knows that she is jealous about me and... Well, her boyfriend."
"Ex-boyfriend," I correct her words. I crumble the picture calmly, "I met Bora before I went back to the school so there is no way she would do this when she knew I would be there."
Eunye gives me a questioning look, "What? You met her? Where?"
Now I just remember that I haven't told Eunye that Bora actually lives in the same apartment building with me.
"Look, the thing here is it's impossible for Bora to do this. Maybe you're mistaken her with someone else. It's dark, remember?" I try to lighten the atmosphere.
"So now you believe her more than your best friend?" she blurts out the question with dissapointment look. "Did those pictures change your thought about having a friend like me, Lee Howon?"
My heart sinks upon her statement, "No. It's not like that, Eunye. You got it all wrong. All I was trying to say is it might be a mistake."
"Perhaps our friendship is a mistake," she fakes a laughter and I know sarcasm is intended in her tone. "You know, it's the first time you believe someone else more than me. Maybe you're in love with her."
I grab her wrist when she turns around, ready to walk away from me, "Stop this non sense, Eunye."
"I wish I could," she tosses my hand away. "I couldn't be myself anymore in front of you. You hurt me more than anyone else could."
What is she trying to say?
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♥ Eunye ♥
My heart aches real bad when he actually defended Bora. I know what I saw and I know that it's Bora; my eyes couldn't deceive me.
I know that I'm acting like a kid. I know I'm really childish that I don't want to understand his opinion but I feel really hurt by his words even when he doesn't mean it at all.
Too afraid that I will cry in front of Hoya, I decide to go inside my apartment but he stops me with warning tone, "Stop this non sense, Eunye."
The disappointment hits me again. I toss his hand away with clenched heart, "I wish I could. I couldn't be myself anymore in front of you. You hurt me more than anyone else could."
The words just came out without any thought. I blow my bangs and look up at the night sky, "Why don't you just go back and meet Bora? Our conversation is useless."
"Why did you sound like you're jealous?" Hoya asks me back and it doesn't change the situation better. It actually makes me feel worse inside.
"Fine!" I hiss and finally looks at him, ignoring my rapid heartbeat. "I am jealous! You're happy now?"
Hoya only looks at me with wide eyes as if I just said an impossible statement. My breath is unsteady and I think tears will come anytime now.
"Eunye, what are you talking about?" he steps closer to me and reaches out his hand to pat my head. "I'm just kidding..."
"No!" I step backwards, drawing distance from him. "Don't, Hoya."
He looks really confused but I think it's nothing compared to how complicated my feeling is right now, "Why, Eunye? What's wrong? Tell me."
"Everything," I murmur, taking more steps farther from him. "Everything about us."
"Eunye, I'm your best friend and you can talk about everything with me. You know that, right?" he mutters slowly. "What are we arguing about actually?"
That's it. It's futile to talk with him when I can't even think properly.
"I need a good rest," I state with monotone. "Good night, Howon."
This time he doesn't stop me so I manage to return to my apartment alone and lock myself in my room, drowning myself in heartbreaking silence.
This heartache I'm feeling is not a feeling of hurt because of a friend.
It's more than that and that's why I become more afraid to stay close with Hoya...
...because I don't want to lose him as a friend when my heart craves for more.
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